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Saturday, May 31, 2008


heys...

the same troubles have been troubling me again :( but oh wells i sorta psycho-ed myself to 'accept what i'm given and make the best out of it'! sometimes i'm really amazed by my ability to delude myself (:

anyway yesterday duty at SMBO finals was super funn. i zi highed the whole day! really! hahah with chermain and ashley, OBVIOUSLY! (: they're super funny. and of course jody my 'haha' senior. LOL. anyway. i had an awesome day being super happy with my two batchmates yesterday! AM HAPPPY THAT I ALWAYS GET HIGH WITH THEM (: hope this continues! so usher duty was thoroughly boring and tiring cos you just stand there doing nothing for an hour and a half. woah it's like 'self -amusement time!' i was thinking of HFOS II and the steps of tribal (: i love tribal <33 haha after everything i went for dinner with my dear sister chermain! hahah. we walked like super super super super long and i finally decided we should go to pizza hut! LOLs. you'll never expect HOW MUCH WE SPENT. when i saw the bill i was like :O :O :O :O :O :O but dear spendthrift chermain was okay with it 0.o haha. but yay at least i had an awesome dinner - spicy drumlets/crispy thin curry chicken reg pizza/meatball pasta- yep, only TWO people. and we ate like :O beside our table were three AV ppl who also went there to eat. bet they were staring at us likecrazy. hahah! so we were self amusing again! me and chermain zi highing. hahha (: it was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn :D THANKS CHERMAIN hahahaha. so after dinner chermain had bad stomache poor thingg! so she put me in the taxi with her and dropped me off at an MRT. haha! i took the mrt at 8pm. so dark and scary but oh wells :/ chermain was smsing me the whole way and we were zi highing about edward and jacob and the upcoming movie twilight. haha! so lame. yeah.. overall had an awesome friday!


失望,还存在吗?

Together. 11:08 AM


Thursday, May 29, 2008


HAHAHHAHAA. umm... malacca trip was... hahahhaa LOLNESS. it wasn't very very fun but still it was an awesome break from our hectic lifestyles here in singapore! (: oh and i've totally fallen in love with 203! wahaha. okay... let's see where do i start? first day?

26/6

ROAR. 203 had to split to THREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BUSES! two bad enough already right! sigh. nvm. so we didn't get to do what we planned to do, which includes singing on the bus and bonding like never before -.-". oh wells. we made up for it AT NIGHT though. lalalal xD okay so in the bus. i sat with retarded pau pau and aunty rachel. yes. RACHEL's AN AUNTY. and PAU PAU'S SPASTIC. hahahahahhahahhaa. we coped the back back seats. mari and ziwei sat in front to the left and siqi and yumin sat in front to the right. gong yuan and rie were stuck in the front. so sad! D: yea. there were nine of us in 202, 4 of us in 204, 6 of us in 205. sad! but ANYWAY. 202's a very very very nice class. just that i think we were being quite extra cos we made the most noise. -unexpected huh?- hahahahah. so paupau was playing with her mini tofu which i gladly snatched from her most of the time. and we were laming like idiotic people. it was so funny. hahhahahaa. and we listened to her mini creative mp3 together (which had VERY VERY VERY limited songs) hahahahaha. but i like the GET HIGH song! whoooooooopies! (: yea we just slept most of the time. and i had neck ache everytime. i'm amazed by my ability to sleep on buses! never thought i could. hahaha. yea so the 7 of us at the back were zi highing. yah. making the best out of the littlest things xD i feel soooooo bad for the rest though. :( and ahaah we went to see mini malaysia etc etc. took pictures! XD yea i think i went around with pau pau and mari. sheesh i think now i can't call PAULINE anymore. she's paupau to me permanantly! we reached Hotel City Bay View at 5 plus i think. WAHAHA. the hotel is okay lah (: acceptable. still enabled me to drooooool like a pig at night. hahaha. and when i wanted to boil the stupid water i knocked my head against the glass. ouch. and my tears just came out though i wasn't painful. urgh. HAHAHAHHAA. so we got influenced by LAME leting to NOT bathe first. aha.. we went to her room to play pig! me paupau le ting jesslene alicia ziwei and mari i think. unnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn (: we were zi highing like SIAO pls. made a LOT A LOT of noise. then we went for dinner. -and split up as usual- haha. but as i said 202 is nice! (: and after dinnerrrrrrrrr.... heh heh.. this comes the exciting part. xD BATHING. me and paupau are scaredy cats. so guessssssssssssss what happened. we uh hmmmm. bathed back to back. paupau you don't mind me saying this right. twalala. soooooooooooooo suppppppppppppeeeeeerrrrrrrrr funnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. omgosh it's amazing pls! she was passing me the shower thingy and i was like 'WHERE? WHERE?'" (what if i touched her butt seriously) LOLLLLLLLLL. anyway. i made a spastic joke out of her. and i shan't say it here. cos i feel like being nice (:

simpsons xD

Then went to siqi and yu min's room to party. we were unusually low hahaa. but we still played lame stuff AND GONG YUAN TOLD HER FREAKIN SCARY GHOST STORY. (i wasn't listening) haha . can't really remember haha (: and paupau is not-so-talkative at night. more like my mother, LIKE SALLY. i think people around me treat me as their child. hahaah. she lent me her tofu cos apparently my one pillow had stains .. EEE.

27/6

Set off with NYMD to Malacca girls high (: wahahhaa. it was funnnnnnn (: they were ultra super friendly! NYMD and NYCD opted for the cooking session and we made onde onde! and cut watermelons into nice and funny shapes! (: me and sophia's buddy was amira! nice and friendly girl i shall upload the pics soon. yea so we made onde onde it's really quite easy! (: xD i wanna make it. hehhhehe. and we cut watermelons into christmas trees! wahaha (: so after everything we exchanged contacts and stuff and nymd sat with a grp of malacca girls high students and chatted (: shanping and rosanne was super funny! esp. shan ping. LOLLLLL. then me and sophia chatted with amira and we found out a lot of things about malacca/malaysia and their educational system. woah they only have ONE 20min break and their school timings the same as us. or even longer. they also very stresss cos they're one of the cluster top schools. they are really nice people! REALLY REALLY NICE. ((: we then had buffet lunch. and i kept disturbing sylvia tang this trip. so funny. right. after lunch we went to jonker street, city malaysis and peranakan houses. my gosh peranakans are filthy rich! and i love their designs. sadly mari's hands were swollen for no reason. haiyo. accompanied her to the tap to wash even their taps had designs. woah. xD so i didn't buy much cos i thought there'll be no use. uhuh now it's another exciting part! whoopies. we were only given a 20min break to go back and freshen up before dinner. LOL. and i made le ting bathe so as to not waste the littlest time at night xD. yay we influence each other. yeps. and sooooooooo... and for me and paupau. we chiongggggggggggggged like never before. and leting and jesslene said they could here us. omgosh. hahahha. but it was super funny can. we chiong like mad pigs chiong chiong chiong, and when i came out. guesssss what. we only took like 7min. so we were down by 7.10 and leting and jesslene was already there. funny! and we were zi highing AGAIN. hahahahaha! DINNNER WAS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. nyonya! and i LOVED THE CHENDOL CHENDOL CHENDOL CHENDOL. wahahaha the fish and everything was damn good! and irritating paupau put all the eaten plates of chendol around me to take a picture to advertise for chendol. i took one picture with gee ling also! so sweet. i wonder if i spelled correctly. haha. <3 at night! we went to leting's jesslene's and alicia's room. most of us were there! and we played charades. super super funny! paupau was hilarious. and leting too. and ziwei made me and leting act 881 out.. hahahaa. i didn't even watch before pls. so le ting was telling me all the lame actions to make -.-" HAHAHAHA. and GUESS What zhao pai actions we did -.-" so sick pls. but as you know, BIMBO LE TING MAH. hahahahahah xD and we played till 12.15am haha. lights out supposed to be 11 i guess. I LOVE 203! (: zi wei is super funny also!

28/6 last day

AwWWWWW. it was the last day. said goodbye to our hotel rooms. sigh.. sad. nothing much happaned we visited more places like the spinning top one. oil palm, rubber tapping etc. i was unusually low -.-" raawr can't stnad myself. low for what lah. irritating me. haha. so i got really high when we got on the bus again. so lame. mustbe paupau stupidness. sigh... ahahha xD okay we were SERIOUSLY zi highing on the bus. zi wei mari rachel and us. so lame! was playing with tofu again. and paupau was seriously spas HA HA HA HA HA HA. HILARIOUS. wewere sleeping then there was this stupid spider that crawled on us. eee. we stopped at yong peng and i totally grabbed food to bring home. of course, not as much as pau pau haha. spent 49.90 RM which only means around $20. and i bought QUITE alot. haha. chiong chiong chiong. so the last 1h and 20 min back we ZI HIGHED ALLLLLLLLLL THE WAY. ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the way. REALLLLLLLLLLLY ZI HIGHed. paupau was moody and stoning suddenly. sadly D: but nonetheless me rachel mari and siqi zi highed like crazy. we started singing lao shu ai da mi cos obviously we couldn't as a class. and so we were like SUPER extra in the bus with 202. we sang lame stuff. and then we asked joy if she could make her class high and start singing with us. aiyo mian jun was being super nice and she tried to make her class sing. i think there was some singing. but awwww. they weren't as high as i thought they would be :'( soooooooo. we still decided to be EXTRA EXTRA. we carried on with our lame lousy singing and uh hmmm HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER but aunty rachel and mari. can't blame aunty rachel, aunties always speak just TOOOOOO LOUD. oh wells! hahahaha (: we zi highed till we reached NYGH. and that gave the malacca trip a wonderful ending. paupau was still quite stoning to the end. sigh. but anyway, i just wanna say,


THANK YOU 203, FOR ONCE AGAIN GIVING ME BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES! (:
THANK YOU....

PAU PAU, mari, zi wei, rachel, siqi, yumin, gong yuan, rie, le ting, jesslene, alicia, yi jia, jing yi, heng yeng, jo, jing ying, keyu and eva~!

I'LL LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER AND EVER! <333

Together. 8:46 AM


Sunday, May 25, 2008


okay. this is super lame lah. those idiotic people who tagged at my blog -.-" i didn't know boys could be so childish :/ sigh, what's the world becoming too? that's why i say all the presidents and high ranking people should be run by women. tsktsk. and yes it's nicholas and his nothing-better-to-do friends tag one. i feel stupid but i realise i don't know how to delete tags. or else i'm too lazy. nvm lah hor. everyone knows it's a prank. haha.

oh i spent my WHOLE day out yesterday. can you believe it. i'm going for a calligraphy competition later. super sian -.- first i went shopping with my sis only and bought clothes! then i came home bathe and went to my grandma's house to eat dinner. haha after eating dinner me my sis my bro and my foster sis went to video ezy to borrow a movie. and we watched it together at my grandma's house. i mean everybody including grandparents etc. MATILDA! matilda's nice nice nice! i read the book in p2 and fell in love with it ever since. <333 the movie twisted the story a little but it was still very exciting. hehehe (: had.. hmm a wonderful family day? i feel guilty. i wanna start on my homework!

OHOOHOHOHOHOH. i"M GOING TO MALACCA TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! i haven't packed! hahaha lallala. looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward looking forward. heheheh (: going to sit in the bus with mari and sleep with pauline! (: okay that sounds wrong. but whatever (: it's so lame. then it'll just mean i'm the room leader of pauline -.-" hahah anyway. so stupid why must they split us four into pairs. sigh...

sian sian sian i don't wanna go for the comp. it's from like what 9.45am to 1? :O both ying bi and shu fa. woah. in any case i won't win anything either -.- sigh

chiao!

p.s. haha people who have read the tag pls use your discerning mind to uh hmm. decide if it's true or if it's a prank. super lame.. -shakes head in disapproval-

Together. 7:27 AM


Friday, May 23, 2008


(: hi world! school hols officially starts today! i'm not exactly very happy don't know why. hmmmm. probably because i'll be having three days of cca per week during the hols which means less time to play :/ but i don't mind ((: i think our batch needs to improve. like terribly >.< we're not serious really. don't know why so many of them keep complaining. i mean since alr change then just get on with life lor. and it's so sad to hear that you will want to purposely not do well just to teach the school something. so sad... sigh, since it's our first and last SYF, (if we can get through auditions) why not we just do well? isn't it for us? not for the school? so what if we prove the school wrong? we'll not be happy. sigh. sudden mood swing. was super ultra high just now! ((: nvm let's get back the high mood

HAHHAHAHAHA. i haven't bathed. went out on a date with sallly tan si qian the lesbian xD hahha watched Accuracy of Death (: it's hmmmmm... not exactly very very captivating but after it ends, it really really makes you ponder A LOT. and thats another elements which would make a movie good (: it's just like TKAM, haha not interesting but meaningful--which makes it nice-- haha so after the movie me and sally ate some tom yam soup thing. we were damn full can just ate for the sick of eating. hahah shan't talk about the embarrassing 'school skirt-as-tissue' thing. LOLLLL. hahha i think today sort of made back the '_____' we used to have, but to me it all hasn't totally come back :/ hahaha we should go out together more! and i'm NOT a lesbian. strangely and very oddly, sigh, i think there's still this ________. weird weird weird.

i guess things can't always be smooth for you, always filled with disappointments, competitions, exasperation etc. but that's life isn't it? like what the movie keeps reiterating " Life is just like the sun--so ordinary, yet so important"

And from what i learnt: A good _______ always motivates others to be one herself. (: xD i shall just accept what i'm given.. and who knows? it'll probably be a blessing in disguise xD


i hope so =X

Together. 8:52 PM


Tuesday, May 20, 2008


JIAYOU MUM! (: i'm sure you can ride through this mid life crisis smoothly eh? (: we'll always be there for you <33

____________________________

haha sally tan! lolness >.< yea it was great at K.A.P. YUCK :o i hate macs

Together. 8:59 PM



wah officially wasted time again slacking :O okay i'm supposed to slack. right? good. but tis is so weird. i know i have something impt to do but i just cant remember! anyone care to remind me? hmmm. just read huihan's blog... yep the victims of the Si Chuan earthquake are way way way tooo poor thing. i almost cried when i saw the news of this boy--when asked where his mother was--- said "我妈妈死了”. and guess what.. he's only three. three. and he already knows his mother is dead. he isn't crying. and i feel so much like crying for him. me and jo actually thought of initiating a project to raise funds for these victims. but like what mdm chew said today, there were many other who also did and we are having another round of fund raising. really really hope that china would reflect on their one child policy. it's like :O the entire generation is G.O.N.E parents grieving for the lost of their only child. ONLY child. oh and there was this man who told the reporters (when still buried under debris) that he was going to survive no matter what, for his love ones, for his family. yes, they removed the block of concrete off his body and he died in the process. well, the rescue workers cried. man, it's so sad, i bet he was trying real real hard to keep himself awake.

so let's count our blessings people! i really should consider to stop procrastinating and complaining and really treasure the people around me. so what 's so great about just putting your mind on achieving good grades and not caring for the people around you? i should really really change my attitude. i'll try, i promise xD promise promise promise.

生命的脆弱--
天灾人祸,到底是谁的错呢?

Together. 6:25 PM


Sunday, May 18, 2008


Yesterday's open house was kinda crazy. did morning and afternoon shift D: was like super ultra super tired by the time i reached home. guess what lah so embarrassing i was sleeping on the bus with my mouth WIDE open! and the worse thing was when i turned around to alight i saw zheng lao shi :O :O :O :O :O well she looked equally shocked to see me as i was to see her. hahahah. but i was nice and waved her a goodbye after i alighted. LOL. Anyway, sigh, i feel so sad for my seniors :'( stupid lah. it's their last open house and yet they couldn't show their full potential cos of uh hmm. some restrictions. and it was so humiliating --to me. aiyo i feel soooooo bad towards mabel :'( SHEESH. i should have gone right. but someone must empathise with me! at that split second moment you're super torn and stress. cos for one thing. you're in your full hong zi and you haven't stretched. but then again you wanted to go down. but you were afraid of forgetting the steps. -.-" was at a state of mental turmoil haiyo. sorry my dear senior! wished i'd gone while they were doing the dance. haiyo. sigh sorry sorry sorry D: must ti liang yi xia. oh well. hope our image wasn't screwed.


I'VE BEEN SLACKING! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARSSSSSSS. woah i'm really like wasting all the time on earth, slack slack slack slack slack slack slack! going for some PSG thing later. ahahaha jing ying would be there too! ((: yays. oh maybe we'll go for karaoke tonight or tomorrow night. hmm. i'm not sure xD


Together. 12:34 PM


Thursday, May 15, 2008


Decided to post to mark the "sort of" end of semester one. TIME FLIES, doesn't it? Half a year more to go only :'( i'll miss 203 like crazzzzzzzzy!

was the last day with ms tan. she's a really great teacher ya know, i think i'll miss her efforts put into lessons etc.? yeah ((: THANKYOUMISSTAN, YOU'VEBEENAGREATEACHER! no idea why i didn't space that!

was the last music lesson, but i think it ended the module beautifully ((: i think singing is a very nice thing--just that i can't really uhmmm. sing.

today also marks the last day of my table partner relationship with leting and alicia! so sad lahhhh :'( i want to sit with them again but.. yeah. you know. hahah ((: BUT REALLY...

to Le Ting: THANK YOU LOADS AND BUCKETS LOADS MY DEAR. i wouldn't have gotten through that period without you, really <3 i'll be in a state of confusion every night. but subconsiously my mind just tells me: you'll just decided tomorrow after talking to Le Ting again. :D i'll miss you my bessttt confidante! (((: reallly. and JIAYOU for your concert tomorrow! i mean, really, GO FOR IT NYC! you'll never know how beautiful tomorrow night will be. the vivid memories that will be edged in your mind forever! ((: [ohmygosh leting you must have preached tooooomuch about choir to me.] HAHAHHA. anyway, yep thanks a mill' my friend! <333 I LOVE YOU!

to Alicia: I've never got to know you so well, how you can actually seriously sleep in class and laugh hysterically with me during that particular geog lesson! you don't know it, but you've been giving me moral support as well! especially through that period where you comforted me (as i felt) through indirect means ((; <333 I LOVE YOU!

sometimes, just knowing that someone knows how you're feeling, lessens 80% of the burden.


man, i'll really, really,really miss 203! it's like WOW. i've officially stored half a year's of memories with this special class in my heart <33 i'll officially like to say a BIG THANK YOU TO ALLL MY FRIENDS. for being there for me. for putting up with my mood swings

and i'll also like to say SORRY to my family :'( i know i've been VERY inco operative. but give me time! i'm trying to improve! ((: slowly, i'm sure i can do it ((:


Let's put aside the unhappy memories and embrace the coming future! most imptly, SHIYAN! BE YOURSELF! stay truthful to yourself!

Together. 9:09 PM


Wednesday, May 14, 2008


WOW i haven't blogged in ages! hohhoho. okay. i don't feel like being emo for today, so i shall be happy! was talking to mari on the bus and i found out LOADS about her xD HAHAHHAHA :D <3 mari! and i was darn frank with her about my life too. it just came out like so directly. i didn't need to think of how i could conceal some of my pride or something. GOSH. :D i like talking to mari! seriously, i've never been soooo frank with someone. :D tomorrow's sort of the last day of the term! super sad D: I LOVE LE TING AND ALICIA! though i know we can always choose to sit with each other again but i like to change seating partners! haha i think maybe i'll like to sit with pauline ^^ wahahah :D oh wells i shan't waste time anymore.

sometimes, it's the jealousy that kills the friendship
it first started one way
and then worsened in another
is there no turning back
i wonder



i'm so NOT looking forward to sabbats! oh sheeeesh! i haven't borrowed blue jacket! dang dang.

<3 shiyan!

Together. 5:32 PM


Wednesday, May 7, 2008


somehow, somehow, this year's been a real flop for me? i really, umm, really... sigh. i really think the life i had last year raised my standards for this year even higher. and obviously, it failed? i feel super messed up, and... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

somehow i really like to question, is the world just about results? why does being smart give you an edge over other things? i love 203, and it's been a really STUNNING experience having such wonderful friends, but somehow i think my confidence level has dropped to almost zero in 203; yep, the only bad thing. bit by bit, my self esteem wavers, and sometimes i feel that it had really flown off. **POOF** why am i in a world with so much competition? maybe it's just myself really, but.. i don't know... maybe im just going through this REALLY confused period of my life. this really really mind boggling period, where i think and think, and sometimes just think too much. nowadays i ask myself what i'm good at, and when i pause to think, no answer comes to my mind. i no longer have an edge. not in terms of other things, but yes, subjects. my grades are PLUMMENTING. down, down down it goes! haha, sometimes i really used "busy" as a self consolation. with the prep of hatful of stars during the mar hols which totally messed my whole schedule up, OM singapore, with getting used to two ccas, psl stuff, with coping with the heaps and heaps of proj work and assignments. juggling, juggling, and when you come to a point where you can't even say you're studying, cos in actual fact, you're just completing your assignments and meeting for projects and completing proposals and grasping every single sec and minute to prevent your pupils from sinking into your sockets. SIGH! i wonder where my life has gone. and sometimes i tell myself to just throw everything aside and HAVE A LIFE! but when i really want to do so, i feel so guilty. how can i not use my time wisely, to catch up?

but yes, on the contrary, i know i don't wanna be too free. this year has been... not an awakening year like last year, but i year iguess, of more maturing? experiences, that's what i'm going through. experiencing failures, disappointments in work and ________________________. probably this year of 2008 is just for teaching me how to cope with the 'downs', to learn to not hope for too much, to learn to accept what i have.

was in the bus just now, at the bus stop, was staring into space day dreaming, thinking. nearly missed my bus twice. haha. and when i was in deep thought in the bus. i saw this man staring and me with this really 'se' look. he was smiling like he was crazy. showing his black crooked teeth. smilling to me, or himself? it then hit me suddenly how lucky i am to be able to think straight, have friends, have a family, and have a roof over my head. HAHA as i said, more of a 'philosophical' year.


so face it shiyan!
you'd just have to try harder. <3



here comes tuition! --- prob the only thing that made me exceed my own expectations in '06.

Together. 6:32 PM


Monday, May 5, 2008


i'm determined to do better... i'm being doing SO CRAPPY for chinese you have NO IDEA. feel super zi bei -.-" my doing badly is comparing to my own standards for myself yeah, so don't get offended who ever out there who reads my blog. i shall officially try to keep my blog alive! wait wait i must write down my resolutions first... >.<

Put more effort into my chinese
get chinese tuition
put more effort into quizzes and assignments >.< and worksheets
make time to study hard for tests!
stop getting one of the lowest in class for assignments and projects and sias.


haha i sound like an official kiasu person. but fret not people. i'm REALLY, REALLY, NOT doing well. >.<"

i must must must must must must must must must get chinese tuition.

Together. 8:34 PM


Sunday, May 4, 2008


rawr. can't stand it already! CHINESE PORTFOLIO =.= EXPOSITION =.=

i really wanna do well for the exposition cos obviously i've not been doing well for almost everything but i don't know how! i'm not sure if i did my exposition correctly in the first place -.- roar. and chinese portfolio!!! ahhh the thought of just typing CHINESE is killing me! >>.<< fine i shall go back and attack my exposition. mm. but it's quite difficult once you have already written. oh shit i forgot. MATH SIA -.-" die. so many things to do. PHYSICS sia -.- -.- -.- -.- don't care lah. BUT CANNOT DON"T CARE! rawr. forget it lets talk about happy stuff


NAPFA IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay ((: it was over two days ago and i'm still aching like crap. anyway. hahahhaha! i jumped 195cm for standing broad jump! heh heh i ran 10.8s for shuttle run. and did 24 inclines! i did 40 sit ups. sigh could have done more if not for the time limit lol. let's not talk about sit and reach. i always do the worse for that, ironically.

i shall attack exposition again.
ATTTTTTTAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.


aza aza fighting!

Together. 12:42 PM


Thursday, May 1, 2008


IT'S MAY DAY! :D AKA LABOUR DAY. this is so funny... mayday is ending in 12min time! haa i just finished my third portfolio. chionged two today. emmm QUITE an acccomplishment i guess? i haven't revised for malay quiz but, oh well, WHO CARES? hahahah :D this is my first happy post in AGES! :D HAD A WONDERFUL DINNER WITH MY FAMILY AND AUNTY AND JUMBO @ DEMSEY. i love the crabs AND PRAWNS! wahaha, it felt super londonish at the ben and jerrys there! it's super cool! :D i felt like i was on a 3h long holiday break. :D woots! ^^ spent quite long finishing the design for the MD badge as a gift to seniors. wahah :) tried so many times and finally the LAST one was the BEST. so i completed six hand drawn ones in like an hour? quite long but yeah, it's accomplishment! :D ummm. what else did i do? can't remember. i just know that i have typed i most chinese i did in AGES. and knowing my chinese standard and my ability to express, it's really QUITE an accomplishment to have managed to type at least 6 pages of analysis :D i'm easily contented with chinese. oh and i wanna get tuition for chinese! anyone interested to come join me? :D i don't think anyone in 203 would need it but, oh well? haha all my close friends are PRO in chinese.. so.. WHAHA :D i'm super high! wahaha. :D

it's class breakfast tomorrow!

and i'm really nervous about THAT too. but, shan't think much about it! :D i'll just try my bestest, i promise >.<

<3 shiyan!

now i hope people would start daring to tag! :D

TAGTAG TAG i'm not killing myself ! wahahaha

Together. 11:48 PM



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