well the outcome is what i've expected. but somehow i don't seem to see why. and how. but thanks ____ for saying that you'd be behind me all the way.. it's so different coming from an adult. thanks also Le Ting and Alicia (: you're great desk partners. fine i shall admit i'm disappointed. and it hurts even more now. somehow i wish i never knew. but i knew i'd regret if i didn't. finally let some tears go during chinese supp class. couldn't help it. too much to bear you can say. it's so difficult to keep it to yourself. i don't know who to talk to. i need you confidante. i know you'd understand. but talking wouldn't be of any help to the situation. and i've got to make a decision soon. if i was never in this situation i would never opt to do so. but now.. i'm torn. it seems... overestimating myself to do so. but i'll regret it if i don't.
it's so confusing. i expected and yet at the same time never expected this to be the reason. is it just fate, or an indication to me to buck up, to force me out of my quiet self during class? i didn't meet it. but many others did. why. have been asking myself that in ages. why why why? guess i'd never know, i'm too afraid to know.
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