innocentmaturity

Switched (:

2008-10-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

hello people (:

I've switched to livejournal for the time being (; just to try out

http://burningzest.livejournal.com/

yay go leave a comment or something. SPANKS :D

WILD WILD WET WAS AWESOME

2008-10-15T21:35:00.004+08:00

GOSH I HAD THE MOST WONDERFUL DAY OF MY LIFE TODAY!

with WATER. can you believe it!!!!!!! Gosh wild wild wet is the ultimate heartwrenching themepark you can ever go to. THE SAMSONITE RIDE OR WHATEVER WAS UTTERLY FREAKY. and gosh jing ying (who sat with me! ((: ) was sooooooooo brave!

I'm serious i had the greatest time on earth today. i felt sooooo happy and so thrilled by the numerous fantabulous rides! Thank you sally, pau, ziwei, mari, jo, jing ying, rachel for the beautiful memories. I'll remember this day forever (:

we'll hold on till the end of time; forever

2008-10-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

THE.EXAMS.ARE.OVER.

can you believe it?
i still can't frankly; it still all seems super surreal to me! haha

ANYWAYS my new resolution is...

GUESS. GUESS!!

to slack.

PERFECT ISN"T IT ((: ahahhaa
So basically the EOYs were _____ with almost every paper killing me. but whatever i can proudly say i did my bestest (: and i shall try not to whine if i get lousy marks. It's v.v.difficult, but i must try acknowledging my efforts too ^^

I'm basically going to:

SHOP!!
MUG KOREAN DRAMAS (Snow Queen--again; Coffee Prince; Yi gong shen de yan lei; my girl)
READ ALL THE BOOKS I'VE BEEN LONGING TO INDULGE IN
CHALET
WILD WILD WET
ICE SKATE
LEARN BALLET
PRACTISE NICE PIANO PIECES

YAY! we're going to wild wild wet tomorrow! so excited. can't believe my mum allowed me to go!

(and i hope i don't see red tomorrow)

HEEHEEE. ANYWAYs, I THOUGHT OF A SOLUTION TO DRAMA! WHOOHOOO! Say, "Bravo, shiyan!" and i sincerely and wholeheartedly WISH/HOPE/PRAY that this idea would be well accepted by everyone in 203A! if not we really really really really die le :/ Seriously, we should all stop being female dogs and laugh about what has really happened recently and GET DOWN TO WORK! i can't believe we can't do this! Wasn't everything turning out fine? i mean with everything going on almost ideal?

i don't believe we can't work together, pig/sheena/rie/keyu. It has never been this way and i sincerely apologise for all the female dogging politics that has been going on >.<. Can't we work together like before? I mean please? :S

please someone tell me, every problem has a solution; and we'll be able to work together to solve this problem. We'll make it, right?

203 203 all the way!!!!!!!!!! ((:

I'll miss every single one of you guys to bits :'/

2008-10-10T15:53:00.007+08:00

~~CANCELED~~

ANYWAY FORGET ABOUT THAT

EOYS ARE HALF OVER ! :DDDDDDDDDD WHEE THERE"S ONLY SCIENCE AND MATH LEFT!

the languages were tough -.- GEEEEE i don't think i'll do very well but i think i can say i tried my bery bery best :) When i say a paper is okay, it just means i don't THINK i screwed it THAT badly. hahahahahhahaaha. it would never mean i'm confident of doing well ahahah :D anyways there's still science inheritance to combat! i just suck at that. GAH. but whatever :D AT LEAST HALF THE BATTLE IS ALREADY WON BY NOW!

(and after the exams, we've gotta start REAL work on our drama -.-)

2008-10-04T17:56:00.002+08:00

I can't take it already. I shall just blog

Just yesterday my aunty told me her nephew passed away. He's thirty plus, and is survived by three very young children and his wife. He's wife is in jail. Why? Because she sold drugs just to earn money for his medical bills. And what were his children's reaction?

"Aunty, when will daddy wake up?"

Just bringing him back from manila to their hometown and they need at least six people's month's pay.

His two sisters are in singapore.

Well, what i really want to say is, to be here living in Singapore is more than a blessing; Who are we to complain about stress? Who are we to complain about the humid weather? Who are we to complain about our 'demanding' school? What are all the SIAs, project work, tests, exams, compared to their suffering? To their poverty?

I think i'm very very lucky. And yes, to everyone out there,

count your blessings.

2008-10-03T09:25:00.002+08:00

HELLO. i'm in the computer lab and everyone is practically going crazy trying to distress playing nice 'tong nian' games. like cartoon network etc. taking this time to blog as i probably wouldn't touch the computer at all at home.. :(

MY MIND IS CLUTTERED WITH EVERYTHING!
GEOG
HISTORY
BIO

gosh i can't wait for lame eoys to be over! and then it'll be liberation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want it to start now but also want it to come later cause i obviously can't finish revising -.-" sian. GRAHHHHH.

BUT I SHALL TRYYYYYYYY TO ENJOY STUDYING! :D

JIAYOU TO EVERYONE WHO IS TAKING PSLE AND EOYS AND A LEVELS :D

<3 shiyan

2008-09-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

hey world~

Life's been boring but nevertheless, i think my mind is getting richer everyday! (tries to look on the bright side) i'm going to have tuition soon and i should really take a nap, but i can't seem to fall asleep now.

As usual, i blog when i feel bored. wahah xD cos after blogging i'll feel guilty, but it doesn't necessarily mean that i get more productive too haha.

Homelearning! yay i love staying at home.

OH and i failed my piano exam as usual -.-" gah so frustrating. i really really really want to quit already.

so jiayou to everyone!!!!!!!

SHIYAN WILL CONTINUE TO STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY (: (provided her brain doesn't explode!)

2008-09-22T08:46:00.002+08:00

hello! if you see the time now, you'll realize i'm NOT in school! cool huh :D

wahaha. have been sick the past few days >.< shan't say why cos it may seem crude here. lols xD Anyway, i don't plan to go on whatever hiatus people call it, really wonder why such a word would appear. i've also stopped using the word mugging, and i don't plan to use the word hiatus either. i'll post when i feel like it :D like now, of course. though i didn't touch the com for three full days, it was not because i had to refrain myself to focus, but rather it's sort of natural? haha :D oh wells, maybe it's the sick thing that's keeping me away. i shall rest today.

and gosh can someone help me! i'm teribly slow when it comes to revision! i do work like two times slower than anyone else >.< which is so so so so terribly irritating. PLUS, i get so easily distracted! gosh it's so boring to be staring at your notes the whole day ...

haha, i think i'm sleep rejuvenated. i sleep like at what? NINE everyday?! so cool huh. i'm already dying for EOYS and i have to fall sick -.- rocks man ;)

i've got to

EAT MORE FRUITS
EAT MORE VEGETABLES
DRINK MORE WATER
DRINK MORE FRUIT JUICE
EAT MORE BANANAS
SLEEP
PEE
and (get rid of the toxic in my body)

JIAYOU FOR EOYS PEOPLE! :D DON"T FALL SICK, IT"S STUPID!

My new life slogan (:

2008-09-16T20:51:00.002+08:00

when everything seems to be going wrong
think of the less fortunate

when all seems bleak
think of those who stood up bravely after the rain

when the sky is grey
you'll know that the sun will soon appear

this is a cycle that i'll have to go through
and i have confidence i'll be able to pull through it

i just have to
stumble
fall
crumble
first

and i'll pick myself up again

SHIYAN YOU CAN DO IT!

that's my new life slogan. wahaha xD my grades have been plunging. like crazy. sometimes, i wonder why i'm always keeping myself so busy. why do i take up all these when i know i won't be able to manage? why do i always feel like i'm about to just drop dead out of exhaustion? but i'm proud to say that i have survived. and i'm still surviving. i'm not perfect i'm not smart. and i hate it when... -zips mouth-

this year, my life feels like it has been scunched and chewed on, yet after everything it is mixed up again to form a beautiful cake. it's weird, and i wonder why. but i shan't think too much waha xD i feel quite proud of myself sometimes, and when i go back to those days when i practically felt like my skin could not be thicker, i suddenly feel sooo accomplished.

sometimes, you just have to take a step back, and you'll realize the beauty of everything

--as quoted from my romance essay (:

天生我才必有用！

若我能在跌倒后站起来，我就是强者！

2008-09-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

THE JOGATHON CUM CARNIVAL IS OFFICIALLY OVER.

Gosh and i'm already missing it. was drench in the rain just now as we were trying to pack up everything: TABLES, DEFLATING THE BOUNCY CASTLES, CARTONS OF DRINKS and EVERYTHING. SOAKED. like crazy.

and i'm darn tired i don't think i'll be able to move at all tomorrow. crapp.

yes and even though there wasn't many people, i really really really really learnt A LOT from this experience. oh and haha at the end we were all holding hands sliding down the bouncy slide.

To Team REACH: WE HAVE DONE VERY VERY WELL :D :D

AND ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL WHO CAME TODAY AND YESTERDAY! YOU GUYS ARE THE BESTEST EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

THANK YOU ROAD MARSHALS, WE WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE THIS WITHOUT YOU GUYS.

THANK YOUUUUU TO EVERYONE WHO SUPPORTED US, WE REALLY REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE IT!

AND YES, even though i'm going to die for EOYs and culture test tomorrow. but WHATEVER. i'm SUPPERRRR proud of myself that i did my part for the less fortunate in the society. THAT IS MY LIFE :D no question about it! :D

REACH OUT
TOUCH HEARTS
CHANGE LIVES

TEAM REACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

2008-09-06T12:01:00.002+08:00

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WHY DOES ALL THE TIMING ALWAYS CLASHHHHHHHHHHHHH?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! THIS IS HELLLL FRUSTRATING.

2008-09-06T00:03:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOUR LEE SHI SHI WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

You'll be my bestest science proj work partner EVER! <3333

ILY! <33333333

OOPS I FORGOT! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I LOVE YOU MUM! <33333

2008-09-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

Hey world!

The Hols are coming to an end, and by right it's the last day of the sept school holidays. Sigh, and it didn't even feel holiday-ish at all! D: so sad can. Have been super busy with jogathon stuff and chem block test rev and just plain HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. urgh! i must take a breakkkk!

Haha so tomorrow i'm going to (hopefully) watch a movie with my bro, cousin and aunt. but there aren't nice movies :( but tomorrow shall really really be a slack day out of the 9 days so far. I've got dance at 4pm! LOL. with my DAD. so funny! cos my mum and dad signed up for DANCE CLASSES! hahah but mmy mum is overseas so she ask me take her place. quite exciting! but i don't think the teacher would start teaching on the first lesson. :O scarly all adults wahh so scary. awhahha but still, i haven't had the feel of dance in a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG time! and i'm missing it! wahha xD

and i've still got darn history to complete! URGHHHHHHHHHH. PLUS like one more GRAPH question of math rev ppr. i always skip graph questions.

I felt sick the entire day! HEADACHE. NAUSEA! yuck i'm falling sick sian.

I NEED VOLUNTEERS AND PPLE TO RUNN! HELP ME PEOPLE! THAT"S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR, RIGHT? haha :)

and lol my romance essay MIRACULOUSLY got short listed, FOR DON"T KNOW WHAT REASON. but ahahhaa someone could actually appreciate the way i intepret romance! that's ummm, haha interesting? OH WELL!

and we're kind dead for drama. 203A PLEASE MEMORISE SCRIPT BY MONDAY!! IF NOT YOU"LL DIE. DIEEEEEEEEEEE. yes. thank you. wahhaa have a happy (last few days) of your holiday!

<3 shiyan!

COME JOIN US!

2008-09-04T23:02:00.003+08:00

HEY EVERYONE!

COME JOIN US AT THE FAMILY JOGATHON-CUM-CARNIVAL ON THE 13TH/14TH SEPT! IT'S FOR A CHARITABLE CAUSE!! ALL FUNDS WILL GO TO NEW HOPE SERVICES!

KEEP FIT AND PLAY A PART FOR THE COMMUNITY TOO!

Date: 13/14th sept
Time: 0830-1130 (Jogathon)/1000-1800 (carnival)
Venue: East Coast Park; Casuarina Grove (Area F--near the food village/cable ski area)

Right so i'm part of Team REACH, and we're organising this event for the public! :D We work very hard so please please please come down to EAST COAST PARK, CASUARINA GROVE to support us! :)

me and sally planned the route so we ensure you it'll be AWESOMMMMMEEEE :D :D :D :D

If you need CIP points, you can come down as a volunteer!

registration/road marshal

Or, you can help out at our street sales!

Also, you can set up food stalls with your friends! All costs would be covered! The carnival would be held after the jogathon on the 13th, and there'll be funnnnn rides by UNCLE RINGO! like the mini viking ship etc etc!

YAY TRY TO COME AND SUPPORT US OKAY!

<3 SHIYAN!

2008-09-02T12:36:00.002+08:00

Hi world! I'm left with drama and history to do.. LOL i was JUST about to start on my revision of chem when my tuition teacher called and asked if we could have tuition today. oh wells! i told her i haven't done my homework and she said she'll come at three thirty. right, so i shall be doing my tuition homework now! :) greeat at least my thursday SHOULD be free. my today was supposed to be free! anyway. drama mama mama. haha i was doing drama this morn. i hope our play turns out welllll ((:

okiedokie. shall embark on my ting xie and assessment book. tralala. i hope i'll be able to start revising chem today. shall dao history -.- AND I RAN OUT OF FOOLSCAP! how irritating is that!very. LOLs oh welll!

shall blog about the jogathon 'fieldtrip' we took yesterday later. I think i'm falling sick! reached home at like eight yesterday.

Right, im not sure if i'm going for the chem remedial tomorrow. i think i should. i'll go if we're doing drama tomorrow morn! ((;

THE WORLD IS BEAUTIFUL TODAY! ((:

I don't want to MUG.

2008-08-31T17:20:00.002+08:00

URGH. i'm so sian. i've got no mood to mug at all!!! doing homework is extremely BORINGGGGG. REALLY REALLY REALLY BORING. i woke up like two hours after the time i wanted to. so tired D: there's still so much more to do for HOMEWORK. and drama! we were discussing just now. oh wells :/ there's a lot a lot a lot more to do. i was supposed to go out today, but my mum doens't want to. so sad! D: what have i done today... hmm. i've not done much. urgh!!!!

MUG SHIYAN.
YOU'VE GOT TO MUG MUG MUG.
If not your marks would die, as it already is now. grr. anyways(: i must ENJOY mugging. yay i love mugging i love mugging.

oh and i think i'm taking CLEP. don't care if i'm going to die or whatever. at least it's structure learning. i know what i'm learning. not like what's happening now. yay(:

i shall call my aunt. maybe MAYBE i'll be relieved from home a teeeeeeeeny little while.

tata! <3 shiyan

I'll really miss 203 :(

2008-08-30T22:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIGGGGGGGGGG :)

just changed my skin and song. It's dedicated officially to 203. Seriously, i'll really really cryyyy. ARGH. shan't think too much yet.

Our friendship would always stand strong, right?

A very Happy Teachers' Day!

2008-08-29T18:46:00.002+08:00

To all teachers: HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

haha the TDC concert today was awesome((: the programmes were super ultra duper entertaining! hahaha and the PSG. LOL MY DAD! hahahhah and my mum. so cuuuute. my dad was playing with siqi's bro's guitar hehe. Elvis Presley and the Fan Skirt woman haha. And the most ironic thing is that everyone single one of them are working parents with fairly demanding jobs. hah(: i'm proud of all of them. AMAZING. everyone can make time! :D Enthusiasm always makes life fruitful. Don't always think of academics. The memories you keep are always from this kind of projs(: oh and i just realised really nothing is bought. the pineapple and banana fruit that one mother wore on her head was actually made from the gardenia bread wrapper. the nut flavoured ones which were yellow. COOOL RIGHT. urgh i wanna get them to display! if not it'll really be such a pity!

haha so after that i went out with jiajia (((: Even my parents were so glad to see her after such a loooooooooooooong looooooooooooong time. i think it's really cool(: our friendship really doens't change at all. we still talk like how we used to. exactly same tone, same everything. 'Some things would never change' ! so we watched Wall-e. it was really quite boring but the underlying meaning was cool(: then we walked aroudn shopping for presents i bought for eunice (dung), tiffany and yumo. cheap cheap stuff lah, cute also though. then then we TOOK NEO PRINTS! hahaha. first time two people take. it was quite successful :D I'm so glad and comforted that our friendship still remains the same as before. it's quite cool! We talk/laugh/joke the same way as before! :D

I SPENT A LOT OF MONEY TODAY! D: hahah but i had funn.

OH AND I HOPE PIG IS HAPPY TODAY(: SHE RECEIVED TONS OF PRESENTS AND WELL WISHES. you better like my pig, PIG! hahahahahahahaahaha. ((: HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY! hope i remember to wish you tomorrow. HAH. ILY! (: <33 you're a year, uh hmm SMELLIER. hee.

You know i suddenly felt really really sad today for no reason... and i didn't realize why until i came home. I'LL REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS 203. i mean really. I can't imagine parting with FPS grp/pig/stephie/mari/jo/leting etc. EVERYONE! i'll really really SERIOUSLY misssss every single one of them. EVERYONE. argh! it's affecting me so! LOL i wonder why i was suddenly so random... haha maybe it's because i was thinking about my friendship with jia and wondering if it'll be the same. IT WILL, RIGHT? :/

SO... it's the start of the SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS! Though it's a mugging holiday, i really really hope to have great funn mugging as well. i'm going to do bettter!

I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS ((: they make my world go round! haha maybe we really shouldn't really think too much into life. What is life? hahaha that was my speech. Maybe, we just have to treasure what we have and stop thinking of what would happen in the future.

ROCK ON PEOPLE(:

PIANO EXAM >.< tomorrow

2008-08-24T11:19:00.002+08:00

OMGOOSE. my piano exam is TOMORROW! good luck to lee shi yan man. hope she doesn't fail. MY ONLY AIM IS TO PASS. and not waste money. urgh >< i'm going to practise at least three hours of piano today. (that's very long considering someone who has not much interest). AND YAY(: I THINK I"M GOING OUT FOR DINNER TODAY.

seriously, what's wrong with my life. i actually get so excited when we're just going to have a family dinner.

anyway, i shall BELIEVE i can pass. and it'll be half a battle won. tralala. let's see what i've got to complete today

I'm still left with 2 hours of practising piano
rehearsing speech for the final time
ROMANCE ESSAY >.<" <--this is what i'm dreading
touch up on history assignment

AND I NEED TO START REVISING FOR EOYS SOON >.<

jiayou shiyan!

P.S JIAYOU SALLY (: I'll be there to help you don't worry. hahahahahha xD

Emotional :'(

2008-08-23T15:36:00.002+08:00

Just read pig's blog >< and it made me tear! i'm going to miss 203 to BITS i tell you. i'll really miss EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. It's so horrible to know that our ever so bonded class will be splitting up in just 2 months. TWO MONTHs. omgoodness! urgh.

you've no idea how much i'll miss my companion sally, my dear pau pau whom i love to tickle, my dearest mari who loves to camwhore sometimes with me, my dearest piggggg who loves to call me mozzy and stands behind me every morn assembly, my dear joseph who is always ever so caring about me, my dear stephiee who is ever so motherly to me, my monkey who always goes KIII KOOOVVVEEE KKKOOUU with me, dearest yanni with her octopus face, heng yeng with all her fuuny laughter, LE TINGGGG for always being my confidante and the bouncy little thing in my lit circle group, my siqi who is really talkative deep down, my aunty rachel, our hilarious monitress and of course, my liii ccia. (:

GOSH. i'll really really dread every single day without you guys! :'(

YOU MAKE MY WORLD GO ROUND(:
ROCK ON PEOPLE!

坚持不懈, 要继续!

average person

2008-08-22T18:52:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone (: it's been quite long since i've blogged. hmm. anyway. i've been quite emo lately. maybe i'm just exhausted? not sure why though, cca stopped and everything. i wonder what's making me so busy. GAH D: haha --throws unhappy things away-- School's been mundane. boring? haha i spend a LOT of time tickling pau pau. I LOVE HOW SHE SQUIRMS. at least it entertains me during lessons and prevents me from falling asleep. hahahaha.

i want cca back. at least it eh enables me to forget about a LOT of stress haha. and stretching is comfortable! (i'm not being sadistic) dance is pretty ((: i like pretty dances.

EOYs are coming! :O it pulled my entire year's marks down last year! DANG. it was really really hard. sian >< I can't believe it's so soon!!! HAHA. and i'm looking forward to SCARLET tomorrow! WHOOPIE (: at least i get to escape for a while!

have a spectacular night people (although i'm not exactly close to anyone in theatre):

Amanda (PSL)
Amanda (XT's best friend)

haha, AND mr nick ng. LOL. okay i'm going to eat. i'm constantly starving recently. (not to mention having recurring constipations =X ) haha!

<3 shiyan!

2008-08-17T13:39:00.002+08:00

HELLO! I FINALLY GOT MY NEW PHONE! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ it's SONY ERICSSON W760.hoho. :) finally a non laggy and high resolution phone! FINALLY.

I've been rather unproductive this weekend. oh yesterday i went out like from 4 to 9. super cool. ate nice jap food and GREEN TEA ICECREAM :D with my parents. bro and sis are studying for exams. haha. anyway; i'm 1/12 through my romance essay. HAH HAH. how exciting.

Most of my time's been spent doing drama. i hope ours turns out well! Mr nick ng hasn't been helping us at all. like he just tells us what to complete then he leaves the room for his coffee or something. YEAH. but it's good also lah, at least we feel a lot for our play. somehow! :D our play is kind of fragmented already, but it's still a little raw to me. haha, how far can we get? we aren't professionals. but i think what we've come up so far is really really good already(: at least during the discussion we had one wednesday, the class seemed very hyped up. like everyone was shooting their ideas so fast we couldn't catch all of them. hope we can do it well! ;D Meeting at 4pm to discuss roles tonight :)

I've been having some mixed feelings lately, lol. maybe it's because of what le ting said to me. As much as i know i should ignore, it's pretty hard. oh well(: i'll get over it myself!

Oh and i'm kinda worried for tomorrow's R&J assignment. it'll prob pull my entire mark down. >< OH MAN. sigh, but anyway! :D

<3 shiyan!

nymd farewell party (:

2008-08-15T20:46:00.002+08:00

hello(: today was the farewell partyyy :) it was sad.. i mean the atmosphere wasn't sad. but come to think about it now, i really can't imagine not seeing people like larissa, bernice, patricia, xinkai, theresa, trixie, yiran in school next year. it'll feel odd. i don't want to be a sec four. no seniors! which is sad. but the party wasn't too bad. it was quite partyish with our lovely witchy party hats. haha.

next year would be SYF :O how freaky is that. i remember primary six' one. hoho. i was sooo freakin' nervous before i went on stage. wonder what would happen this time.

and sometimes, i really do feel not quite so integrated even into my batch. it's weird. like.. i don't know, i'm not the screamish type maybe. but we still share many happy happy times together. we need to bond more! we really do. and we also need to MATURE more. to stop the unnecessary screaming at times. NYMD needs to bond more! more more more!

haha here's wishing kelly (president) and mabel (vice pres) a wonderful time perfecting NYMD (: TO ALL SEC FOURS: WE LOVE YOU, AND WE'LL REALLY REALLY MISS YOU! <3333333333333

shiyan's happy !

2008-08-13T22:03:00.004+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY! Shi Yan is currently HIGHHHH today! yipee :) i'm high. reached home at eight. spend the entire day doing cca farewell party stuff :D LALALLA. me and eunice chionggggggged to westmall at six to buy the goodie stuff. both of us felt DAMN GOOD AND DAMN HAPPY. lalalllallalalala. I LIKE IT WHEN I FEEL INVOLVED IN STUFF. feels weird when i don't. anyway, whining rosanne who kept scolding me today was terribly late for her ballet lesson. haha i shan't let out the secret of what we're doing for the sec fours. lalal :D in case anyone pops by, like aunty larissa. it's REALLY NICE :D credits to, Eunice Loo, Rosanne Chong and Lee Shi Yan. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH. anyway i'm looking forward to EVERYTHING NOOW :D it all seems like a CLEAR picture right ahead of me. like the hmwk load has gone down FOR THE TIME BEING. :D yippeee. shiyan's happpy today.

our choral and drama would be DAMN COOL if we can do it well. LALA. TRALLAA. i'm currently QUITE sure i can cope with OM next year. :D

BREAKING DAWN~

right off to cut stuff for the _________ we're doing. BYE PEEPS :D

2008-08-12T17:44:00.003+08:00

heya there. school's okay today. haha. basically it. I HOPE TO SLEEP EARLY TODAY!

things i hope to complete: GEOG (done)
Drama script (will be doing)
Practise piano
Romance essay (continue)
Tuition homework
Breaking Dawn :D

i want to be more involved it cca stuff >.< haha i shall volunteer my services now. tralla. BYE PEOPLE.

OH YAH. i was reading breaking dawn on the bus. and i had to get off at the most exciting part. was reading as i was walking on the road back to my house LOL. i'm passed with the interesting part. read till five. HEEHEEHEE.

ANGRY

2008-08-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

i'm currently pissed, angry and frustrated. I CAN'T STAND IT WHEN SOMETHING'S DUE THE NEXT DAY AND I'M ONLY THE ONE WORRYING. and like going crazy trying to do it to the best. sally is uncontactable. she hasn't even reached home at this point of time. and her phone get through. mari was busy the entire day again. YAH AND I SPENT MY WHOLE MON HOLIDAY TRYING TO CLEAR UP THE MESS OF THE CHEM REPORT. darn.

but i feel proud of myself. actually understanding how vegetables are preserved. doing pages full of biblio, of RESEARCH, and finally understanding it to a point where i can write it in my own words. beautiful. is that the only thing i should award myself for? and after A THOUSAND ATTEMPTS, the chem report is still 12 pages long. exclu 2 pages of biblio, the annex and coverpage, it's 8 pages long. WOW, it's only supposed to be 5. i'm angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! frustrated. REALLY frustrated. let me get it alllll out here.

!@#$%^&*()_+!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*$%^&*()_&^%$#$%

RIGHT. enough. phew i feel much better. at least i've done more than enough of my part for this proj. hope my effort pays. and my teeth is hurting. i hate the consequences of a dental appt.

so i shold take DEEEEEEEEEEP BREATH now. yes. WELL DONE SHI YAN. you shall sleep early today. at least wo3 liang2 xin1 guo4 de qu4.

<3 shiyan

BREAKING DAWN! <3

2008-08-11T11:27:00.002+08:00

HELLLO! hahahahaha. i feel so happy with myself! i finished two lit essays in two hours last night! after even being brain dead at sally's house trying to do chem sia report. so cool. i didn't really plan and think much, sort of treated it like a test. so can finish it QUICK. LALA :D

Oh and breaking dawn! it isn't really THAT intesresting but i'm amazed at how it keeps me going. like you can't put the book down cos every line leaves behind suspense. so cool right. even though the suspense is not REALLY suspense.. but still.. HAHA. im going SLOWLY, so i can savour. it's the only thing i look forward too please xD

i feel like slacking today. but i must still complete:

DRAMA PLOT --SCENES
CHEM SIA --cut down
ROMANCE ESSAY--continue
TRIGO QUIZ--revise
PRACTISE PIANO

right. sian >< I WANT TO GET MY NEW PHONE! DARN. i can't wait. oh i've got dental later. ROAR. they had better not make me wait another 2h. haha

I <3 NYMD
I<3 203
I <3 BACTCH '10

NATIONAL DAY. PAULINE'S SURPRISE PARTY

2008-08-09T14:44:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULINE!

today started off awesomely (if there's such a word)! hohohohho. guess how we celebrated pauline's birthday! HAHAHHAHAHAHA. we surprised her at her house today! can you believe! we were sitting in her living room and she walked out in her PJs. HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO. you should have seen the look on her face. LALLALALALLALA. it was so .. so i don't know! COOOL? yeah. me and sally had a hard time contacting her parents. well we got her home. but after tryign to call dunno how many THOUSAND times, no one picked. so we umm, tricked her into telling us her parent's number. HAHAHA. seriously, i'm damn good at lying! trust me if you need to organise surprises. HAHAHHAHA. anyway the cake was nice (: and our whole OM group was there to celebrate her bday! hope she was touched <3 anyway and yes, that was when we decided to do OM next year. hahah i think our group very cute. we practically sat down and told each other what we didn't like about this year's process, like each other's flaws. hahahahahhaha. we're super funnny. but it was cool, WE FINALLY GOT OVER OUR 'MENTAL DOUBTS' and decided to do OM and be each other's pillar of support for next year! we'll do it well for the school, RIGHT?

hahah, yesterday was connect singapore. lala. it didn't turn out THAT well, but overall i think it has been the best ever national day celebration our school ever had. we were zihighing like siao as a class. SINGING like mad! cheering at the roadside. OMGOSH i'll miss 203! we've come SOOOOOOOO far. and we sang all the national day songs. though the school wasn't very hyped up about it, at least we had a taste of the national day feeling. something that i hadn't felt in ages. haha xD

then we went for batch '10 outing! hahaha :D it was funn! we all could click very well with each other! not clique. but 'click' hahahahaha. all super enthu cos it's probably in everyone to appreciate bonding! :D

well today's national day. ummm. cousins, aunts all coming for party. as always, 'traditionally' every year. hope it would be 'party-ish' and not just 'gathering-ish'. hohoho :D

WE'RE DOING OM! I"M SO HAPPY!

i'm currently SUPER contented with my life. yay :D hope it's not shortlived. :D :D

and pau, REALLY, A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

may our nation have a great future ahead!

2008-08-03T00:46:00.002+08:00

hello hello it's so late alr but i feel like posting a short one. I JUST FINISHED WRITTEN TASK! WHOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! it's cool i'm proud of it :D :D :D :D :D :D anyay i had a nice buffet dinner and saw rosanne hohoho. funny. i have been slacking quite a lot please, doing my hmwk at a very slow pace. if i want to do faster i would have finished lit circle, but i haven't started, of course, which shows my rate of work -.-" . anyway it's super late and i've been looking horrid recently. XIONG MAO YAN. roarrrrr!

chinese dance was good :D haha met so many old seniors! hahahahah. chermain and larissa were funny. hahahahah. oh oh, it's a very known fact but i must reiterate! I THINK CHINESE DANCERS ARE CONTORTIONISTS! you should see how their bodies can be you know, ehh how to put it nicely, twisted. eh twisted is a nice word already. i would have said something like distorted. HOHOHOHO. they're REALLY flexible. everyone knows. ahhaahhaha. okay i'm so happy now.HAHAHAHHAHA. i shall wake up super late tomorrow.

BYE PEEPS.

<3 shiyan

2008-07-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

hello! haha since there isn't much work due tomorrow i shall post a short one. xD

HAHAHHA. my 'HAIZ' senior kelly tagged me to a quiz that i'm super ultra lazy to do, now. haha i shall do it over the weekends or something :D hahahaha. it looks quite interesting.. hmmm

nothing's much happening in school.. mundane... yeah so i'm kinda like torn if i should take OM next year. Mr nick ng was like.. OH MAN.. i don't know!!!! roar.. i shall decide after... yeah. so unhappy stuff should be thrown away! *poof*

i'm not doing as well as i expect myself to do for chem. >.< very sad. :( but i shall try lowering my expectations lah.. haha. and i'm not sure what subject combinations i should take! so tornnn! i don't like this year really. i prefer last year. haha.

OH DANG! i forgot to practise piano.. as usual. SHOOOOOOOOOT. i shall practise at nine. hahah i'll practically disturb the entire neighbourhood with my super lousy ultra horrible piano playing skills. seriously, i put effort into everything except piano -.-" don't know why!

TEACHER'S DAY AUDITIONS -.-" OH MAN. the class isn't cooperating much again. but oh welll. i would be sian if were them too. but we must make it something that we can remember by again!!! haha. i'm in a not-high-but-not-low-mood. neutral, i guess. I shall aim to sleep early today.. lets see.. what am i left with (FOR TODAY)

1. Rehearse Chinese port presentation
2. Chinese tuition wk

okay i MUST sleep earLIER today. HAH. i can't for weekends! WHEN WILL IT EVER COME!

<3 shiyan

2008-07-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

NO idea why im still blogging now when i'm so super tired already but anyway, just to ya know, eh what's the word, commemorate, yes COMMEMORATE.. the day LEESHIYAN ran the most she had ever in her life. and came in 44th! WHOOPIES. eh not bad lor! i expected myself to be like the 78th person, which is the last position. eh TOP FIFTY HOR. i'm quite pro lah hor, must boost my ego a bit. well, i was practically DYING throughout it. my legs almost fell apart climbing all those darn slopes ><. walked a little. hahah :D really couldn't take it lah! hello all of the competitive runners started off at like sprinting speed >< obviously i didn't feel like being left out so pace their sprinting speed lor. (it seems like sprinting speed to me, but it could well be their JOGGING speed). hahah. but it was an awesome experience for me though! never felt so physically accomplished. [don't think sick]. hahahaahahaha. i use to get the 40th in class in pri school for 1.6 please! like dont know D or somehting. hehehhahahahha. don't know how i got my stamina. DANCE xD anyway yes i'm super pleased with myself.

after cross country me mari steph and joseph went to watch THE DARK KNIGHT. hell good show it was! the underlying message was WHAMMM AWESOME. i was like WOOOOOHHHHH... so cool! i was so proud to be a non-sadistic human for once please. i loved the part about the two ships of 800 plus people who trusted humans as good humans and held on to that HOPE [main point of story] in REAL good humans. well, the joker's main aim wasn't to get all the money and kill batman whatsoever, he just wanted to prove that all good humans can turn bad, and that morals are easily lost out of selfish-ness. but well! NON-SADISTIC HUMANS PROVED THE STUPID JOKER WRONG! hah HAH. so evillllll. he knew batman would save rachel so he purposely switch the venues. SO THAT. he could prove to batman that H.D. , known to be the great hero, could also turn bad. SADISTIC!! eeeewwww. D: hahah jo was cuddling next to me all the while. she was like "OMGOSH.. when will this end.. i don't want to watch already! so scary!" hahha i was quite amazed that i wasn't exactly THAT freaked by scary faces anymore. wonder where i started to trained my guts from. haha :D YAY :D i rock. hahhahaha

and i so don't want to go to school tomorrow. PLEASE. >.<

OH CCA ELECTIONS ARE TOMORROW! exciting man... LUNCH. :D:D:D:D:D HAHA.

<3 shiyan

2008-07-27T12:56:00.002+08:00

wow.. i just watched a hong kong serial on channel 55 just now from ten to 12.30pm. it's NICE :D haven't watched hong kong dramas in a long long time. they used to be my favourite past times. haha. i cried like crazzzzzy. like tissue paper after tissue paper. they're so good at acting please! Singapore dramas are improving but somehow they can never be as good. sian. so yes, i've slacked like mad and now my eyes are like swollen to bits.

i think gotta start on chem sia already. die =x

hahaa :D see ya people

<3 shiyan

2008-07-26T20:48:00.003+08:00

hey world! haha. i just cut my hair and rebonded my frige. i look different heee :D i'm got a fringe now, to prevent that receding hairline. haha. i'm slacking all the time nowadays! BAD BAD BAD. this is BAD BAD BAD. hahahahaa. but nothing to do! okay lah got things but LAZY to do. yeah more like it. oh yah hor. i want to watch huan huan ai! hahaha, i won't get addicted to any shows, [EXCEPT SNOWQUEEN] ahaha so not to worry whoever's out there worrying. oh man i think i'm high again!

was quite low during dance though. maybe lol i was quite frustrated everyone was fooling around and not giving liu lao shi much respect. sigh. mood swingssss! hahaha :D

AND SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME INSPIRATION FOR THE ROMANCE WRITING COMPETITION I GOT SHOT GUNNED BY THE TEACHER TO WRITE! *yes, i've got completely NO experience.*

ooh national day's song is playing. hoho. so funnnny. piano exam oh no oh no oh no i think 'm going to fail it. i've been failing for life man! all my life grade 2 to now. my highest is what? 114... lol. so proud of that. even grade two only like just pass 102. lol i rock man. better go start practising and stop wasting money. but i got no interest! D: anyway.. haha

have a great weekend slacking people!

<3 shiyan

PTM duty!

2008-07-25T21:21:00.003+08:00

HAHA. hello everyone. i'm currently sugar high. whhhhipppy! HAHAHA :D i get super high with chermain and ashley and jo and mari. we were like laming like crazy after i drank cold teh tareh (how do you spell it) in school just now. oh man. me and ashley were doing some lame waltz thinggy. WEIRD. anyway! PTM duty was funnn and LOOONNG. hahaha. made more friends yet again! :D friends make my world go round. hohohoh

ohoh. council elections are over! haha. i shall let fate decide :D thanks for all who have supported us! :D heee xD i'm very veyr very very high. HAHAHHAAHHAHAHA. oh man.

oh romeo and juliet is an awefully wonderful show. it's cool! i think their language is super coool.

"parting is a sweet sorrow, i hereby leave thee" HOHOHO. shakespeare is cool. wonder why people can have such brains. anyway! hehe

i shall. slack my night away! CCA tomorrow! waking up early again... haha

<3 shiyan!

blocks are over!

2008-07-24T16:27:00.003+08:00

hey. have not blogged in AGES man. anyway. blocks are finally over. yeah it was over YESTERDAY and we somehow amazingly got back chinese and math results today. mmhmm.

my math isn't THAT bad... at least i dui de qi zi ji :) didn't put in much effort but the area which i tried hard to master didn't fail me :) i've got to work harder! yeshyesh. i can do it. i can do it. you don't have to be gifted, i always believe that hardwork pays! :D like how i managed my psle. yep. ^^
my chinese... my CHINESE... why why why why. i can't seem to get out of the B3 area. like forever stuck here. can say i improved by like what 2 marks only? YAh. so lame. but i think i'm slowly grasping the language. it's quite disappointing, and yes i expected myself to do just a little better. as said, WORK HARDER! :D don't think i'm going to do very well this term again. like last term -.-" told myself i had to do better this time. yeah i did put in a teeny weeny bit more effort this time but it isn't enough! GAMBATEE SHIYAN. there's still EOYS.. EOYS.. LALLAA. wonderful EOYS! gotta start working now.

and almost the whole class is opting for tier 1 BSP next year. which means.. there's a HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH chance i won't be able to be in the same class as any of them. OH MAN. nope i sorta decided i'm NOT going to try for BSP. obviously my chinese is not up to standard for one thing and for another, i can't even do history SBQs properly now and know NOTHING about china's myths/legends/history/famous poetry/books like san guo yan yi or whatever. imgaine SBQs in chinese. oh well. it's kinda sad though. to know that nearly more than half of my class is eligible for this tier ONE course. hope at least i'll be put into tier 2!

being in 203 made me lose all my confidence in chinese. but oh well i bet i've gained some stuff from being with such knowledgeable classmates :) i've got tuition later! :D it's boosting my confidence. a little ^^

i wanna enjoy myself this weekend, like go out for dinner or something or maybe just a TEENY WEENY bit of shopping ;D HEH. but bro has just started his tests period and sis has been studying for A levels like since don't know when non stop. study mood! haha :D

i'm crapping and laming like craaazy. oh and whoever who comes by --VERY RARE--

PLEASE VOTE FOR US, THE N2-SIASTS, tomorrow!

shiyan sally leting meng hao :) No forcing, just if you believe in us! :D

LOL :P i'm so lame. must be thick-skinned heh xD

see you soon! :)

2008-07-06T10:57:00.002+08:00

wow it's been two weeks since school started and two weeks since i've blogged. it's been quite crazy really, etc for the past three days.

RG dance night was cool :)
WE ROCKED AT YOUTHDAY FUN FAIR. :) thanks to all who supported us :)

and i'm feeling quite emotional now really. i think i'll miss le ting a lot awwwww.
so leting: PLEASE sing your heart out and enjoy yourself like crazy :) let your hair loose! i'll help you take down notes if i can! especially lit circle :) we'll not let you down! :D I LOVE YOU AND SEE YOU IN TWO WEEKS!

and i think i'll miss sally soon when she leaves in week four, espcially in the second week of campaigning i think i'll die without her. yes i'll miss you, sally!!!! :/ yeah enjoy yourself today!

i tink i got really emotional after listening to seasons of love again :( BUT REALLY

I'll miss you leting...

and now i can't imagine life next year without 2/3! :(

2008-06-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

Right. so tomorrow the hectic term 3 would start. I'm not supposed to pre-judge but at least i'm giving myself some xin li zhun bei. haha (:

so let's look forward to the coming term! Treasure the time with 203, family, and take things as it comes :) haha so my resolutions are as follows...

KEEP MY ROOM AS CLEAN AS IT IS NOW ( i just packed!)
Concentrate in class
Sleep aeap
Revise smart
do not get distracted
enjoy dance (:
read more
STAY HAPPY

i must do better this term! I MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST! okay that's lame. anyway. TIME FLIES and i'm suffering from pre-school reopen blues. sian right. anyway

remember to : accept what i'm given and make the best out of it! xD JIAYOU

slacking the weekends off!

2008-06-21T17:40:00.002+08:00

right i read my book from my last post all the way till five non stop can you believe it! :) haha broke my record. anyway now i think i'm going out for dinner. and maybe a bit of shopping or a movie. poor sis who has to study won't be able to come :( hahah. anyway i feel really guilty slacking my day off but roar i think i'll regret both ways when school starts so oh well might as well just forgo some things! haha (: LOL what am i talking about anyway. TATA pple off to slack.sl

2008-06-21T13:32:00.003+08:00

HI HI. just came back from jing ying's house doing art board game -.- haha. we're putting in far tooooooooooo much effort. wq couldn't make it. anyway. it's nice. but the bad thing is.... WE HAVEN"T FINISHED IT oh man. haha. my tagboard is pleasantly alive! -touch wood- haha. I DON"T WANT HOLS TO END. DANG. i'm going to watch huan huan ai today! i don't care. omgosh i don't plan to study this last weekend! but arghhhh no time already. once school starts... busy period starts... (with additional tuition/tuition hmwk). haha. hope it'll help me. i'm going to pack my room today (HOPEFULLY) for a condusive study environment for the next term lol :)

i shall slack. at least for today? :/

my blog song seasons of love just made me tear. the lyrics are super super meangingful and it brought back all the memories. really. I <3 NYMD (:

my parents room's air con is leaking and it leaked through one entire floor to outside my room ceiling. now it's like drip drip drup and all my paint is falling off. i think i've gotta paint it myself. hahah. my bro was really nice today sending a file to me at jing ying's house from home and my sis also helped me checked my mail for some urgent stuff last week so when i came home i bought nice chocolate wafers for them <3 their Deeeeelicious. :) hahahhaa. i'm nice haha

JIAYOU to my sis for her block tests, prelims and A lvls. :) HOPE MUGGING PAYS OFF.

2008-06-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

i'm aching from head to toe. came back from cca and just spent the whole time watching tv and reading my nice library book (: haha. can you believe it i actually feel GUILTY reading. something's wrong with me -.- anyway. cca today was.. hmmm quite fun lah (: but VERY painful. woah how many time we were forced to go down by gravity. hahaha but i managed to touched the floor :D yay. Rosanne has been asking me to take up ballet. haha. ballet. i really want to actually just that i don't think i'll be able to find the time. and i don't even have ballet foundation. haha i think liu lao shi was quite shocked that only like three people in nymd take dance lessons outside.

watching so you think you can dance inspires me (: especially those who lost their limbs and yet are still able to dance to freakin'ly well. hahaha. i'm back to emo-ness. lol. no idea why. actually i KNOW why. oh man. i hate this can -.- roar.... i think it'll be a scar in me forever? when it just never fails to make me shrink inside when that particular ____ gets too sensitive? sigh.

i escape during cca (: hahaha, nah it hasn't really been bothering me much nowadays. i just.. hmm. haha. don't know lah. anyway. can't wait for next year ( though i know it'll be horribly stressful), can't wait for my fate to be finally decided. sigh. i think sec two is a painful yet fun year? don't really like this year. too many troubles haha. LOL why am i emo-ing? LOL LOL LOL

hahahhaa, i exert wonderful self control and i think i've learnt to just 'forget' for the time being. maybe _ _ _ _ _ would work out better for me than that? maybe i really should head in a different direction? :) hahahahah i'm thinking too much alr. i think i really need to sleep! hahah

okay night people.

slacking at aunt's house

2008-06-18T18:29:00.002+08:00

I'm at my aunt's house now haha (: came here straight after cca. reached here around six haha. cca was tiring and UNBEARABLY STEAMING WARM in the rooftop hall. roar at least tomorrow it'll be in the dance studio with air con. whoo hoo :D very tired! slacking here. just bathed and had a cup of hot milo. THE HOLS ARE ENDING!!!!!!!!! SO SAD CAN. oh man the whole week just FLIES past like that. it's so scary. i wasn't able to do much of what i wanted to this hols. mon wed thurs cca, tues always have something on aka chinese debate/mediacorp/tuition. haha. so my free day is technically only fri. haha so cool right(: fri is a nice day to be free. :D but i pity all those chinese dancers and CO people they have cca like so scarily this hols. oh wellllll. i want to watch huan huan ai finish! BUT BUTBUT... awwwwwwwww. i'll regret it when school reopens because i would blame myself for not doing wise things. hahaha. so what. lol

ENJOY EVERYDAY BECAUSE IT'S a PRESENT! :)

2008-06-18T12:44:00.003+08:00

haha okay just a super quick one.

NANYANG ROCKED AT THE HUA WEN ZHI DUO XING mediacorp filming yesterday! it was super cool and exciting. anyway

gtg for cca now. must go early for some thing. anyway tata! :D

2008-06-16T18:32:00.003+08:00

hellooo. haha just came back from cca and had my bath. left home at around one as i intended to go there and stretch earlier but the chinese dancers were using for there upcoming concert so yep we didn't really get the studio early. but anyway hahahahaha. okay that's lame. reached home at six. super tired. and now i'm starving. i love monday sessions cos it's just the lower sec so there's more attention and lol we feel that we sorta 'own' the dance studio. haha. anyway i'm going to watch so you think you can dance later (thats if i don't have to go to fetch my foster sis back from the air port. oh man our art really die! sheesh. completed my tuition homework today! yay (: one zuo wen (AGAIN) and 50 word ting xie. but i not going tomorrow cos we have the mediacorp chinese language thing tomorrow. i shall ask larissa help me collect the homework tomorrow then. okay.. so i wanna spend the last week of this hols like FUN, and i wanna go watch a movie tomorrow or something! but roar i've been having only two free weekdays a week can. cos cca takes up the whole morning afternoon. -.-" but ohwell i wouldn't like staying at home all day either. i wanna watch kungfu panda! man man man. tomorrow? called sally tan she said she'll call me back haa. i shal wait. shall watch so you think you can dance! :D :D :D

shiyan :)

2008-06-14T09:04:00.005+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOMELY INTERESTING. (wonder if that expression exists)
ANYWAY, it was the BEST DAY yet of my June hols. for one thing, i did NO homework the ENTIRE day (trust me i really didn't) and i had GREAT LUNCH. and i bought stuff that i wanted to buy! and i also had great company of my aunts ((: ahhahahahha so happy;

okay so i woke up at around 8.30 am in the morning. and still thought of this new laptop of mine :) so i got up and decided to download veoh TV into this com since it's in my other and then unknowingly (okay i knew i was going to do that) i watched an entire 1h 36 min of huan huan ai. it's only my third episode can! i've got like great discipline. HAH HAH. so basically after i was done with the episode i felt damn good but also felt guilty (as always). but ahahahaha, then my mum said it's time to go out for lunch! WHHHHHOOOPIES. okay so we got change everyting and then we got into the car.

in the car we were deciding where to eat GOOD FOOD. AHAH! and guess where we went to....

'The Line' at Shangri la (how do you spell it?) for BUFFFET. hahhah so high class right. omogsh so when we went there there was a spread of EVERYTHING. you name it you got it. omoghs i loved the cold prawns, muscles, clams, lobster and scallop! there was this big shell thingy that you see mr bean eating my i didn't dare touch it. looks... oh well! hahahaha. they was also satay and a lot of malay food, pizza, stews, SUSHI (it WAS GOOD), salad (with all kinds of sauce. i love balsamic sauce--at least my family does), siew mai, dumplings, duck, chicken, wanton mee, laksa, fishball noodles etc and the HIGHLIGHT of this place is.... THE DESSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEERTT. the desserts were... it's like they are DISPLAYED in cupboards like jewellery. i loved the berrys. and the strawberry is HUGE i tell you. i dipped it into the chocolate fountain and the chocolate was awesome too! the ice creams was cool they had all the gummy toppings. like WOW. haha. the little cakes were so awesomely pretty and tastefully done! like boutique cakes. haha. and it was the first family dinner we had in don't know how many months.. two? yep i guess so. we are all too busy with our own stuff. :D BUT OVERALL, it was an AWESOME lunch. i mean really, i felt like i was the luckiest girl on earth. :))

THEN.... SHOPPPPPPING! okay so me and my mum met my two aunts and little cousin for shopping. we were at marina square. sister and bro had tuition and father was playing golf. so shop shop shop hahaha. my mother bought so many accessories can! OH and there was this traumatic experience. so freaky i tell you. my mum was with all my aunts at this sookee booth looking at the display of jewellery and there was this guy that kept staring at us. (i've told this story around 5 times so i shall say it briefly) he thought my aunt was stealing (obviously she didn't do anything) and so he shouted to the saleslady. okay, my mum got super insulted cos it was HER ring and so she sorta provoked him a little. (he look perfectly normal-just that he wore this very shabby shirt and SLIPPERs-the blue and whiteones) uh huh. so he just KEPT STARING at us as then the sales lady decided maybe we should move to the other counter so he'll walk away. and guess what. when we moved, HE MOVED. so freaky can. it was like :O so unexpected. okay so he stood there for another five minutes and we all got REALLY uncomfortable, including the salesgirl. so she said that maybe we could go the their shop (they set up a booth). so we turned, took our things and walkedt to their shop (not far away). so.. guess what again, HE FOLLOWED. oh dear. me and my aunt decided to walk behind him , who was follwing my mum, my other aunt, cousin and saleslady. i was SO FREAKED i tell you. he was like stalking us. like on the TV when someone feels that a person is behind. it's like they tried walking faster and that guy walked faster. they slow down and he slowed down. i looks soooo scary i tell you. like as if in his pocket he had a knife ready to stab my mother. i started to cold sweat. hhah. so when they walked in to the shop he walked in as well. and he banged the table and said to the male assistant inside "i'm just trying to help you'll, you better make sure they pay! i'm just trying to help." and he stormed out. me and my aunt were still outside so we didn't hear all this but when he turned and walked out he totally stared and me and my aunt and his eyes we so cold, so i don't know, but i was freaked. and when i went into the shop my teeth were chattering and my palms we sweating. i was like shivering can. what made me freak out was his eyes. and the five of us were so scared cos we came out as an 'all women group' hah. even my aunts were like 'when he was following us, my legs were practically shaking'. another saleslady decided to check out what's with that man so she followed him and said she saw him waiting outside the fitting room of some shops like as if he's waiting for his wife or girlfriend. outside the FITTING ROOM. omgosh i think he's psychic. there's something wrong with him i tell ya.

woah and we stayed in sookee for quite sometime cos we were subconsciously scared of going out and ended up spamming a whole lot on jewellery. then we went to secret recipe to eat nice cakes and coffee :D to forget about that freak guy.

so we continued shopping and bought more stuff. shop shop shop :D

met another aunt after her work ended and then it was time to send my mum to her driving lesson. that was like 7 already.

was desperately trying to find our way there with the street directory (i surprisingly could orientate myself ;D ) and my aunt was so stressed driving in the jam (they just refreshed themselves on driving a year ago so they still had the learner's sticker but they are quite pro alr lah) haha so in the end we found our way there at 8pm. right. the place is at bukit gombak so after dropping my mum off we went for dinner at westmall. SIAN but haha we ate at swensons. we order nice nice nice finger food, bake rice, spaghetti and shared them. we had a lot of laughing in the car when we fetched my mum back in the car after her lesson at around 10. we were teasing her like crazy cos haha. anyway i think my mum was super happy cos finally we managed to eat a family lunch in the morning and at night she and her four sisters 'united'. hahaha. :) i was really happy too. totally forgot about homework and shop and ate. i'm HAPPY, VERY HAPPY that there is at least one day in my holiday that i didn't touch my work. :D :D xD

okay i've blogged for like half an hour. gotta go! tataa~!

happiness makes the world go round :)

2008-06-12T21:00:00.003+08:00

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WORLD. this is my second post of the day! and guess the difference! i'm using my NEW FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LAPTOP! hahahahhaha. my tagline of the day is "share the joy!" hahahahah! hahahahahahah! hahahahahah! omgosh i'm super high. eh very irritating leh next tuesday have the media viewing thing so i'm not going for tuition but AUNTY LARISSA GOING! for make up! SHEESH. so sad. i cannot make fun of her. and at least the tuition teacher would not only keep staring at MY mistakes. hahah maybe i'm too sensitive cos i've got absolutely NO confidence in my chinese. OMOGSH my new laptop is super cool! it's like WOAH! :O :O :O the sound system is ichiban! hohoho! HOHOH! HOHOHOHO! omgosh i'm super super high. today's cca was crazy? yeah VERY crazy. somemore yesterday had cca also so it's like muscle ache on top of muscle ache. today not only muscle ache can my mind was spinning like a top when she made us keep spinning. i couldn't even balance already lor! much less find my direction and remember the steps. and yes i hate standing in front but almost everyone from my batch just refuses to stand in front so most of the time i can't take it. haha. lolness. i CAN"T and SHAN"T waste my night away. but.

i
can't
help
it.

oh man i'm seriously OVERLY HIGH. yay (: and the first person i told is aunty larissa. SORTA. i went around to sally's and leting's blog to 'share the joy!' hahahahah!

and i love it when liu lao shi makes us do the three count join hands and walk up down thing. it's super super fun i tell you.

and yes i'm going to get my stinking ____ outa my house tomorrow. so BYE people. someone tell me how to do LA corrections? i've got no idea. cos i was supposed to do it like 3 months ago and i didn't so obviously i don't have a superb memory.

stop wasting time! okay i'm going. but i think i'll definitely not do any work tonight. EXPLORE the wonders of a new notebook! YAY.

<33 shiyan!

2008-06-12T12:47:00.004+08:00

haha hello i'm currently in the school library. i reached school at 7.45am today haha. then i went to the library at 8.30am and did work. LOL not productive at all haha. -though i was alone- SORTA. if ashley and shan ping didn't come and disturb me with the fake bread. lol chermain is beside me now too. lol strangely my batchmates are the ones who are stressing me to study. hahaha. ashley and shanping come everyday before cca. hoho. i'm having cca at 2.30pm. though we are technically required to go earlier to stretch. anyway i'm laming. and wasting time. haha. gonna leave for cca soon. eh... YAY i'm going out tomorrow ahahah (: haha. WHOLE DAY i hope. yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!!!!!!! hopefulling i'll eat nice food. i like going out just to eat. yay (: oh well.. i'm left with a little more work. and yes revision. hoho. :D

now aunty chermain is complaining about tiffany. quite funny. and she's planning her work schedule. lol okay now she needs the com (: TATA~

2008-06-10T12:49:00.013+08:00

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY. i crapped through LA! hahahaha, i didn't want to do it for like two weeks. yay yay. but i really really crapped it. don't even think my interpretations are correct -.-" but oh whatever! i know i'll have to go back to do A LOT of adjustments to the assignment but WHO CARES FOR NOWWWWWWW! hahahahahahah. yay.

sheezaladous is my new expression to replace all the vulgar four letter words. hahah!

there's tuition tonight. SHEEZALADOUS. hohoho. i htink i'm damn funny. lol. i'm such an ego person. i'm too high alr! anyway i shall do a quiz from my dear LT's blog. hohohoho. HAHAHA. i'm H.I.G.H yoyo!

1) Who are your loved ones?
haha isn't this quite obvious? My family and friends! :D

2) What do you want the most now?
to not go for chinese tuition tonight.

3) Who is the person you trust the most?
hmmm... i don't actually specifically trust anyone. But when i start telling you about my troubles, you'll know i trust you the most at that moment (:

4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
eh i think that REALLY depends. i'm definitely not confident about myself nowadays. in terms of hmm.. EVERYTHING. but i do have confidence i hope. hahah (:

5) Have you ever rejected a guy you love?
I haven't loved a guy in my life. except my brother, of course. and yes i haven't rejected him -.-" hahahah

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
YES. i believe i do (: there are always solutions to problems it just depends on how long the storm takes to subside. (:

7) What is your goal for this year?
hmm, to know every single one in 203 before our four pathetic months as classmates are over. and to achieve satisfying results for term 3 and 4. oh oh and to not let NYMD lose it's bond :D

8) 10 things about you?
me. haha, that interesting.

1. i like to complain a lot
2. i don't tend to bottle things up i'll just end up spilling my troubles to someone
3. i treasure friends a lot
4. i love dance :D
5. i love NYMD
6. i love 203
7. i love my family
8. i'm always guilty when i start slacking ( BAD BAD)
9. i'm not good at language subjects
10. I BELIEVE IN ACCEPTING WHATEVER I HAVE A MAKING THE BEST OUT OF IT (:

11) What do you hate most?
i try not to hate anything. lizards? :/

12) Do you cherish every single friendship?
YES. i do (:

13) Do you believe in God?
hmm, i believe what every religion believes (:

14) What food do you crave for now?
NOW. ummm.. actually nothing. i'm craving for my friday's HIGH TEA. hohoho :D

15) Who do you hope to be always there for you?
my family and friends. (: DUH.

16) Who is/are your best friend(s)?
i don't have a best friend. i have MANY GOOD FRIENDS (: hahahah

sally tan - yo thanks for everything, really (:
le ting- confidante :)
jiajia- haven't talked to you in a long time but thanks for everything in p6! :)
jesslene- our friendship is unusually special (:
pauline- paupau! hahaha. are you still in japan? i think you're coming back today or something
marilyn- hahaha we talk during lessons to learn (:
huihan- HEY THERE MONKEY. :) kiiiiiiii kooovee kooouuu
chermain- yoyoyoyo there sister (:
ashley- CHEMMMM BUDDY!
josephine- i think we have a cool friendship (:
xintong- PIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG AMINAH.
yanni- octopus face :D
alicia- yo mayor!
heng yeng- poacher B!

OKAY. i htink that's almost my whole class. hahaha! EVERYONE's my good friend! :D

17) Who cares for you the most?
family? yep. i'm sure bout that. blood is still thicker than water eh? :D

18) Other than yourself, who do you trust most?
i don't really trust myself too. is this questions repititive? yes it is. it's either qns 4 or something.

19) Who makes you smile when you're down?
my family and friends? :D

LE TING, HUIHAN, SALLY, PAU PAU, JESSLENE :D
MY SIS. hah.

20) If God allows you to have a one & only wish, & it's going to be fulfilled, what will it be?
For everyone around me to be happy and healthy! [that's cliche. but i think it's really the truth]

8 "lucky" people:
sally
pig aminah
chermain
huihan
yanni
josephine
can't think of anymore! hahahah

okay now i've got to eat my lunch. my auntie's screaming at me. tata!

2008-06-09T18:41:00.003+08:00

hello world. just back from CCA. hahahahha. i love 'female dogging' with batchmates. oh no, i think i'm becoming a bimbo. HAHAH (: yay.

i DREAD tuition tomorrow sheezaladous. ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. MY FACE WILL BE LIKE TORN OFF OR SOMETHING.

i DREAD homework -.-" sometimes i rather mug haha.

i DREAD not being able to slack my time off when my guilt overwhelms me

anyway. i must be contented with my life. and i am :D YAY. at least i have nice classmates, batchmates, seniors and juniors and a wonderful family.

i'm just sad that i'm growing up. i wanna go back to childhood times. when family parties were REALLY parties, when now it's just a gathering to eat. everyone's busy with their new teenage life etc. i pity my seven year old cousin. sigh. her childhood must be lonely. i used to play with my cousin and siblings like ccrazy. really rocking the house down. having what yan3 chang4 hui4s in the room. playing masa masa. OMGGOOSSH i miss childhood. ROAR i don't wanna grow up. okay i DO wanna grow up. but i wish i can turn the time back now and then so i can go back to childhood and escape the hectic life i'm living now. awwww. CHILDHOOD rocks.

i want to slack!!!!!! but my guilt -.-" ROARROARROARROARROAR. i'll be angry with myself for wasting me june hols when school reopens and all the work starts piling. sheezaladous. aahhh whatever. i'm happy (: i must be happy (: hahahahahha cca makes me happy MOST of the time. MOST. you cna say when i'm high everything seems very nice around me. but when i'm low. HAHAHA. i'll be against many things. HOHOHO. well i ought to control my emotions then! i feel like changing blog skin! my blog skin is like stuck to the left side of the page

i can't wait for my freeeeee laptop! WHOOOOOOOOOSH.

tralalalala. <3 shiyan

2008-06-07T17:24:00.005+08:00

kyle(: he was performing on that day (; doesn't he look FAMILIAR haha

AWWW (: this is sweet. Rosanne and Sophia couldn't make it :( but nonetheless NYMD <333

THANK YOU MR RAJ (: we'll miss you!

LOOK AT OUR SHIRTS! p.s we did NOT make any arrangements.
CHEMISTRY BUDDDYYYY

i didn't take one with chermain but oh wells (: hahahah

PPP (: And i know, i'll love NYMD forever (:

2008-06-06T12:35:00.004+08:00

so.. yesterday was PPP (: it wasn't exactly fun, FUN, but it brought back many mixed feelings. when i lay on bed last night, the moments of HFOS II came gushing back. and yes, i couldn't get back to sleep! so i ended up sleeping like at 1am. the memories (: PPP was just about eating BBQ food and watching the video but to me, it was still very enjoyable cos when mr raj came it brought back all the 'bond' that we had during HFOS II. i somehow feel that it's almost lost with the new teacher etc. so yesterday was the first time i talked to so many seniors. and hahahaha larissa was super funny in the car. act so ke qi lor when actually she very sarcastic one. hohoho. she shall make me a tiramisu cake so we can share it on our birthdays. ((: HAHAHHA. and it was one of the first time i sorta talked to yun yi alone. haha. let's see... who else. all the sec threeees lor. oh yes i'm supposed to add jody on msn. there wasn't any crying yesterday, more of a happy 'goodbye'. Mr raj had to leave early again. but yay (: the whole troupe liked our giftsss (: i don't want the sec fours to leave in august! :'( haha.

it's quite sad that the recording was the night one. cos there were just so many blunders during the night show. the morning one was much better really. oh and D'artistes were there yesterday too! (: including ms anh etc. I LOVE TRIBAL (:

yesterday was the last day we could actually 'recap' his dances. and it was so... ______ when the sec fours initiated the music during cca yesterday cos it was the "last day we could do it". oh man so sad lah. you could see the sec fours zi highing yesterday also. ahha (: though we really did nothing much yesterday, at least it was heartwarming!

i guess i'll always remember the 19th April and the 5th June. (:

and it's so nice to see that our batch has grown so much closer from last year when we were at the Changi beach again. we were there last year during the SYF party.

me and chermain with a sec four senior (larissa this time) were the last to leave again. last year is was with eileen. haha now it's aunty larissa. HOHHOO. okay anyway i shall just stop crapping!

;D shiyan

2008-06-04T16:08:00.003+08:00

oh man 0h man oh man i'm wasting time again! sheesh

having cca thrice a week is crazy. almost the whole week is gone. cos after cca you're too tired to do anything. especially when you have cca on mon wed thurs. WED THURS! muscle ache haven't recover. nvm hahahaha. TOMORROW IS PPP!!!! YAY! POST PRODUCTION PARTY. which means another day gone! oh man oh man, i'm a slacker. okay i've gotta start working fast. yay PPP PPP PPP PPP. okay i'm too high. oh wells! hahahahahahahhahahaha

shan't talk about first chinese tuition yest, HORRIFYING. THEY STEREOTYPE YOU!!!!!!!!! :'( oh man i felt so so so so so so so so so .. nvm. how to say.

okay okay i must work! bye people. and about party. hahahahahaha. i got no time to think yet. hahaha sorrry ppeeeeps (; xD

bored to tears.

2008-06-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

OMG I"M BORED TO TEARSS :'''''''( SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!! rawr. this is so ironic. i complain when i'm too stressed, i complain when i've got nothing to do -.-" oh man. what's wrong with me huh :O hahahaha. but i think i did quite a bit of hol hmwk today. nothign to do mah. and i have no idea how to slack if i don't go out --i haven't been going out!-- okay, i mean just the weekends. so i've completed indices so far, and completed another two du shu bao gaos on top of the one that i did eons ago. haha (: the chinese book is NICEEEEEEEEEEE (: i love ai qing xiao shuos. i shall carry on finding nice ones like these which would inspire me to improve on my darn chinese. damn. starting tuition next week! haha. i think i'll DIE. REALLY. it's TWO and a HALF HOURS. can you believe it. LOLLLLLLL. and my senior said it's "survivable lah". hah. thanks larissa. LOL! i think she also almost dying pls. and she goes the day of cca. like after cca on thursday. i'm gonig for tues. so if i don't quit calligraphy, i have NO idea how i'm going to do my homework on that day. it's like i'll have chinese remedial from 2.30pm to 3.30pm? then i'll go for calligraphy from 3.30pm to 5.30pm. and from there chiong to somewhere to grab a bite then start tuition 6.30 to 9pm. WOAH. super cool. then i'll probably sleep at one if there is like homework to hand in the next day. nah, i think i'll quite calligraphy SOON. very soon. i don't even intend to do the 'HOLIDAY HOMEWORK" they assigned. A LOT can :/ second cca also need to do -.-" haha really i've got no intention of doing.

there's cca tomorrow. at least that's something to do. cca, then piano, then dental appt. okay. quite a busy day tomorrrow. twallala. someone pls entertain me. i tried calling dear sally tan but she's fast asleep. who tell her sleep at 3++ yest de.. TSKTSK. anyway.. i hereby declare...

that..
i...

LOOK LIKE A ROTTEN POTATO.

hah. i've got LARGE EYEBAGS and charcoal black eye rings o.O oh well. i guess i have to sleep early. i tried reading romeo and juliet. -.- i don't understnad anything. why must shakespeare be so cheeem lah.. i think i'll start watching a drama on youtube soon. lemme see.. i shall watch huan huan ai? i heard it's nice and i missed it that time. rawr. but darn youtube is slow -.-"

let me listen to a song then. <-- i hardly do that; sigh, i must be REALLY bored!

<33 shiyan!

p.s should i organise a party at my house? hahahha 2/3 people who come by can feedback! :P

2008-05-31T11:08:00.002+08:00

heys...

the same troubles have been troubling me again :( but oh wells i sorta psycho-ed myself to 'accept what i'm given and make the best out of it'! sometimes i'm really amazed by my ability to delude myself (:

anyway yesterday duty at SMBO finals was super funn. i zi highed the whole day! really! hahah with chermain and ashley, OBVIOUSLY! (: they're super funny. and of course jody my 'haha' senior. LOL. anyway. i had an awesome day being super happy with my two batchmates yesterday! AM HAPPPY THAT I ALWAYS GET HIGH WITH THEM (: hope this continues! so usher duty was thoroughly boring and tiring cos you just stand there doing nothing for an hour and a half. woah it's like 'self -amusement time!' i was thinking of HFOS II and the steps of tribal (: i love tribal <33 haha after everything i went for dinner with my dear sister chermain! hahah. we walked like super super super super long and i finally decided we should go to pizza hut! LOLs. you'll never expect HOW MUCH WE SPENT. when i saw the bill i was like :O :O :O :O :O :O but dear spendthrift chermain was okay with it 0.o haha. but yay at least i had an awesome dinner - spicy drumlets/crispy thin curry chicken reg pizza/meatball pasta- yep, only TWO people. and we ate like :O beside our table were three AV ppl who also went there to eat. bet they were staring at us likecrazy. hahah! so we were self amusing again! me and chermain zi highing. hahha (: it was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn :D THANKS CHERMAIN hahahaha. so after dinner chermain had bad stomache poor thingg! so she put me in the taxi with her and dropped me off at an MRT. haha! i took the mrt at 8pm. so dark and scary but oh wells :/ chermain was smsing me the whole way and we were zi highing about edward and jacob and the upcoming movie twilight. haha! so lame. yeah.. overall had an awesome friday!

失望，还存在吗？

2008-05-29T08:46:00.006+08:00

HAHAHHAHAA. umm... malacca trip was... hahahhaa LOLNESS. it wasn't very very fun but still it was an awesome break from our hectic lifestyles here in singapore! (: oh and i've totally fallen in love with 203! wahaha. okay... let's see where do i start? first day?

26/6

ROAR. 203 had to split to THREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BUSES! two bad enough already right! sigh. nvm. so we didn't get to do what we planned to do, which includes singing on the bus and bonding like never before -.-". oh wells. we made up for it AT NIGHT though. lalalal xD okay so in the bus. i sat with retarded pau pau and aunty rachel. yes. RACHEL's AN AUNTY. and PAU PAU'S SPASTIC. hahahahahhahahhaa. we coped the back back seats. mari and ziwei sat in front to the left and siqi and yumin sat in front to the right. gong yuan and rie were stuck in the front. so sad! D: yea. there were nine of us in 202, 4 of us in 204, 6 of us in 205. sad! but ANYWAY. 202's a very very very nice class. just that i think we were being quite extra cos we made the most noise. -unexpected huh?- hahahahah. so paupau was playing with her mini tofu which i gladly snatched from her most of the time. and we were laming like idiotic people. it was so funny. hahhahahaa. and we listened to her mini creative mp3 together (which had VERY VERY VERY limited songs) hahahahaha. but i like the GET HIGH song! whoooooooopies! (: yea we just slept most of the time. and i had neck ache everytime. i'm amazed by my ability to sleep on buses! never thought i could. hahaha. yea so the 7 of us at the back were zi highing. yah. making the best out of the littlest things xD i feel soooooo bad for the rest though. :( and ahaah we went to see mini malaysia etc etc. took pictures! XD yea i think i went around with pau pau and mari. sheesh i think now i can't call PAULINE anymore. she's paupau to me permanantly! we reached Hotel City Bay View at 5 plus i think. WAHAHA. the hotel is okay lah (: acceptable. still enabled me to drooooool like a pig at night. hahaha. and when i wanted to boil the stupid water i knocked my head against the glass. ouch. and my tears just came out though i wasn't painful. urgh. HAHAHAHHAA. so we got influenced by LAME leting to NOT bathe first. aha.. we went to her room to play pig! me paupau le ting jesslene alicia ziwei and mari i think. unnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn (: we were zi highing like SIAO pls. made a LOT A LOT of noise. then we went for dinner. -and split up as usual- haha. but as i said 202 is nice! (: and after dinnerrrrrrrrr.... heh heh.. this comes the exciting part. xD BATHING. me and paupau are scaredy cats. so guessssssssssssss what happened. we uh hmmmm. bathed back to back. paupau you don't mind me saying this right. twalala. soooooooooooooo suppppppppppppeeeeeerrrrrrrrr funnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. omgosh it's amazing pls! she was passing me the shower thingy and i was like 'WHERE? WHERE?'" (what if i touched her butt seriously) LOLLLLLLLLL. anyway. i made a spastic joke out of her. and i shan't say it here. cos i feel like being nice (:

simpsons xD

Then went to siqi and yu min's room to party. we were unusually low hahaa. but we still played lame stuff AND GONG YUAN TOLD HER FREAKIN SCARY GHOST STORY. (i wasn't listening) haha . can't really remember haha (: and paupau is not-so-talkative at night. more like my mother, LIKE SALLY. i think people around me treat me as their child. hahaah. she lent me her tofu cos apparently my one pillow had stains .. EEE.

27/6

Set off with NYMD to Malacca girls high (: wahahhaa. it was funnnnnnn (: they were ultra super friendly! NYMD and NYCD opted for the cooking session and we made onde onde! and cut watermelons into nice and funny shapes! (: me and sophia's buddy was amira! nice and friendly girl i shall upload the pics soon. yea so we made onde onde it's really quite easy! (: xD i wanna make it. hehhhehe. and we cut watermelons into christmas trees! wahaha (: so after everything we exchanged contacts and stuff and nymd sat with a grp of malacca girls high students and chatted (: shanping and rosanne was super funny! esp. shan ping. LOLLLLL. then me and sophia chatted with amira and we found out a lot of things about malacca/malaysia and their educational system. woah they only have ONE 20min break and their school timings the same as us. or even longer. they also very stresss cos they're one of the cluster top schools. they are really nice people! REALLY REALLY NICE. ((: we then had buffet lunch. and i kept disturbing sylvia tang this trip. so funny. right. after lunch we went to jonker street, city malaysis and peranakan houses. my gosh peranakans are filthy rich! and i love their designs. sadly mari's hands were swollen for no reason. haiyo. accompanied her to the tap to wash even their taps had designs. woah. xD so i didn't buy much cos i thought there'll be no use. uhuh now it's another exciting part! whoopies. we were only given a 20min break to go back and freshen up before dinner. LOL. and i made le ting bathe so as to not waste the littlest time at night xD. yay we influence each other. yeps. and sooooooooo... and for me and paupau. we chiongggggggggggggged like never before. and leting and jesslene said they could here us. omgosh. hahahha. but it was super funny can. we chiong like mad pigs chiong chiong chiong, and when i came out. guesssss what. we only took like 7min. so we were down by 7.10 and leting and jesslene was already there. funny! and we were zi highing AGAIN. hahahahaha! DINNNER WAS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. nyonya! and i LOVED THE CHENDOL CHENDOL CHENDOL CHENDOL. wahahaha the fish and everything was damn good! and irritating paupau put all the eaten plates of chendol around me to take a picture to advertise for chendol. i took one picture with gee ling also! so sweet. i wonder if i spelled correctly. haha. <3 at night! we went to leting's jesslene's and alicia's room. most of us were there! and we played charades. super super funny! paupau was hilarious. and leting too. and ziwei made me and leting act 881 out.. hahahaa. i didn't even watch before pls. so le ting was telling me all the lame actions to make -.-" HAHAHAHA. and GUESS What zhao pai actions we did -.-" so sick pls. but as you know, BIMBO LE TING MAH. hahahahahah xD and we played till 12.15am haha. lights out supposed to be 11 i guess. I LOVE 203! (: zi wei is super funny also!

28/6 last day

AwWWWWW. it was the last day. said goodbye to our hotel rooms. sigh.. sad. nothing much happaned we visited more places like the spinning top one. oil palm, rubber tapping etc. i was unusually low -.-" raawr can't stnad myself. low for what lah. irritating me. haha. so i got really high when we got on the bus again. so lame. mustbe paupau stupidness. sigh... ahahha xD okay we were SERIOUSLY zi highing on the bus. zi wei mari rachel and us. so lame! was playing with tofu again. and paupau was seriously spas HA HA HA HA HA HA. HILARIOUS. wewere sleeping then there was this stupid spider that crawled on us. eee. we stopped at yong peng and i totally grabbed food to bring home. of course, not as much as pau pau haha. spent 49.90 RM which only means around $20. and i bought QUITE alot. haha. chiong chiong chiong. so the last 1h and 20 min back we ZI HIGHED ALLLLLLLLLL THE WAY. ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the way. REALLLLLLLLLLLY ZI HIGHed. paupau was moody and stoning suddenly. sadly D: but nonetheless me rachel mari and siqi zi highed like crazy. we started singing lao shu ai da mi cos obviously we couldn't as a class. and so we were like SUPER extra in the bus with 202. we sang lame stuff. and then we asked joy if she could make her class high and start singing with us. aiyo mian jun was being super nice and she tried to make her class sing. i think there was some singing. but awwww. they weren't as high as i thought they would be :'( soooooooo. we still decided to be EXTRA EXTRA. we carried on with our lame lousy singing and uh hmmm HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER but aunty rachel and mari. can't blame aunty rachel, aunties always speak just TOOOOOO LOUD. oh wells! hahahaha (: we zi highed till we reached NYGH. and that gave the malacca trip a wonderful ending. paupau was still quite stoning to the end. sigh. but anyway, i just wanna say,

THANK YOU 203, FOR ONCE AGAIN GIVING ME BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES! (:
THANK YOU....

PAU PAU, mari, zi wei, rachel, siqi, yumin, gong yuan, rie, le ting, jesslene, alicia, yi jia, jing yi, heng yeng, jo, jing ying, keyu and eva~!

I'LL LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER AND EVER! <333

2008-05-25T07:27:00.002+08:00

okay. this is super lame lah. those idiotic people who tagged at my blog -.-" i didn't know boys could be so childish :/ sigh, what's the world becoming too? that's why i say all the presidents and high ranking people should be run by women. tsktsk. and yes it's nicholas and his nothing-better-to-do friends tag one. i feel stupid but i realise i don't know how to delete tags. or else i'm too lazy. nvm lah hor. everyone knows it's a prank. haha.

oh i spent my WHOLE day out yesterday. can you believe it. i'm going for a calligraphy competition later. super sian -.- first i went shopping with my sis only and bought clothes! then i came home bathe and went to my grandma's house to eat dinner. haha after eating dinner me my sis my bro and my foster sis went to video ezy to borrow a movie. and we watched it together at my grandma's house. i mean everybody including grandparents etc. MATILDA! matilda's nice nice nice! i read the book in p2 and fell in love with it ever since. <333 the movie twisted the story a little but it was still very exciting. hehehe (: had.. hmm a wonderful family day? i feel guilty. i wanna start on my homework!

OHOOHOHOHOHOH. i"M GOING TO MALACCA TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! i haven't packed! hahaha lallala. looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward. heheheh (: going to sit in the bus with mari and sleep with pauline! (: okay that sounds wrong. but whatever (: it's so lame. then it'll just mean i'm the room leader of pauline -.-" hahah anyway. so stupid why must they split us four into pairs. sigh...

sian sian sian i don't wanna go for the comp. it's from like what 9.45am to 1? :O both ying bi and shu fa. woah. in any case i won't win anything either -.- sigh

chiao!

p.s. haha people who have read the tag pls use your discerning mind to uh hmm. decide if it's true or if it's a prank. super lame.. -shakes head in disapproval-

2008-05-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

(: hi world! school hols officially starts today! i'm not exactly very happy don't know why. hmmmm. probably because i'll be having three days of cca per week during the hols which means less time to play :/ but i don't mind ((: i think our batch needs to improve. like terribly >.< we're not serious really. don't know why so many of them keep complaining. i mean since alr change then just get on with life lor. and it's so sad to hear that you will want to purposely not do well just to teach the school something. so sad... sigh, since it's our first and last SYF, (if we can get through auditions) why not we just do well? isn't it for us? not for the school? so what if we prove the school wrong? we'll not be happy. sigh. sudden mood swing. was super ultra high just now! ((: nvm let's get back the high mood

HAHHAHAHAHA. i haven't bathed. went out on a date with sallly tan si qian the lesbian xD hahha watched Accuracy of Death (: it's hmmmmm... not exactly very very captivating but after it ends, it really really makes you ponder A LOT. and thats another elements which would make a movie good (: it's just like TKAM, haha not interesting but meaningful--which makes it nice-- haha so after the movie me and sally ate some tom yam soup thing. we were damn full can just ate for the sick of eating. hahah shan't talk about the embarrassing 'school skirt-as-tissue' thing. LOLLLL. hahha i think today sort of made back the '_____' we used to have, but to me it all hasn't totally come back :/ hahaha we should go out together more! and i'm NOT a lesbian. strangely and very oddly, sigh, i think there's still this ________. weird weird weird.

i guess things can't always be smooth for you, always filled with disappointments, competitions, exasperation etc. but that's life isn't it? like what the movie keeps reiterating " Life is just like the sun--so ordinary, yet so important"

And from what i learnt: A good _______ always motivates others to be one herself. (: xD i shall just accept what i'm given.. and who knows? it'll probably be a blessing in disguise xD

i hope so =X

2008-05-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

JIAYOU MUM! (: i'm sure you can ride through this mid life crisis smoothly eh? (: we'll always be there for you <33

____________________________

haha sally tan! lolness >.< yea it was great at K.A.P. YUCK :o i hate macs

2008-05-20T18:25:00.002+08:00

wah officially wasted time again slacking :O okay i'm supposed to slack. right? good. but tis is so weird. i know i have something impt to do but i just cant remember! anyone care to remind me? hmmm. just read huihan's blog... yep the victims of the Si Chuan earthquake are way way way tooo poor thing. i almost cried when i saw the news of this boy--when asked where his mother was--- said "我妈妈死了”. and guess what.. he's only three. three. and he already knows his mother is dead. he isn't crying. and i feel so much like crying for him. me and jo actually thought of initiating a project to raise funds for these victims. but like what mdm chew said today, there were many other who also did and we are having another round of fund raising. really really hope that china would reflect on their one child policy. it's like :O the entire generation is G.O.N.E parents grieving for the lost of their only child. ONLY child. oh and there was this man who told the reporters (when still buried under debris) that he was going to survive no matter what, for his love ones, for his family. yes, they removed the block of concrete off his body and he died in the process. well, the rescue workers cried. man, it's so sad, i bet he was trying real real hard to keep himself awake.

so let's count our blessings people! i really should consider to stop procrastinating and complaining and really treasure the people around me. so what 's so great about just putting your mind on achieving good grades and not caring for the people around you? i should really really change my attitude. i'll try, i promise xD promise promise promise.

生命的脆弱--
天灾人祸，到底是谁的错呢？

2008-05-18T12:34:00.007+08:00

Yesterday's open house was kinda crazy. did morning and afternoon shift D: was like super ultra super tired by the time i reached home. guess what lah so embarrassing i was sleeping on the bus with my mouth WIDE open! and the worse thing was when i turned around to alight i saw zheng lao shi :O :O :O :O :O well she looked equally shocked to see me as i was to see her. hahahah. but i was nice and waved her a goodbye after i alighted. LOL. Anyway, sigh, i feel so sad for my seniors :'( stupid lah. it's their last open house and yet they couldn't show their full potential cos of uh hmm. some restrictions. and it was so humiliating --to me. aiyo i feel soooooo bad towards mabel :'( SHEESH. i should have gone right. but someone must empathise with me! at that split second moment you're super torn and stress. cos for one thing. you're in your full hong zi and you haven't stretched. but then again you wanted to go down. but you were afraid of forgetting the steps. -.-" was at a state of mental turmoil haiyo. sorry my dear senior! wished i'd gone while they were doing the dance. haiyo. sigh sorry sorry sorry D: must ti liang yi xia. oh well. hope our image wasn't screwed.

I'VE BEEN SLACKING! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARSSSSSSS. woah i'm really like wasting all the time on earth, slack slack slack slack slack slack slack! going for some PSG thing later. ahahaha jing ying would be there too! ((: yays. oh maybe we'll go for karaoke tonight or tomorrow night. hmm. i'm not sure xD

2008-05-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

Decided to post to mark the "sort of" end of semester one. TIME FLIES, doesn't it? Half a year more to go only :'( i'll miss 203 like crazzzzzzzzy!

was the last day with ms tan. she's a really great teacher ya know, i think i'll miss her efforts put into lessons etc.? yeah ((: THANKYOUMISSTAN, YOU'VEBEENAGREATEACHER! no idea why i didn't space that!

was the last music lesson, but i think it ended the module beautifully ((: i think singing is a very nice thing--just that i can't really uhmmm. sing.

today also marks the last day of my table partner relationship with leting and alicia! so sad lahhhh :'( i want to sit with them again but.. yeah. you know. hahah ((: BUT REALLY...

to Le Ting: THANK YOU LOADS AND BUCKETS LOADS MY DEAR. i wouldn't have gotten through that period without you, really <3 i'll be in a state of confusion every night. but subconsiously my mind just tells me: you'll just decided tomorrow after talking to Le Ting again. :D i'll miss you my bessttt confidante! (((: reallly. and JIAYOU for your concert tomorrow! i mean, really, GO FOR IT NYC! you'll never know how beautiful tomorrow night will be. the vivid memories that will be edged in your mind forever! ((: [ohmygosh leting you must have preached tooooomuch about choir to me.] HAHAHHA. anyway, yep thanks a mill' my friend! <333 I LOVE YOU!

to Alicia: I've never got to know you so well, how you can actually seriously sleep in class and laugh hysterically with me during that particular geog lesson! you don't know it, but you've been giving me moral support as well! especially through that period where you comforted me (as i felt) through indirect means ((; <333 I LOVE YOU!

sometimes, just knowing that someone knows how you're feeling, lessens 80% of the burden.

man, i'll really, really,really miss 203! it's like WOW. i've officially stored half a year's of memories with this special class in my heart <33 i'll officially like to say a BIG THANK YOU TO ALLL MY FRIENDS. for being there for me. for putting up with my mood swings

and i'll also like to say SORRY to my family :'( i know i've been VERY inco operative. but give me time! i'm trying to improve! ((: slowly, i'm sure i can do it ((:

Let's put aside the unhappy memories and embrace the coming future! most imptly, SHIYAN! BE YOURSELF! stay truthful to yourself!

2008-05-14T17:32:00.002+08:00

WOW i haven't blogged in ages! hohhoho. okay. i don't feel like being emo for today, so i shall be happy! was talking to mari on the bus and i found out LOADS about her xD HAHAHHAHA :D <3 mari! and i was darn frank with her about my life too. it just came out like so directly. i didn't need to think of how i could conceal some of my pride or something. GOSH. :D i like talking to mari! seriously, i've never been soooo frank with someone. :D tomorrow's sort of the last day of the term! super sad D: I LOVE LE TING AND ALICIA! though i know we can always choose to sit with each other again but i like to change seating partners! haha i think maybe i'll like to sit with pauline ^^ wahahah :D oh wells i shan't waste time anymore.

sometimes, it's the jealousy that kills the friendship
it first started one way
and then worsened in another
is there no turning back
i wonder

i'm so NOT looking forward to sabbats! oh sheeeesh! i haven't borrowed blue jacket! dang dang.

<3 shiyan!

2008-05-07T18:32:00.006+08:00

somehow, somehow, this year's been a real flop for me? i really, umm, really... sigh. i really think the life i had last year raised my standards for this year even higher. and obviously, it failed? i feel super messed up, and... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

somehow i really like to question, is the world just about results? why does being smart give you an edge over other things? i love 203, and it's been a really STUNNING experience having such wonderful friends, but somehow i think my confidence level has dropped to almost zero in 203; yep, the only bad thing. bit by bit, my self esteem wavers, and sometimes i feel that it had really flown off. **POOF** why am i in a world with so much competition? maybe it's just myself really, but.. i don't know... maybe im just going through this REALLY confused period of my life. this really really mind boggling period, where i think and think, and sometimes just think too much. nowadays i ask myself what i'm good at, and when i pause to think, no answer comes to my mind. i no longer have an edge. not in terms of other things, but yes, subjects. my grades are PLUMMENTING. down, down down it goes! haha, sometimes i really used "busy" as a self consolation. with the prep of hatful of stars during the mar hols which totally messed my whole schedule up, OM singapore, with getting used to two ccas, psl stuff, with coping with the heaps and heaps of proj work and assignments. juggling, juggling, and when you come to a point where you can't even say you're studying, cos in actual fact, you're just completing your assignments and meeting for projects and completing proposals and grasping every single sec and minute to prevent your pupils from sinking into your sockets. SIGH! i wonder where my life has gone. and sometimes i tell myself to just throw everything aside and HAVE A LIFE! but when i really want to do so, i feel so guilty. how can i not use my time wisely, to catch up?

but yes, on the contrary, i know i don't wanna be too free. this year has been... not an awakening year like last year, but i year iguess, of more maturing? experiences, that's what i'm going through. experiencing failures, disappointments in work and ________________________. probably this year of 2008 is just for teaching me how to cope with the 'downs', to learn to not hope for too much, to learn to accept what i have.

was in the bus just now, at the bus stop, was staring into space day dreaming, thinking. nearly missed my bus twice. haha. and when i was in deep thought in the bus. i saw this man staring and me with this really 'se' look. he was smiling like he was crazy. showing his black crooked teeth. smilling to me, or himself? it then hit me suddenly how lucky i am to be able to think straight, have friends, have a family, and have a roof over my head. HAHA as i said, more of a 'philosophical' year.

so face it shiyan!
you'd just have to try harder. <3

here comes tuition! --- prob the only thing that made me exceed my own expectations in '06.

2008-05-05T20:34:00.003+08:00

i'm determined to do better... i'm being doing SO CRAPPY for chinese you have NO IDEA. feel super zi bei -.-" my doing badly is comparing to my own standards for myself yeah, so don't get offended who ever out there who reads my blog. i shall officially try to keep my blog alive! wait wait i must write down my resolutions first... >.<

Put more effort into my chinese
get chinese tuition
put more effort into quizzes and assignments >.< and worksheets
make time to study hard for tests!
stop getting one of the lowest in class for assignments and projects and sias.

haha i sound like an official kiasu person. but fret not people. i'm REALLY, REALLY, NOT doing well. >.<"

i must must must must must must must must must get chinese tuition.

2008-05-04T12:42:00.002+08:00

rawr. can't stand it already! CHINESE PORTFOLIO =.= EXPOSITION =.=

i really wanna do well for the exposition cos obviously i've not been doing well for almost everything but i don't know how! i'm not sure if i did my exposition correctly in the first place -.- roar. and chinese portfolio!!! ahhh the thought of just typing CHINESE is killing me! >>.<< fine i shall go back and attack my exposition. mm. but it's quite difficult once you have already written. oh shit i forgot. MATH SIA -.-" die. so many things to do. PHYSICS sia -.- -.- -.- -.- don't care lah. BUT CANNOT DON"T CARE! rawr. forget it lets talk about happy stuff

NAPFA IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay ((: it was over two days ago and i'm still aching like crap. anyway. hahahhaha! i jumped 195cm for standing broad jump! heh heh i ran 10.8s for shuttle run. and did 24 inclines! i did 40 sit ups. sigh could have done more if not for the time limit lol. let's not talk about sit and reach. i always do the worse for that, ironically.

i shall attack exposition again.
ATTTTTTTAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

aza aza fighting!

2008-05-01T23:48:00.002+08:00

IT'S MAY DAY! :D AKA LABOUR DAY. this is so funny... mayday is ending in 12min time! haa i just finished my third portfolio. chionged two today. emmm QUITE an acccomplishment i guess? i haven't revised for malay quiz but, oh well, WHO CARES? hahahah :D this is my first happy post in AGES! :D HAD A WONDERFUL DINNER WITH MY FAMILY AND AUNTY AND JUMBO @ DEMSEY. i love the crabs AND PRAWNS! wahaha, it felt super londonish at the ben and jerrys there! it's super cool! :D i felt like i was on a 3h long holiday break. :D woots! ^^ spent quite long finishing the design for the MD badge as a gift to seniors. wahah :) tried so many times and finally the LAST one was the BEST. so i completed six hand drawn ones in like an hour? quite long but yeah, it's accomplishment! :D ummm. what else did i do? can't remember. i just know that i have typed i most chinese i did in AGES. and knowing my chinese standard and my ability to express, it's really QUITE an accomplishment to have managed to type at least 6 pages of analysis :D i'm easily contented with chinese. oh and i wanna get tuition for chinese! anyone interested to come join me? :D i don't think anyone in 203 would need it but, oh well? haha all my close friends are PRO in chinese.. so.. WHAHA :D i'm super high! wahaha. :D

it's class breakfast tomorrow!

and i'm really nervous about THAT too. but, shan't think much about it! :D i'll just try my bestest, i promise >.<

<3 shiyan!

now i hope people would start daring to tag! :D

TAGTAG TAG i'm not killing myself ! wahahaha

2008-04-30T14:41:00.002+08:00

i'm a grumpy old hag at home. my attitude worsened ever since i've moved on to sec school. got scolded like crap again by my mum in the morning. almost burst into tears but oh well luckily it was time to get out of the car so it was easier to stop. jo and steph asked me why my eyes were wet. ahaha, and of course my and my wonderful ability to lie. sigh, i know i'm wrong, and i swear i'm trying to change, but... it's really hard to. and it's really really really, not me to talk about school stuff. ask me to gossip about other things. to me i'm always escaping from reality. i escape from topics that make me feel sad and disappointed. and i don't like probing. i hate to repeat myself all over again and hearing the same things all the time. maybe it's just me, just me that i find no way in confiding in my _______. i feel super bad, especially these few weeks, my mood is like ___________. worse than worse. i can't open up to telling about what i'm doing in school, what it really is about, why the hell i'm doing it and how i'm coping. they're topics i like to escape. to me, haven't i been in school for tooo long? why can't i just get some time off talking about school stuff? i don't like recounting. to me, MOVE ON! i feel really bad, and i KNOW it's my fault. i'm well aware of that. i DO reflect all the time. i take in critism and i swear i know where i'm at fault. so i think i've just got to finish this rebellious stage of mine. RAWR. and i know i'm disappointing them, sometimes even making them worried. maybe it's my pride or whatever. maybe. LOL i think i've got a great big ego that doesn't surface.

ROAR. it feels so mean to take it out on them. it feels so bad to carry my stress home.guess i'm a just a different person. in comparison, i'm way way way off.

i'm not perfect, so please, give me time to change.

(ROAR i didn't want to post about sad things. but yes blogs are meant to be a medium where you can express your real feelings, isn't it?)

2008-04-26T21:10:00.002+08:00

urgh. now i'm not sure if i did the right thing. >.< if it's gonna be awkward... .. . rawr. life is tough. i'm determined to forget about this this weekend. RAWR. ROAR. days are precious. we shouldn't waste it worrying. chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi right? sigh.. okay

POEMS >.< spent 5 hours on the poem Let America be America again NONSTOP. rawr we analyse like crazy till we even forgot what our initial focus was. brain juice SQUEEEEEEEZED dried.

shall escape for another day!

2008-04-24T20:13:00.005+08:00

guess i should blog before i start my heap of work.

i guess anyone who knows what i'm going through now would realise that my 'happiness' these days comes from my inner self knowing that i'm successfully escaping reality. i'm not truly happy. this thing bugs my heart, my mind, my soul ALL THE TIME. it creeps and sometimes it decides to capture your attention; so it activates: then your tear ducts are exercised. i finally know why people actually torture themselves to make them feel better. don't worry i don't do that. but it IS the truth. it's human nature to hurt oneself when one is feeling crappy. disappointed. troubled. insecure. i feel that i've been thrown into this DEEP DEEP hole. where i can see nothing. and i don't know who pushed me in. people tell me why but i don't understand HOW i actually fell in. to me it doesn't make sense that i've been made to fall into this hole. this DEEP DEEP dark and eerie hole. i'm trying to crawl out slowly, but i can't. i'm so tired. i'm so tired of this emptiness, this solitude, this feeling of suffering alone (though i know yes, you understand). i feel like giving up, though my heart still holds on to this thin line; this unwillingness to let go. i know i still can't get over the whys. and hows. WHY did things end up this way, HOW did it end up this way? i can't make myself believe the reason. ireally really really can't. is it my ego? or well, i feel unjustified. i wish, really wish i could know what exactly happened among them. i know that if i really want it, i would have to react by tomorrow. but i can't come to a decision. not many people have chosen that road before. it feels... ahh well. :/

well this really reminds me of the poem by Robert Frost "the road not taken"

should i tell my family members? my.. my sister? but i'm so afraid. so afraid that if i do, that thin line of hope that i'm still holding on to would disappear. would i feel even worse. i don't like to start crying over this. but somehow, i feel that this wouldn't be so much of a disappointment if it hadn't been ___ who inspired me. let me emphasise. i only want to be given a chance. just a chance. then even if i fail it, i know i only have got myself to blame. this sucks. it really really really does. i know there are more people out there who are much less fortunate than me. maybe it's just me, just me that i expect too much from myself? just me that i would like to shine in this, and that?

i've thought about it. if this really turns out how i don't want it to be, i'll strive for excellence else where to make full use of myself. i'll turn to excel in cca. i'll turn to be involved in more CIP. i'll take up dance outside; ballet or something. keep myself busy and excel elsewhere. this shouldn't be my life should it? i shouldn't let it affect me. maybe someone is trying to tell me that shiyan, this is not the best place for you. there is somewhere else. you'd just have to wait. but at this point of time. i'm really self-doubtful. to me, i feel that i've been thrown this statement of " you aren't good enough, you don't make an impression" many many times. i find it really hard to believe. why do other get it, when they to me... ahh i can't say it.

Urghh this is overbearing. but i think my ____ would get to know about this thing soon. i'm not doing this for ____, but rather, _____ has indirectly raised the standards of myself. i've learnt that you should really not say too much hopeful things about a person. she raises the standard of how she perceives herself. if you weren't such an ____ ______, i probably wouldn't have these expectations of myself.

but i do really need to thank you... for i wouldn't have realised THIS side of me. i never knew i could be such a person. i never knew i could stand in front of so many people confidently and ___ ___ ___. perhaps sec one had been too great a year. perhaps it had been a year where i really realised too many new things about myself. perhaps...

my tears are dried.

2008-04-22T18:58:00.002+08:00

don't cry shiyan. at least now you know.

well the outcome is what i've expected. but somehow i don't seem to see why. and how. but thanks ____ for saying that you'd be behind me all the way.. it's so different coming from an adult. thanks also Le Ting and Alicia (: you're great desk partners. fine i shall admit i'm disappointed. and it hurts even more now. somehow i wish i never knew. but i knew i'd regret if i didn't. finally let some tears go during chinese supp class. couldn't help it. too much to bear you can say. it's so difficult to keep it to yourself. i don't know who to talk to. i need you confidante. i know you'd understand. but talking wouldn't be of any help to the situation. and i've got to make a decision soon. if i was never in this situation i would never opt to do so. but now.. i'm torn. it seems... overestimating myself to do so. but i'll regret it if i don't.

it's so confusing. i expected and yet at the same time never expected this to be the reason. is it just fate, or an indication to me to buck up, to force me out of my quiet self during class? i didn't meet it. but many others did. why. have been asking myself that in ages. why why why? guess i'd never know, i'm too afraid to know.

turning the tap on

2008-04-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

you could see the magic, in my hatful of stars... in my hatful of stars...

i felt like crying every minute today. it's so painful. so piercing. i miss hatful of stars like crazy, and on top of the i have to face the reality i have been avoiding all these while during the preparation. it's so oppressive. it's so painful to fight back the tears that keep wanting to flow. the reality is killing me. i find it so hard to believe, so hard to bear. and why must you keep talking about. everywhere i go, i hear it, people ask me. they talk about it. they tell me about it. how i wish someone could just accomodate me and not tell me how afraid they are, how badly they thought they did. please. let me off. it's hard enough to bear.

i don't need it badly. and i won't feel bad if i am given a chance. then i would know that it would have been my fault if i failed. no one else is to blame. but why?

escapism.

fighting back tears.

2008-04-20T20:53:00.003+08:00

oh man i think i'm suffering from PPB-- post production blues! hatful of stars II is over! so sadd D: but it was a really really good show :D REALLY REALLY SUCCESSFUL ONE. and really really really memorable((: I LOVE NYMD! a lot a lot A LOT! it was super emotional though, when we did the warm ups before the matinee show. we were all crying like crazy. and it's so sad. cos it was mr raj's last day D: :'( sigh... but this production was a really great experience! i learnt SOOO MUCH. and i really really miss D'artistes people already! especially jaslyn my buddy :') she danced umbrella with me ((: i shall remember HATFUL OF STARS II for life! ((: really, it's was like BANG. and it's over. i love my seniors! they were so nice ((: i felt super super loved yest. and i knew all the seniors so much so much better! they're really nice ((: i feel like crying all over again! i already miss it sooo much :D and everyone said that they enjoyed it a lot ((: which makes me really happy! thanks for your support people! REALLY! <333333333333 i love everyone! NYMD <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333 woohoo ((: i love my cca. to bits! hahahahha. nymd! and it's so heartwarming that people can tell me which items they felt was nice :D haha whichmeans that the concert made an impact on them :D yay! hahaha((: i don't want this to end! how i wish i could turn back time. oh wells. PPB!

i shall love nymd forever and ever with all my heart <33

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well, i think it's sorta confirmed now. and i'm sorta scared that i have too much time to think now. it gets me all troubled and low :'( more time = more time to moan. oh well. why must everything be like that?

dance ^^

2008-04-16T23:18:00.003+08:00

the indirect confirmation.
this is driving me nuts
why keep me from knowing the reason
i'm burning to know why

i'm feeling insecure.
unjustified.
troubled.

my troubles never end.

if it's an error, why must this happen to me
if it's really this reason, WHY?

GAHHHHHHH this is driving me up the wall >.< AHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i need the ocean.

2008-04-15T19:31:00.004+08:00

Haha have not blogged in AGES. many MANY things have happened really. Namely, OM singapore of course. :)

We got fifth. and we just realised today that we missed the third by only 0.4m. URGH. so irritating right. but anyway, we really, really, sincerely tried our best. it was our best performance. we tried really hard. and we did ourselves proud... we didn't forget our lines or anything. our membership sign didn't drop either! :D:D. we really put in our best in terms energy too :) shouted like crap cos i was already having sore throat cough and flu. when we came i out i couldn't even speek a sentence without speaking. haha. Let me say thank yous too! :D

THANK YOU....

to my dear OM grp members : sally pauline huihan Yan ni heng yeng and alicia :) without the effort put in by every single one of us, all these wouldn't have been possible! :D

to 203-ers. <333 size="1">we shall just leave it to fate to decide

2008-04-08T20:55:00.003+08:00

Argh i officially SCREWED my block tests. all my subjects totally sucked except for math -.-" sheeeessshhh. have not done so badly in a long nong nong time. sigh, realise i'm really not those type that can go for an exam without even remembering half of what i studied and still do well. i have to have the time to study everything. just me, can't do anything about it. wasn't given the time this time. so i shall use the time that i'm given for the next three terms to prepare myself((: block tests are horrid luh DD: how you expect us to study when you've got like 6 days of cca during the one week march hols. and on top of that OM. then wed jiu kao shi le. sucks lah D: i'm so vulgar oh well :/ i shall work harder the next term! :D which is now. but i currently haven't been cos i've been too caught up over production and OM. hahahahha. but i rather these memories then study study study ((: NYMD <3333 OM GROUP <33333 but i can't neglect my studies cos i've really been screwing up. quizzes, assignments. where to put my focus ?! i have no idea. D:

OM singapore
coming Friday
Saturday. GOSHHHHH i'm so scared. and i'm down with stupid FLUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. shit. and i'm spreading it to everyone! AHHH

Hatful of stars production
next sat.
I"M SO FREAKED. cos i think i'm not even prepared.

i shall go catch up with homework/assignments/ SIAs/ projects. i don't want to srew up my academic life just yet! SHIYAN MUST TRY TO BALANCE OUT. tsktsk. :P

jiayou.
ilovemyOMgroupforeverandever
we rock
we stone
we shi tou

<<3333

2008-04-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

woahwoah. this period's REALLY hectic for me. it's C.R.A.Z.Y. OM SINGAPORE. HATFUL OF STARS II. GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i really have no idea where to put my focus on. both equally i guess. but it's so impossible to do so lah! haiyo. keep getting scolded by mr rag and screwing up all my items this few days. ARGH. my mind's super messed up. i chiong here and chiong there. missing ALLLLL the lunch pracs. can die please. screwed.screwed. then when i actually reach for dance i'm so super tired that my brain stops functioning so it totally shuts off and all the more i get ranted at. oh welll. expected. what to do lah. i can't have both sides of the world. hmmmmm. lets see. i'll just have to compromise something. can't expect to be like chao pro in everything. argh. but i hate getting scolded by teachers. i shall CONCENTRATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee. concentrate lee shi yan. focuss. jiayous. left school at 7.40pm today after doing OM. and had cca which ended early. super scary can. then had dinner at HC poolside cafe with OM members xD reached home at 9.15pm? LOLLLL. super tiring. i feeeeeeeeeel like CONKING OUT. ohwell

<3 shiyan

2008-03-30T08:59:00.002+08:00

yo! yesterday was a MAD day. really MAD MAD MADly tiring day. had dance from 8am to 2pm with no break at all. and then at 2 i RUSHED like a mad dog to do OM. hhaha nice and kind mr nick ng bought 4 tubs of ben and jerry's ice cream for us can. 4 bottles of coke also lah! was so shocked when i chionged all the way up and sally stuffed this spoonful of cold and yummy ice cream into my mouth [just when i was so thirsty!] hahah yummmmmmmmm. but it got really tiring. and i've got like 5 blue blacks on my knee now due to OM. cos i happen to suppose to be this really crazy person who goes a little crazy, jumps up and lands on the floor to buy her spider. oh welll. no one would understand except my dear om members, and of course our mentor. woah as mr nick ng went through the things that would happen on the day, he made it sound so serious and freaky lah. what about not being able to talk about the question for hours until the whole thing is over. D: i'm freaked can. but ohhh welllllllllllllllll. had a bad day at dance though. screwed up most of my items especially tribal just because i missed ONE day of dance due to CIP! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. was the laggest can. and someone they were filming so i really wonder if i've been captured with my lost face! ahhh it would be super embarrassing if they put it up D: urghhh. was so stupid. really lah messed up so many things. oh well. there are always ups and downs :D okay going to alicia's house to do math sia soon! :D TATA~

OHOH! i forgot to mention! we did OM until like 7pm. and the staircases were all locked. we were freaking out can! luckily yi jia the experienced one told us how to escape.. phewww.

<33 shiyan

2008-03-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

GAH. can't do my math till i get this off my chest >.<

so it happens that everytime you gain something,
you'll lose another.

Maybe it's just me, just me that i strive for almost excellence in everything i do and every side of my self development [i sound cheem hoh]. I want to be good at this, be good at that, be good at this and that and everything. well. of course the more significant stuff are like dance, studies and 'uh hmm' [i guess pple who know me well would know]. yes. and this year, everything seems to clash.. i'm ALWAYS caught in dilemmas, i have NO idea why. i always have to end up giving up something just to do another. and most of the time, of course, i would have to get my priorities right. and it ain't fun. thus i conclude that's the challenging part of life, ain't it. but i hate this challenge. it makes me exasperated; leaves me at my wits end. and when all seems well at one side, i lose the other. and the other happens to be equally important. maybe i'm just an indecisive person, but i really don't think so this time. it's happening too many times. my life's messed up this year, really. it really is. was telling le ting just a LITTLE about how i really felt this year and i almost teared. i'm bursting to tell someone, and i obviously tried [cos i can NEVER really keep many things to myself], but i don't think she really gets it. and it's not her fault. can't blame her. and i can even feel it myself that i ain't able to really let go of my feelings. we'll just end up indirectly affecting each other. LOL. and btw my problem ain't friendship ((: hah. i have wonderful friends that i got to know better this year :D

my life's REAL messed up, and i can totally sense that i'm losing myself. the TRUE me. i'm not depressed. just always subjected to thinking too much on my part. it's not THAT bad either. blogging's just a medium where i can let my hair down and yea, express myself. my real troubles. i don't think i've completely lost myself either.. and i really hope i'll gain my true self back again. maybe this period's really too stressful. i can't see where i can put equal effort and emphasis on everything. dance. OM. studies. _________. as my sister always goes. "detach". but i can't make myself do so. it's not in me. it really, really isn't.

you have no idea how much stress you've indirectly inflicted on me. and it isn't your fault, either. i've indirectly raised expectations of myself. and happen to always, obviously, fail my expectations. it gets me all insecured. and i start to lose myself. i'm not going crazy, don't worry. sometimes i'll suddenly start to realise it ain't just about myself. i'm already VERY lucky. dancing with D'artistes [children with down syndrome] really taught me A LOT. it made me see many things. in a whole new perspective. why are they so happy? am why am i not? shouldn't i be contented? well, it definitely set me off thinking.

okay i shan't continue. i've got to do math! and then i'll sleep early. to prevent myself from falling asleep in class so frequently. i'm screwing up my life!

when will this ever end?
would i really, be given a chance?

i'm doubtful.

2008-03-25T21:40:00.003+08:00

gosh. i'm seriously in love with this photo! (MD has taken up most of my life recently :D) i'm glad! <3333

hey. i think OM has really mentally and physically exhausted me :O -pants-

anyway. hah. i sound spastic. oh wells :/

got back our chinese paper math paper and geog quiz today. CHINESE. HAH. nevermind. expected anyway. i did badly D: oh wells. what can i do? i shall take up tuition once everything settles down. when production is over. when OM singapore is over. when what i want to achieve is over.yep. and hopefully that's soon. i'm pleased with my math though! haha (((((: didn't make REAL careless mistakes. YAY((: ahahahaha. so happy (: as in i'm not bragging lah. just that i've never had ANY confidence in my math D: i'll always lose more than ten marks to careless mistakes so this time's a great achievement! i shal continue working hard then! yay(: and the geog quiz was not bad too; hahahhaa. just my C.H.I.N.E.S.E. i'll SERIOUSLY consider tuition. like REALLY.

anyway. hope sally and the other M.O pple would get over this dilemma soon! the school's really horrid, don't you think? TSK. why must they do this to them lah!

as more days pass...

my chances...

are lower.

OH WELL! :/

2008-03-23T11:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST LE TING! haha (: may we always be friends forever <333 hope you'll always be my listening ear ... thank you for always cheering me up when i need it! :D <333

(sweeet. but sophia isn't here!! D:)

(were acting like freakin bimbos. HAHA XD)

hahha we were performing at jurong east don't know blk something something for some toh guan thing or something. lol bet i got all my facts mixed up((: hahaha. anyway. it was kinda an experience cos there was practically no teachers there to help us. we put on make up ourselves lah can you believe it. when the chinese dancers who comprised SEC THREE AND FOUR seniors had moral support from chen li li lao shi. but nvm we learnt quite a bit as only sec 2s on our own. don't blame our intructor lah. he's far too busy to be bothered with us. but anyway (: haha xD it was .... HMMM... we got scolded like crap during rehearsals cos obviously we thought we didn't have to full out. right so when we finished the REAL thing. i'm not sure if the teachers we speaking the truth lah but they said it was quite good. much better than the morning's one. hah. anyway we camwhored after that when we reached school. haha. LOLLL. you must be thinking we're bimbos but we're really not lah. we're forced into the mould cos of the TYPE OF COSTUMES we were required to wear. aiyo super bimbo lah we were complaining like crazy. all with the super DUPER short skirts and stuff D: HORRID! and about the camwhoring part haha(: i guess we'd all wanted more batch photos but sadly couldn't complete it cos sophia left early.. which is VERY. VERY sad. we haven't gotten a complete batch photo yet. sighs. haha(: i think i'm really quite irritating. oh well.. :/ :D

Had OM after that. hmmm it went quite well lah just that we still have got many things to do.

went to grandparent's house at 6th Ave.haha had nice nice food (: then we were being lame cos we finally had a whole family sitting in the car (culprit me cos i'm always like not at home during to.. ehmm prior stress) and went for Macs drive thru at KAP. i got the 60 cents ice cream cos i need to grow fatter, my sis got a mac flurry and my bro got his nuggets. hahha(:

maybe this is really just my fate-- maybe, it's really just what's best for me.

2008-03-21T10:23:00.002+08:00

hey world. the only happy thing today is that i'll be going for batch movie stepup2 later; hohoho. :D i heard it isn't nice just the dance part. oh well. GAH, i can't make myself not think about it. it's just like at the back of my mind slowly crawling towards my nerves and soon it'll cause a sharp pain. am i just thinking too much? AGAIN? sigh... why is it like that. i always have drastic mood swings hhaahaaa. i can't wait to change seats just that i'll definitely miss mari's hilarious company during lesson time where we wallow in self pity together at our math and laughing at everything that's funny during home econs and science. haha. and of course my other table mate jaslyn! :D hahaha i'll DEFINITELY DEFNITELY miss her help during math lesson. though i don't really talk much to her which makes me feel very very bad. only during math lesson i'll talk the most to her cos most of the time i'll be asking her questions. LOL. but i'm also looking forward to sitting beside le ting. LOl though yes i THINK we know each other considerably well we haven't exactly sat beside each other before. ahaha. i need to buy birthday presents for my my mortal, shan ping, tammie, le ting. haha two belated ones.

i've been thinking. sometimes i really want time to sit back and breathe and yet i know from the bottom of my heart that i also don't actually want to be all too free. i want to be active and participate. and do the stuff that i really like to do. but would i be given the chance to? it doesn't seem so anymore. and that's making me really insecure and worried. sigh. it's like you know what you really really want but you know there's a total 50% that you wouldn't even get the first chance to even try for it. you've actually been given false hope. and have lost almost 90% of my self assurance. sigh.

but as sally post just said. learn to treasure what you already have. you'll never realised it until you've been taken away from it. i'll learn to treasure what i already have. and well...

let's just leave it to fate to decide.

2008-03-20T20:24:00.002+08:00

GAH i feel troubled all over again. Everything's making me frustrated. irritated. troubled. worried. and i'm not sure if i'm just thinking too much again. it's making me feel insecure ALL OVER AGAIN. i'm not sure. i'm uncertain. i'm insecure. i hate being insecure. totally hate it. why must things always be so unsure for me. i never know what's giong to happen. things don't come to me smoothly. there's always something that comes in between which makes me feel very unsure of myself. very insecure. very uncertain. and in the end, i stop being true to myself. i stop even being myself. just to work towards what i want. it's unbearable, it's oppresive. and i hate myself for it. i can sense it. it sucks. it really does. but i can't help it. everyone says it's part and parcel of life. but is this what i must go through EVERYTIME? uncertainties? unsureness? it's terrible and i can't take it anymore.

stress has been building up on me. and i can hardly stand up straight anymore. i'm like losing TONS of weight and everyone says that my face looks sunken and that i'm a bag of bones. sigh.. with OM singapore, it's really crazy. and on top of that i've got HFOS II --production. sigh. my schedule's super super tight. there's still calligraphy. i'm supposed to write a piece to hand in but i just don't feel like it. ithink my interest is going downhill. hardly have a day to even sit down. and BREATHE. urgh. horrid.

guess i shan't describe how horrid i felt during cca today. shan't say. it ain't nice to hear and remember. but well just one sentence. If they just thought about their actions. it's not that we don't want to. it's that we're not able to bring ourselves to.

OM. sigh OM. it's really sad cos i sense the rapport degenarating. it ain't strong. i shan't say it. it's not nice to the ears. we are really losing our closeness. our bond. and of course our rapport. i mean rapport is soo impt and i think we're losing it. lack of communication etc. it's all showing. aren't we supposed to have fun?

BLOCK TESTS ended today. i went really crazy after math lah, was laughing like CRAPP. and i mean i felt super happy then. LOL. i'm supposed to be very happy now. but i don't feel it at all. urgh this is horrid.

maybe i'm just not meant to be one.

2008-03-08T19:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SALLY! my dearest, my lover, my darling, my dearie. HOHO. i'm not les. really. but i do love you a lot and wish you all the best and think that you are the greatest greatest leader <3333>

okay. first. LSC was quite xian. and that was quite sad. really quite sad. anw but i think it was the first time i cheered like crazy. i mean oh wow. i swear i shouted my hearts out. i didn't care. i was crazily in love with 203. :D hoho. though the night trail didn't turn out as well as we expected it to be, we know we put in so much effort. we shan't care about others. we did so much and we know it :D especially darling sally. oh my. cried that night after everything. felt so bad. felt so guilty that i made sally so embarrassed. was sobbing and hugging leting. then sobbed and hugged sally who didn't feel like hugging me which made me feel ten times worse. then sobbed for at least 2-3 min into jo's arms. like a baby i swear i was like omg. crying like helllll. she felt like my mum :D thanks jo :D i love you :D then hugged jesslene :D and sobbed for a min :D thank you peeps :D AND SORRY SALLY. i did not not want to go out. it was chaotic. i didnt know when to come out. and it was like D: and that po

OMG OMG OMG OGM OMG OGM OMG i just typed my whole post and it disappeared! WHATTHE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

and at that point there were no instructions given and i knew we were supposed to initiated but yah, i learnt that nothing will be smooth if we don't prepare before hand and rehearse. yes so after that we just went out. and we were screamign like hell. we didn't know what we were doing. but we tried our very very very best. it was like D: but yes, we were very proud of ourselves. not until some people told us how we made sally feel so embarrassed that we felt so lousy. i mean we really tried. and it was not that we didn't want to come out. we knew we knew ir wasn't our fault but they made us feel sooooo bad. like. OKAY. shan't say. sorry sally.

DRAMA! hahaha. hahahah eheheheheheheh hahahahahahahaha. drama! hohoho i was made JAKE LONG -.- the main characteer and i was really unsure of myself. then on stage i was trying my super best and screaming and shouting like never before :D ohohho :D and we received special commendations! HOHOHOHO. the judges were praising us to the skies laH! hohohoho. i learnt that an event wouldn't be successful if it doesn't try to appeal and interest and relate to the audience. at first our script was quite incoherent. yes. i knew it wouldn't work out but didn't know and dare to change it in case i offend. but yes, i know everyone tried their best and thank you mari and steph and heng yeng. i had been trying unsuccessfully to get people to support me in changing the script until the first day of camp after amazing race we were waiting and in the bus i could take it anymore. yes. so i was editing the script and dearest pauline and yanni helped me :D aAWWW . :D i realised i got to know pauline a lot better after the camp. we were tying the boundaries for the night trail etc together.. and trying to sort things out :D anyway. yes. so pauline typed out the edited script then i proposed the idea to the class then we immediately arranged and completed only in one and a half hours! WOOOHOOOO. hahahahhahaa. i love everybody :) and thanks supporters. wouldn't have done it w/o you guys :D you must involve the class in order to make everyone like the event :D

anyway. WE GOT IN FOR OM. omg the day they announced over the P.A system i was like tearing inside when they saidd the group from 2..0... i was like OMG OMG OMGO MG. and when they said that group from 203 three i was like screaming like hell and hugging all my OM members :D ohohohoho :Dhehehehehee. yay. but we're feeling the stress now. have Hatful of Stars two and had cca and have cca coming mon, wed, thurs fri and sat. stilll have to meet for OM. omg how am i going to commit equally. sure die for block tests on the first week lah! somemore must meet our mentor everyday once school term starts again D; oh well.

LSC was okay, was screaming my hearts out during the cheers. hohoho :) i love our cheeerrrrrrrrr! :)

am i being my true self? i'm not sure. would i be able to live the life i lead last year? would i be given more chances? or would i have to just sit out. and stare? i have not idea. oh well. [i'm not being emo. just thinking.]

<33>

2008-03-01T15:00:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAAHA it's officially FIRST OF MARCH. lalalalalalalala! hahahahahahha! it's my special day! but it doesn't seem quite special now though. no birthday mood D: LOL it felt like it was my birthday yesterday! like yesterday all super high with everyone who made me feel so special :D AWWWW :D you guys are daaaaaaa best :D:D:D:D:D:D:D <33333333 anyway,today went to watch 'L' with mari, sally, pauline and rie! HAHAHAHA. it was GOOOOOOOOOOOD. i mean me and sally cried like crap lah. at some parts so super touching lor! why must he die :'( ANYWAY. there were parts that were super jing1 cai3. hohohohoho. like we covered our eyes and ears etc D:oh yes and i forgot to mention in my last post that me, sally, mari and jesslene went out for dinner together yest. hoho we ate at lame coro cos we didn't know where to go. some lame prince restaurant thing. LOL the food was.... hmm shan't say. but WE WERE ZI-HIGHING like crap. hahaahhahahahahaa. felt super good. LAUGH LAUGH :D hahehhahehahe hope it'll feel more like my birthday soon at the party then! :D

<33 shiyan

2008-02-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

Today is 29th FEBRUARY 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LEAP YEAR.LEAP YEAR! ahahahahahha! LEAP YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! woooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it's ONNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEE day to my birthday! AHAHAHAHAHHAHA hOHOHOHOHOHO HEHEHEHEHEHEH! oops. sorry i'm super high. cos NEXT WHOLE WEEK IS SLACK WEEK WITH PREP CAMP+CAMP! i'm super excited. and i hope it'll be a REALLY good one! :D ^^D

THANKS so much to everyone! namely: STEPHANIE, JESSLENE, JOSEPHINE, SALLY, JING YI, OM group and everyone else who gave me cards, presents and wishes! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!! i mean really. i love 203 like crazy :D this morn ahahahaha guess what. i was supposed to come school early for drama lol. then when i walked up the stairs. i saw sally screaming something like super loud and then she turned around and saw me and screamed again. haha you should have seen the look on her face. so it was super funny. i asked her what happened and she refused to tell me. LOL. then she lead me one WHOLE ROUND around the school lah! and 3/4 way i already suspected something. ohhoho. so round and round and i finally got there. and guess what. OMG i was super shocked + touched + stunned and everything under the world. there lay a cake with lit candles... :') i was like :O! and they started singing. argh. pple you are just TOOOOOO nice lah <333333 you have no idea how much i love you guys :') and steph bought the entire cake! [i think she's sharing with josephine though] SO THANKS SOOOOO MUCH STEPHANIE AND JOSEPHINE! jo tricked me to school lah! haiyo. say do what drama. kui1 wo3 hai2 xiang1 xing4 ta1. LOL! but seriously i'm super touched i and i feel super super ultra loved :D

haiyo i teared after reading jo's and jesslene's cards. super touching. i was like suddenly overwhelmed with emotions <33 still remember last year when it was my birthday together with 1/3's. I was super high on that day lah. and i think that's why i love 103'07 [and of course 203'08] so much! ooh and every year for like how many years now? hmmmm since pri three so that makes that ehhhh 6 years now! jesslene would give me something hand-made for my bday! :D thanks so much! i appreciate what you all have done for me! like REALLY, i love you guys soo much. ooohhh well, i can't imagine we have to part this year, but anw shan't talk about it now.

okie dokey so have beeen SUPER busy nowadays. lol though it gets REALLY tiring these days, somehow, i hope it wouldn't end cos it can be really quite fun! OM isn't a wrong decision! i've been having a lot of fun out of the stress! OHOHOH :D just had internal judging yest. lalala. i think it went quite well but we all felt so normal acting that like lol. it was quite weird. lala. HAHAHAHA (slaps myself)

anyway. ahahhaa. can't wait for tomorrow most prob watching L with mari and sally! YO! hooh. i love 203 and everyone who loves and are nice to me (or even not nice but aquaintance).

i feel bliss.

2008-02-19T22:58:00.001+08:00

Will this insecurity ever end?

2 weeks into school

2008-01-13T17:44:00.000+08:00

WOW my blog's officially dying! Anyway! school has started for two weeks already. STRESS! we have like seven projects offhand and more to come. and mind you, the projects aren't simple ones! URGHHH so have been really busy and haven't got anytime to post about anything :) anyway okay. hope my blog doesn't die! :D:D:D:D JIA YOU!

<3 shiyan

2008-01-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

It's officially year 2008, the year of the rat. lol. SIGH, most people say 'how time flies!' but i must say 'how time soars!'. lying in bed last night about 10min before the countdown started, i was so confused. memories of what i went through in 2007 started gushing back... 103, choral night, teacher's day, youthday, talentime, LSC etc etc. WOW. i started to have mix feelings about the new year. Wasn't sure if i could allow myself to let go of that awesome year i had spent with everyone :) well, let's just hope this would be a better year then! and the holidays! OH MY, i can't believe i actually thought of wanting to go back to school! last night as i slowly thought about it, we would all have to pull through another year of academic stress before enjoying our long awaited break! sheeze. haha i promised myself i would have a better countdown next year! this year cos my family members were all too tired to go to my ahyee's house to countdown, they all were sleeping! D: i was quite angry. wanted to shout 10...9..8... but no one had the mood to high with me. they were all so low... D: so sao xing. and i have no ability to zi high really. haha. i need the people around me to be high before i can be high. haha. :D

Heard the performance last night by nymd was a success! COOOLLL. congrats people! heard from chermain that was almost no mistakes made at all! so proud of them! :DD wayy to gggooo!

i guess it shall be time to condition myself for school. i think i'm seriously not ready AT ALL. well, i definitely do look forward to the company of 103 [now 203] again! love to high with them. HOHOHO. especially with sally's infectious laughter, not to mention leting's piercing screams and no doubt pauline's constipated laughter! [:X] HAHAHA. hoho and of course chermain's zi-highness which woud definitely affect me! :DDD okay so this might all not be too bad a thing to dwell on! :)

SHIYAN! EMBRACE YOURSELF FOR THIS YEAR! JIAYOU! :D study hard and play hard!

and to all my dear friends and family members and everyone who is related to me, have an awesome year ahead! wishing you all good health and wealth! may the academic year ahead [which starts tomorrow] be a breeze and may all of you have a smooth carreer year ahead! :)

<33 shiyan

new year's eve 2007

2007-12-31T14:05:00.000+08:00

It's New Year's Eve! Sigh, though i won't be performing tonight, i'm all behind my fellow cca mates who are performing! JIAYOU peeps! i'm all behind you guys <333 i'm sure you guys can do it! SMILE and ENJOY yourselves! they must be really nervous, it being their first performance :D wonderful experience i must say ((: GAMBATE!

WOW. it's the last day of this very memorable year. i must say it has been a well rewarding year indeed :)) i guess in terms of self development, i have indeed matured and improved a lot, though there are definitely some loopholes =D well, let's hope that next year would be a better year! i must admit that this year had been the best schooling year so far :D i've never felt so happy and well loved :) Still remember the time i had to decide between RGS and NYGH last year. hahhaa i was SO torn frankly. but I, Lee Shi Yan, am proud to say that i have NEVER regretted my decision. [so far :)] There were definitely times that were really stressful and difficult but i guess we all learnt how to cope and to pull through it. it was no doubt quite difficult to juggle between cca, projects, homework, other commitments etc. I'm also very thankful to the school for building up my self confidence. lets say i NEVER dared to speak up in front of the class lsat time. haha or even answer a question the teacher asked. LOL. i'm glad now that i'm able to carry out a project presentation without even feeling nervous. [though not 100% but at least 90% :)] hahhaha.

Would also like to thank all my friends and family members who have always been there for me :) Thanks to all from 103'07 and nymd batch '07 :)) i love you guys :DD

<33 shiyan

2007-12-30T17:46:00.000+08:00

SIGH! school's starting in like TWO days time. i'm not sure if i'm even looking forward to it like how i did a few weeks ago. i must have been VERY bored. :( urgh. the thought of tests, quizzes and the FINAL YEAR EOY! OH MY GOSHHH. sick >.<" won't be attending lessons for pratically the whole week when school reopens! i think i've got too much time to think about stuff. have been thinking about so many lame stuffs that will NEVER actually happen but i just don't know why i keep thinking about the possibilities that it MAY happen. SIGH, and it makes me feel sooo.... :$ urgh. like i spend my whole day just worrying about it. GOSH. what's wrong with me. hahaha. it's only when this happens that i wish i've started school already so i'd feel so stressed that i won't think about these lame things. keeps my very imaginative mind off stuff. phew. :D seriously, if you give me a day, just leave me alone for a day, you wouldn't imagine how many stuffs i would have thought about and end up getting depressed and ultra-troubled. GOSHH. i think i need to talk to someone. but it's so weird! anyway, that's why i say, i always need friends to just talk to :D i'd just die without having the company of friends! ((:

so THANK YOU to all who have been there for me when i need you guys :D I LOVE YOU GUYS :D a lottt :D <333 i shall now occupy myself with something else so i need not be so bothered anymore :D

<33 shiyan

2007-12-26T14:02:00.000+08:00

Christmas lasts for 15 days right? or is it just a rumour? anyway hahaha. christmas feels oddly weird this year. not so exciting and fun but well, still a festive season to celebrate! ((: got many many presents! i think. yea sort of. i can loot so many presents from my sister and bro cos they both got bags. heh. my bro got a crumpler lah! i wish i get to loot it! hehe. sister got a converse bag. hoh. she said i could loot it. yay(: and i got a new water bottle and pencil case(: and many chocolates from mari and pauline. and something really cute from jaslyn! haha love you guys soo much(: lets see. my mum gave me jodi picoult's nineteen minutes and a notebook and a pair of beautiful earrings (: haha i didn't want anything so she told me she just bought anything she thought was nice. hahaha it's good to be contented with life! got a shirt, bath towel, christmas pen, sweets and stressball [from chermain!] and stuff. yep :D ;D =D i guess i'll start preparing myself for school >.< rawr. i was actually looking forward lah, but now... as 2008 aproaches... HA HA... it's REALLY hard to look forward to a stressful but well rewarding year i hope? :x i would definitely be busy. not sure if i'll really be taking up calligraphy! arghh. extra cca! maybe they won't let me join cos i won't be able to fully commit to the cca. with all the competitions from jan to april! crazy. like every sats and sun! how to cope? D: and we're having hatful of stars 2 in march? i think. LOL. anyway. now i don't want to go to school luhhhh :( SIGH.

Have been reading The Da Vinci Code. i'm sorta half way through it. it's really quite thought provoking. and i've definitely learnt MANY new words. was checking the dic. if not i won't be able to fully understand. :D HAH. never been so hardworking while reading >.< LOOOL. anyway. i haven't touched a single textbook! i sorta decided to just be really attentive and hardworking throughout next year and enjoy this hols. rawr. but i hate wasting time. anyway :$

okay. shall carry on reading cos there's like absolutely nothing else to do. didn't need to go for cca cos not in the 31st performance. hah okay chiao~!

<33 shiyan

It's Christmas Eve!

2007-12-24T15:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! it's CHRISTMAS EVE! yay(: that means presents, presents and MORE present! whoopee! hehehheehehe. hahahahha. hohohohoh. but i don't feel like i'm in a party-mood! and that's sad. cos there are tons of people coming over to my house tonight! FOR P.A.R.T.Y! WHOOPEE. there would be relatives from both my father and mother's side. let me count how many... Hmmm. 8 from my mother's side. 14 from father's side. And that makes 22! lala. how exciting. but as i said again, i'm in no party mood! not yet--i hope! and 22 plus my family and aunty makes 28! LOOOL. presents are piled under the tree! teeheeehee. how exciting. but i'm more or less satisfied with my life so i don't have special wishes for whatever gift. hahhaa. christmas is such a joyous event! we celebrate it every year just for the fun of it. haha. no special relation whatsoever :D it's funnnn mah! ((((: best thing's the food... turkey... ham.. apple sauce... chicken wings...jelly...pineapple rice...homemade oreo-peach-cheesecake...salad...whatever it is, YUMMYLICIOUS FOODD!

hah i better get myself in the christmas mood soon! tata! i shall go bathe then put up the party poster and blow balloons and play christmas songs! yaypee. bye. :D

<333 Shiyan [whose christmas wish is just to grow tall!]

2007-12-22T15:43:00.000+08:00

Sigh jesslene, you could have just told me a reason. all i needed was a reason. :/

I'm B.O.R.E.D, yep that's it. BORED. bro's down with stomach flu. and it's his birthday tomorrow. hahahah poor thing can't eat his cake etc. LOLL. i'm sooo bored! and i know i'm wasting time. sheezz i know i should pick up my textbook and start looking at least but i know it doesn't work for me this way. i need to be taught if not i won't register anything seriously. but i've slacked so much to a standard that i ended up mopping and sweeping the floor for my aunty. LOL. but what can i do? i can't stand it knowing that i wasted time :/ i know i must read more, but i just have got absolutely no interest in reading!!! HELPPPPP. it's so sad, that some people are just born to like reading and i'm not. and reading is so important cos language is like probably the highest percentage counted in exams. AND I HAPPEN TO NOT BE GOOD IN LANGUAGE.tsk. heh. subjects like combined humanities that i'm not so bad at, it has to be 50% geog and 50% history. so the people who are borned not good at these subjects wouldn't suffer so much cos it's only HALF the weightage. RAWR. it's so unfair. and science? SIGH, if you just memorise like crap you can also do well. so it so happens that i'm better at subjects that are easier to score across the board. LOL. very well shall just accept it ((: can't wait for school to start. but i dread the competition too when school starts. OHH NOO. competitions. i hate competitions. but everyone's competing so i can't stop competing too. sigh, that's what happens when singapore tries to educate the nation. seriously. i must learn to have more opinions about things, that's what my parents say. heh. like what i think about the increase in the price of oil, and about a woman who got sued cos she was raped. i know it makes no sense. but that's how it is in other countries, as i'm told. haiyo she's sued cos she gave the person a chance to rape her ?!?! makes NO sense. GAh. i think i should watch the movie my sister rented. Hairspray, that would keep myself from thinking about stuff. i don't understand 'to kill a mocking bird'. D: i'm horrid! and i'm not sure about math. i want to learn ahead but don't know WHERE ON EARTH to start. BOO. tried reading history but i really,really need a teacher to teach me before i'll start registering. SIGH. i give up! hairspray here i come! ((:

<3 shiyan ^^

2007-12-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER IS LAGGGG. D: anyway :DD

hahahahahah! the party yesterday was fun! it would have been 'funner' if someone didn't make me angry before the whole thing even started. BLEH. shan't be angry now or it'll spoil my otherwise perfect day! :D let's see! who turned up...

sally, pauline, xintong, rie, jaslyn, joanne, marilyn, keyu, zhiyun, gong yuan!!!! Nice nice people! and special thanks to jaslyn, pauline and marilyn who gave me christmas presents! <33 and of course to all the rest who specially bought the gifts for gift exchange! :D love you all! :DDDD i'm so touched :') <33333333333333333333333 i hope you all had fun! ((;

so first sally came earlier to help blow balloons and pin up the large poster. :D then everyone started arriving one by one. hahaha they mostly entertained themselves lah! LOL. so first we played 'pig' then black jack using other cards as fake money. played for quite some time. hahaha. then we went down to play 'zhong ji mi ma' ! LOL the person who guessed the number would get a cup of water splashed on his or her back. heh :D quite lame but i guess it was quite fun? hehe. haha in between the card games in the front we gossip-ed about super ultra sick stuff and were laughing like crazy. haha practically the WHOLE party we were just laughing and laughing and laughing AND laughing. :D hah! i love all of them!!!! <33333 THANKS PEEPS :D really appreciate you all for 'peng chang-ing'. :DDDDDD so after the water games thing we played taboo! keyu was damn funny when she described the words. she's like LOOOLLL ^^ okay then it was dinner time! we had nice and LARGE and cool ham, and my mother's bake rice, wanton, salad, chicken wings, sotong balls, and fries! was there somemore? anyway :D then mari and joanne had to leave :( then xintong left. :( haha so we hurriedly did the gift exchange in case anyone else needed to leave. hahahahahaa. i got xintong's gift. cute and squishy! i think jaslyn was the happiest with her gift. it was keyu's gift. :D gong yuan got sally's. sally and pauline got mine. keyu got josephine's. josephine got my cute piggy ^_^ joanne got rie's present. mari got gong yuan's xintong got jaslyn's. hmmmmm. zhiyun got pauline's. rie's got zhiyun's. heh! hopeyou guys liked your gifts! as for mari and xintong and joanne i'll pass them the gifts next year! it's like in 10 days time or something. LOL. then we just talked about our darkest secrets crush etc. heheheheh! POOR poor sally had to ...... sigh, sally must have been so embarrassed :( but you made our day! :D

today was the sec one registration. hehee i was outside the lift at level two. kept repeating the same line and putting on a plastic smile. only slept for 3h and 45min last night!! after everyone left by around ten, i mopped and swept the floor and cleared up etc. then we watched our baby videos! woah, i was damn cute, but as always, camera shy. my sis ... TSKTSK. super AA. heh, LOOL. ^^ anyway then like that lor. then the parents asked us all sort of questions that we had to squeeze our brainjuice to answer. OMGOSH wait i must tell everyone!!!!! OUR NEXT YEAR PE TEE IS SUPER ULTRA NICE! it's the old old one back again just made a length not needed to tuck in! it's COOOOLLL. but we looked ugly for a year -.-" SAD. ahh. nevermind at least we saw the school make changes :DDD hahha it was quite fun! OH AND THANK YOU DEAR JIEJIE CHERMAIN FOR THE CHRISTMAS PRESENT! my 2 cca friends were in the same grp as me and we were talking all the way. hehe! highing :D i love chermain and eunice! :DDD and of course everyone else! :D okay now i'm super tired and preparing to be in a bad mood you know whyyyyyy?!?!?!! COS.. i going to the stupid dentist to wait for HOURS again. STUPID STUPID STUPID. urrggghhh. anyway! seeing all our next year juniors i can't wait for school to reopen! today was fun as a first test for us! ((;

2007-12-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

haha today went to rebond and cut my hair with my ahyee ((: it's at chinese garden mrt. it took 4h. sigh. had a bad dream last night :'( guess what it was. NO ONE CAME TO THE PARTY I SUPPOSEDLY ORGANISED. i was so sad. cos it was such a failure. and sigh, more people are backing out every day. sigh i very scared it really happens. SIGH. i'm probably still living in a dream. argh parties are so stressful!!!!! it's really stressful to be the host cos you'll always be afraid that your guests would not be very much entertained :'( stress... >.< and this time no one help me organise -.-" at least last year had the whole time in school to plan. somemore could ask everyone to help me do invitation cards cos there was too much time in class doing nothing after the PSLE. LOL. last year's party was a success though. argh.

>.< shiyan

2007-12-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

The nine oclock show's starting in a few sec. so i shall post fast ((:

TOday went to JEC to ice skate and take neo prints with OM grp! (: fun fun FUN!!!!!!! alicia's pro. and i'm so proud of huihan and heng yeng and pauline! Lalala:D and it 'snowed' thrice today! super lucky! they were good(: and brave! and we laughed so hard when pauline fell. so bad but so NICE xDDD hah okay gtg byebye! ;D LOVE OM <33

shiyan

2007-12-15T19:19:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR MONKEY, BANANANA, THURSDAY, OM MEMBER & FPS MEMBER! happy birthday huihan!!!!!! may your 130th monkey birthday be an enjoyable one! enjoyed the time spent at your house! :DDDDD

today went to huihan's house early in the morning for her birthday party! ((: so sad lah, she ended up not inviting her pri school friends and invited us OM members instead :( she must have felt so bad. anyway, hope that we did make her birthday a memorable and crazy one! :DDDDDDD let's see. FPS members reached first. we decided to walk to her house cos we somehow knew the way [it wasn't the first time for me and pauline]. haha then halfway we saw huihan walking towards us and we hurriedly ran to hide behind this signboard! LOL. it was super embarrassing but anyway, we wanted to BOO her. hahahahahaha morning craziness already ((((: so she happened to not see us and when she walked past us, we followed behind her and BOO-ed her. LLOOLLLL it was so funny. and we were laughing like CRAZY. anyway. then we made our way to her house! i love her condo's name lah -- Butterworth 8 and the letters were all in different colours! SO COOOL. rainbow. hahahaha. anyway then when we went up we sat and stoned for a while then we decided to go down. hahah so we went to the PLAYGROUND! LOL. then we played a lame game. i'm not sure of the name but whatever basically the catcher can't come up to the playground and we had to run/hide whatever. i know it's super childish but ahahah it was quite enjoyable lah (: then we went to this 'fun pool' and played with the water. haha too bad we couldn't go in. uh huh. then it got a little boring so we went up again! so we decided to play the board game "the game of life" and so we were playing quite happily. Were reliving our FPS madness again <333 I LOVE MY FPS GRP!

After we played for some time, the pizza arrived! then we had super nice pizza! i think it was jingle joy and hawaiian pizza! nice nice nice! then shared the spicy drumlet with sally cos there was only four. VERY un-glam but oh well, the joy of doing stupid things! haha then heng yeng arrived! WOAH guess what! she rebonded her hair! and she wore a skirt and carried a toad bag! she looked super shu2 nv43! but nice nice(: then we just ate hah. after that huihan's parents and sister left for lunch out so we had the house to ourselves :D we went back to her room and started presenting her with our gifts! ((: teeheee. llaalalalala. i made her this planner thing which i spent almost the whole of yest [more than 7h!] on. hehe but very worth it. hope she likes it(: i like to make people happy! :D hah as we were opening the presents halfway alicia came along! (: OH! i remember before we opened presents we were playing hide and seek! ahaha it's SUPER childish but as i said, being childish and crazy can be really fun! first i hid at a corner and lifted the stool so it covered me but [of course] i was found in no time. sally hid under the bed lah! and she was still shuffling when huihan came in [she's very funny] hahahahaha then huihan spent a super long time finding pauline. [guess where she was hiding!] --behind the door. i was amazed how pauline managed to not laugh! ((: okay so back. then alicia came along. oh then after that we cut the cake for huihan! cos her parents weren't at home we had to set the camera so it would take all of us. HAH and i found how to do it k! huihan said her family tried a billion times but to no avail. HEH. so we took a BEAUTIFUL picture. I LOVE MY OM GRP! the we sang her both el and cl birthday song. ;D and the she cut the cake and we had a slice each. was very full. hah. okay so sally and pauline had to leave early for some personal reasons. then left with me, huihan, yanni, hengyeng and alicia. hmmm lets see what we did. we played... tai ti, [how do you spell that?] pig? [as hy calls it it's like heart attack] heart attack, (was taught) bridge (but still not clear). uh huh. right then we got bored and just played with huihan's small pool table. we couldn't paly so we gave up. right then it started raining and it got dark. so we off the lights and told each other our darkest secrets, secrets, funny, amazing etc etc. then we passed the 'mushroom' and yanni played the music from the phone. lol it was lame lah. after that they wanted to hear ghost stories [which i would never let myself hear; i'm dead scared] so most of the time i shut my ears and went ahhhhhhhhh so i wouldn't hear a thing. i hate horror stories. they freak me out and give me nightmares cos i imagine too well. so they stopped me from turning on the lights but i won ((: hey i'm really scared one lor. :'( hah. oh then we played lame games like 'cheng yu jie long' but just a little diff. hah, about cars, countries, secondary schools,football teams, sports. etc.

hah so overall it was enjoyable and i had a great time laughing like crazy with my OM grp again((: hope huihan enjoyed herself! though our games were lame and childish, it's really fun to be crazyy together!! (((: I LOVE MY OM GRP! [which comprises my FPS grp]! once again, happy birthday huihan! let me sing you your birthday song again!

Happy birthday to monkey,
you are born in the zoo,
with bananas on the tree,
happy birthday to you!

<33 shiyan

2007-12-14T10:49:00.001+08:00

i feel so embarrassed! sorry pple. i think stupid hotmail screwed up on me. anyway i've sent it again and xintong received it this time so it should be okay (: hohoho. xintong said that [it started with a kiss 2] is coming out on mon! hohoho. i didn't really like the show the last time [part one] cos it was FAR FAR too lame. a genius and a IQ an EQ low person falls in love and gets married when they're still studying. LOL :P but if you feel like watching a lame and stupidly funny show, please watch it. hah. i'm going to spend my day either making or buying birthday gifts. there's two people's birthday coming up one after another. huihan and my sister. 15 and 16. and i've not done anything. D; sally and yanni supposed to come my house today but... don't know why. suddenly cannot. so sad luh. then i 白excited. sigh. shouldn't sigh to much. i'm probably very aunty or whatever you call that but the channel 8 nine oclock show seems quite interesting. oldies. 1982. i think old shows are nice. not the current ones with crappy new actresses and actors. but can tell they're slowly improving lah. i want to watch hong xing da jiang! haha i must be far too bored. anyway. tata!

2007-12-13T16:07:00.001+08:00

Sigh... is my email purposely being dao-ed or something? D: no one replied! and i received emails from people but not abt it but about the class tee, which proves that they had gone into their email and saw my email, BUT, chose to not reply D: GAH, i don't know. anyway, was super high at cca today but don't know why i'm so low now, hahaha must be the emo-ish songs i'm listening to now (i NEVER listen to songs, but i think something got over me today. hahahah). Rawr, i'm still very sour about not being able to be in the show :'( hahaa but whatever. i shall just accept fate. the two dances are terribly nice ((: and i think we're slowly improving and getting closer to the seniors. now i think my passion for dance has grown a little more ((; anyway, POOR POOR JASLYN twisted her ankle! aiyo she so poor thing lah. i think she fell while turning then she suddenly just sat on the floor and tears started rolling down her cheeks. some people were still ignorant so they didn't stop but after a while they noticed and carried her to the side. then, i saw the caring side of my dance instructor :D haha. he held her leg and asked her where it hurt etc etc. anyway, he was just very caring ((: then after a while we got her ice packs and waited with her for her father to come. poor jaslyn! :'( hope she gets well soon! :D

oh haha! i just looked out of my balcony and saw that the park's benches have been changed! haha they ought to have long long ago, now it looks so many times better! i loved cca today! :D though we got scolded again, but i strongly feel that we've all improved lots this hols ((: oh yah, had lunch with eunice at KAP. eek. macdonalds. no choice lah, eunice somehow forced me to eat there cos she wanted shaker fries. and we went early for cca to make stickers to stick on sweets for the cca orientations next year ((:

if anyone comes across and reads my post, please please check your email. THANKS. and hope to hear your reply, even if you can't go. ty! if not i'll feel so hurt, hahaha. jkjk (:

2007-12-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

SIGH. don't know why but i've not been feeling like blogging. haha(: not much has happened really, life's been slow, and really boring in a way. sometimes i really wish 2008 would come soon. i sort of want school to start, but thinking of all the tests and quizzes again, SIGH, how taxing.

Went to watch golden compass with jesslene, leting, sally and leting's friend chyi yan and leting's friend's friend victor. the show was... not sure. it would have been quite enjoyable if they hadn't given a hanging ending. pft.

today had cca. sigh,wouldn't be able to perform on the 31. and cos this item would be repeatedly used, i won't be able to participate in the sec one orientation dance. lol. whatever, i guess it's just fate. but i think my fate is really kinda weird. hahahaha. everytime i want to do something, it always clashes with something else, and then i have to forgo many many things. it's always like that. so this time isn't really anything, cos i'm sorta used to it already. anyway, many 'performances' are coming up which we have to prepare for. like the cca orientation day or whatever you call that, and there will be another performance on the 19dec which i think i'm going to support. haha. 10 sec three dancers would be dancing at raffles place. everyone got scolded by the dance instructor today again. sigh, but i guess what he says really do make a lot of sense. i guess the dance group really lacks warmth towards our instructor, or even between ourselves. it isn't THAT bad, but i guess there's lots to improve :D i guess my passion for nymd still needs to be enhanced somehow? ((: guess it really takes time (:

i think i'm having a party at my house on the 20th. i should invite the whole class right? through email? but it says on my cca list that i have cca. nvm i think i wouldn't have to go cos i'm not in the show (it's a public hol). but in any case, just IN CASE, i should make it an afternoon one. i think i should start sending emails now :D

okay. at least i kept my blog alive. tata :D

<33 shiyan <33

2007-12-06T15:32:00.000+08:00

hey peeps! i touched down at 12.30pm today and reached home at 2! :D let's see.. the trip was... quite fun :D hahaha. we all brought shorts and tee shirts and GUESS WHAT?! the temperature was like 14-20 degrees celcius. we were freezing like crap D: everyone told us it was super hot but when we reached there, don't know what happened but the weather probably changed it's mind or something. it mostly wavered around 15-17 degrees celcius D: FREEZING. and i brought such a thin jacket :/ Shall upload pictures when i get them :D oh btw, the sun rises at like 4 am and sets at 8.30pm at night. COOL huh, days are super long.

Day 1 [Thurs]: Vomitted three times that day D: was almost the WORST day of my life D: stupid airsickness and stuff. puked everything i tried to eat that day. PLUS fatigue totally caught me lifeless. D: very very bad day. thought that my whole holiday was going to be spent like that. Checked in to The Peninsular service appartment. was too early. anyway at night went to visit my mum's friend. BEAUTIFUL house but missed the BBQ! :'( pracitcally slept on their MASTER BED. D: they were very nice :D and uncle clifford used to be principal of some school. forgot what.

Day 2 [Fri]: WAS WELL! yay(: went to Fremantle :D Ate many fried stuff like fish and chips, seafood platter at cicerello's. haha(: SUPER oily. but not bad :D was finally able to eat something without throwing up :D then we went to the markets! where they sold nice and cheap stuff compared to their malls :D went to some market i don't know it's name and e-shed market. bought a nice cap for ten aussie $. Also bought soap made in shapes of cakes [very pretty] as gifts. ahha:D the exchange rate is 1.3 sing for 1 aussie D: very expensive. At e-shed, bought 12 kangaroo key chains for cca mates :D EXACT amount (: at night went to patronise this super nice Thai restaurant called thai corner where they served very tasty and kai1 wei4 food :D weather was ultra cold. brrrr.

Day 3 [Sat]: Drove for 4+ hours to margaret river. time inclusive of times when we got lost in the car. hahaha. funny. but anyway. our accomodation was BEAUTIFUL. large. designer's house. but it got quite spooky at night. there was this room with super scary chinese blood red bedsheets and lanterns. FREAKY. even my parents wouldn't choose to sleep in that room. so in the end, me my bro and sis slept on one queen size bed. LOL.we reached there quite late to basically we just went to see the shops around there and went to the super markets to buy food to cook dinner. :D ahaha. [this trip we spent many meals at home--home cooked! we all learnt a lot. hahahaha. we had to lay the tables, wash the dishes, dry them, and even help to cook] LOL. but got very xian.

Day 4 [Sun]: went to visit the Jewel cave. WOW. it was super super COOL. really beautiful i tell you. very dark inside but very very cool. i was like W.O.W it made me realise how vast the world was and how much i hadn't known and seen of it. it was really cool. i don't know what they're called but the nice icicle looking things were really mesmerising. they evened formed shapes of birds. and one, [spooky] that looked like a terracotta warrior. but it was beautiful. dumbfounding. awestrucking. wooow. the tour person told us that they found a dead tasmanian tiger [now extinct already] in the cave. cool huh. we went to visit the vineyards, spending like what 10min each, hhoho. it was supposed to be very nice. but my parents weren't wine lovers. and there were thousands of thousand of flies which kept landing on everyone part of your body. EVEN YOUR LIPS. GROSS. you couldn't even pause to take a picture cos the flies would start landing on your face. YUCK.

Day 5 [Mon]: Made another 4+ hour trip back to perth city. didn't really get lost this time though :D so we stayed at another service appartment [saville]. where we spent three nights :D the rest of the accomodations we spent 2 nights. so it was a walkable distance to the row of shopping malls. discovered a cheap stall, decided to come back next day to buy cos their shops close at like 5.3opm? [xian right]

Day 6 [Tues]: LOL. and guess what. we only patronised ONE stall. which sold many many nice and cheap clothes compared to spore which ACTUALLY HAD MY SIZE! HOHOHO. i swear i can't find anyway clothes in s'pore even if i shop for like 2 days straight. so i was super happy and i bought like soooo many clothes. my sister's worse lah. she totally tried everything her eyes set on cos she could wear every single thing. [of course-.-"] After spamming this shop called valley girl, we made our way to harbour town, wherer they sold all the cheap clothes cos they were factory outlets. :D hahaaha. the things were really cheap there. like 50% discount and stuff. there was esprit, nike, addidas, billabong,roxy etc. haha:D bought clothes here again! :D

Day 7 [Wed]: HAHA. this day was xian. cos there was already nothing left to do. we were saying this day is one day too many. should have cut our holiday short by one day. haha. so this day we decided to drive back to Fremantle where we ate cicerello's again (: took many pictures. :D then we didn't know what to do so we went back to harbour town again, LOL. bought a dress/top at esprit then made way back. ate dinner at the thai corner again! cos it was way too nice :D

Day 8 [Thurs]: LOL. sat the plane. xian. took motion sickness pills. was QUITE okay. but still felt like vomitting towards the end. didn't though. but still felt crappy. and here i am! :D replying the thousands of emails spammed by everyone. about class tee, om outing, psl camp etc. SIGH.

BACK TO REALITY THEN! <3shiyan