HAVE NOT BEEN BLOGGING IN what seems like ETERNITY! wakakakaka. anyway guess what i've been doing to keep me away from the com? READING ECLIPSE! wahahahah i love elipse. but i'm trying to go as SLOW AS I CAN so that it doesn't end so soon. and and and i guess i'll feel SUPER duper empty without any books of stephanie meyer. but i went to the library so i have four more books. PLUS i haven't finished the algebra. HAIZ i'm just addicted to twilight, new moon abnd eclipse! i'll re-read them again and again and again! WAHAHAHA. hmmm. what to say? oh so today went out with pauline and huihan to shop for FPS present for dear FPS member Yan Ni! LOL sally couldn't come cos of very very very irritating cca commitments. SO SAD :'( anyway after we bought materials we went to huihan's house to make them! WAKAKAKA in case yan ni comes to visit, i shan't say what it is! hohoho but lol we left PAYAR LEBAR at 5.55! and like i reached home at 7. tsktsk. we got very xian and huihan's house after a while cos the thing weren't working too well. GAH, anyway. OH OH OH! LOOLLLLL you wouldn't have guessed this but we ate lunch at MOS burger and GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! Diya and her grp of 'friends' sat at the table next to ours! and diya and her another girl friend talked to us! lool they said ' can you guys help to look after our things?' WAHH! jue2 dui4 superstar you know! LOL but no big deal lah, she not hong2 anymore. heheh. but we were suaning sally through smses after that. LALALAA. so fun. we kept laughing during lunch. huihan lah, banana lah, monkey lah, haiz. sorry i must be talking alien. :D just now had OM discussion online. hehehe. i'm aching all over! even jaslyn seah--who hardly gets muscle ache-- is struggling to lift her arm cos of stupid muscle aches! BUT no wonder lah, we were doing like what? 100 crunches! incase you didn't know, it's ten times worse than sit ups which trains your stomach muscle too. GAH, stupid crunches!

<3 shiyan

Together. 10:24 PM

My first academic year in nanyang has just ended.
BYE 103. :'(

i've grown so attached to the class, it being at the top floor and everything. i love our class (: feels so at home <333 i think we have really REALLY grown so much closer. i can remember the first day of school when i saw my classmates, one of the first thoughts that ran through my mind was ' i can't believe we'd be close friends one day'. and yes the impossibles do happen. ALL THE TIME. it's not like as if we'll not be seeing each other anymore, it's just well, it's like we're saying bye cos we're leaving 103'07. yes and today at 12.30 when miss foo stood up and said ' this is probably the last time i'm seeing you all, i'll most probably not be your form teacher next year' it suddenly hit me SO HARD, so REALLY hard that it was really the last time we would be seeing miss foo as our teacher, our form teacher. and she's nice lah, she's really nice. i felt so sad when she said everything so touching to us, like how she felt so proud that we're slowly growing closer and communicating with one another. it's sad. then we did three cheers for her, and she did three cheers for us all :'( i really swear i didn't realise how true this whole thing was. i've been living in a total blur cos of choral night, not taking note of time and everything. haven't gotten a chance to thank Mdm Lee especially, and kind Zhong lao shi. then we had the level closure. we sat through all the classes' monatages and speeches. we really DID go through a lot a lot. (: i think 1/2 and 1/3 are the most zheng4 jing3 classes. no super disgusting poses and everything. LOL. but the montages done by every class were superb! and many many thanks to jesslene for doing up OUR class montage. so sweet.. the pictures... (:

Frankly, since the start of the year, i've been asking myself repeatedly whether i had made the right decision of coming to nanyang. And i realise recently that the answer is a clear 'yes' (: i guess time really does do many wonders. we all need time to adapt, to fit in, to grow closer to each other and learn to appreciate each other (: i can't deny nanyang's a really competitive school, at least 1/3 is, but well, healthy competitions are good. We received the report books today. GAH. what a disappointment! i could have done soooo much better. guess my EOYs pulled everything down. but anyway, i shan't wallow about that. i've come to realise that results really aren't that impt. when you go into the real world to look for jobs, they don't only look at your results. even though you are a straight Ace person, but you are a total geek or nerd or self centred person, it can't get you anywhere either. but then again, well you can't neglect your studies either. SO BOTTOM LINE: Keep a healthy balance in both your academics and self-development. LOOOOOL i love crapping. self consolation, and gets me in high spirits. wahahahahaa.

103'07! way to go!

As Le Ting said before 'At least we have something to remember 103'07 for'. and yes, we certainly do :DDDDD

Together. 6:05 PM

---- Time has taken a leap, and flew past me ----

okay that may be grammatically wrong but yea, something like that. my year 2007 academic life has just flown past me. Looking back, i think that i have SERIOUSLY matured a LOT. LOOL. but it's true, so many things have happened really. i can still remember the first day of school, my exact feelings and everything. WOW it's all gushing back, the memories, orientation, life skills camp! , talent time, youthday funfair, TEACHERS DAY!, choral night (in process) and many many more i can't name it now! REALLY, it's been such a horribly wonderful year! (oxymoron) LOOL. yes and our class (103) has certainly come a LONG LONG way. it has seriously, in my eyes, bonded as we went through many major projects together. (: the teachers day performance was such an impact. we cried. we cried not as one but as whole. i don't mean everyone cried but at least me and leting weren't the only ones crying. "through sweat and tears, we, have bonded". it's gonna be the level closure tomorrow, the speech, montage and everything. WOW. it's soo, so fast. the days and events have just ZOOMED past. it's crazy. how i've grown so close to people( strangers) whom i never knew nor met in my entire life.

i guess my FPS grp has left the greatest impact on me as the 'best' project grp i've ever worked with. SALLY PAULINE HUIHAN YANNI!!! 我永远都爱着你们！haha though we'd still be working together next year for OM. (: it's going to be more interesting! HAHA. there are some pple that i've never expected myself to be 'close' to in a certain way. XINTONG! <333 HUIHAN! <333 LETING! <333 JASLYN! <333 there are tons more people i'm close to, but these are the people i'd never dream, as the first impression they had given me on the first day of school, that i'll be close to. man, i'm overwhelmed with emotions now :') today at East Coast Park we were playing Whacko. haha we got miss foo to join it lah! it was SOOOO SUPER FUNNY! VERYVERYVERY FUNNY! before that were were picking litter from the littered river and got ourselves sooo sandy and dirty. but i can't deny that i had LOTS OF FUN!! leting is super funny! (: TEEHEEEE. whacko was super fun we were all laughing hysterically most of the time. leting and sally lah, blur sotongs! ESPECIALLY SALLY! she was SUPER ULTRA DUPER funny today! lol! i think miss foo had a great time too, she must have been glad that 103 is finally sort of 'close'. especially xintong, i bet she gave miss foo a HEART ATTACK when she screamed so SUPER LOUDLY INTO MY EARS AND EARS OF MANY OTHERS. LOL! xintong is really damn funny lah, seriously, i really don't know how a pig can go so high, i'm a mosquito, and i realise, xintong, that i hate my species. LOL!

I HAVE BEEN MOSQUITO INFECTED FOR TWO NIGHTS STRAIGHT. >:(


hehe so i shall do a list of how i feel about 103 pple, down the index no., if i can remember =X

1) Jing Yi -- starting to get accepted by most (:
2) Marilyn -- MARI! i love you mari! term four preparation of eoy seat partner! (:
3) Yi Jia -- HAHA! she's super funny! and opening up! (:
4) Joanna/ Meng hao -- nice nice nice name! remember for her superb grasp for the french language! pro at compo writing, a super funny and lame person too!
5) Gong Yuan -- really weird laughter, when she starts laughing, she can't stop. is REALLY crazy about hamsters, no doubt about that! (: nice and responsible person, HELPFUL! i like her name too!
6) Josephine -- wakakaka, joseph! very matured person, in a way. great leader, frequent sms-er to me (: <3333 close on most occasions! (: Lead talent time!
7) Keyu -- four words to describe ' always telling lame jokes' yea. she's super wei da! i realised recently! and yes she is very very very lame. always ALWAYS telling super super SUPER lame jokes to cheer pple up, or for own entertainment maybe? HAHA :D
8) Eva/yuet man -- LOL! she ahh, she can be very very nice at times, but also very very lame and buggy at times. most of the time nice lah of course! (: SAT WITH ME FOR 3 TERMS. YOU CAN SAY I KNOW HER INSIDE OUT.
9) THAT'S ME! (shan't be ego and praise myself :D )
10) Jesslene -- MY THOUSAND YEAR OLD FRIEND! we've been classmates since p3. and we ARE still classmates! know her too long already, nothing much to say, just that she is a wonderful person too!!! (:
11) Xintong -- PIG! PIG PIG PIG!! hahahah i love to dig at Xintong!Buzz you lah. (: hahahaha she is very very very very funny. OH, she screams super high-pitched-ly and laughs super funnily.OH OH! she can write super fast. AND she has EXTREME MOOD SWINGS. she can be really high at school and when i come online at night, she would be so 'low' and freuently asks me to play lame msn games like reversi uno and minesweeper flags with her. she's evil lah, cos she knows she can only win me with these games. TSK you pig. buzz you
12) Sheena -- very very funny when she wants to! HAHAAA. lantern making! LOL with fajar! we won a prize lah!
13) Yu Min -- SUper funny too! can be really talkative when you really talk to her! tells me she doesn't talk much in class cos her P1 or 3 teacher told them that it's rude to talk in class, so since then, she doesn't talk in class. LOL!
14) Si Qi -- WAHAHA, have been working closely with her for the choral night thing. overall, i must say she is SUPER ARTISTIC, SUPER DILIGENT, SUPER SERIOUS when it comes down to work, SUPER FUNNY. lool! was asking her in the toilet today if she was noisy in school last time. her reply was she has always been quiet. LOOLL. but she's really nice (; that was random :X
15) Rie -- she's very very very funny too! and very very very very very optimistic
16) Sally -- AHH! sally! LOOOL. record for talking on the phone --> 1h 50min. HOHOHO. that was cool lah. great friend. considered closest bah! (: ooh she LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY. very very weird with laughter. it's contagious by the way! ohhh and she is very very very naggy too! can pass off as a mum really! FPS MEMBER! <333 woots!
17) Jaslyn -- LOL smart. very funny too! always feeling sleepy lah, but a very good dancer! CCA MATE ALL THE WAY!
18) Stephanie -- ohhhh she is a very nice friend! very helpful. very willing to help!
19) Huihan -- FELLOW MONKEY! kkkeeellloooo kkkooonnnkkkeeeyyyy!! kkkooooowwww kkkaaahhh kkkkuuuu? LOOL! during EOY period we smsed each other like that and -not surprisingly- we understood each other's monkey language. huihan you get it? fellow monkey? she is very very very funny. sat with her in term two, MY MOST ENJOYABLE TERM! it was very funny cos it was only the two of us so during that period we grew quite 'close' in a certain way(: we laughed pratically everyday! FPS MEMBER! <333 woots!
20) Rachel -- our assistant monitress. very helpful, loud! hahahaa (;
21) Pauline -- ooh you can't get away with her not laughing for at least 10 times a day. great combination when it comes to her and sally. FUNNY!laugh laugh laugh! LOOOOOOL. FPS MEMBER! <333 woots!
22) Yan Ni -- Edward handwriting crazy. very very very funny and lame! waves very very enthusiastically when she sees people she feels like waving to! HAHAHA. FPS MEMBER! <333 woots!
23) Victoria -- LOL. she's very funny too! blur as some pple say. ahhahaa. she's very nice (:
24) Zhi Yun -- boy she's funny! has great potential to laugh like crazy. very very very funny too!
25) Zi Wei -- SISTAH! awwwww, sat with her in term three. hahaaa became 'class sisters'. so sweet. pro netballer, goes around snapping pictures for class montage. very very funny! started the twilight trend!
26) Wang Qing -- class monitress. WAH, she's very funny too! was crazy during whacko today!
27) Le Ting -- leting!!!!!!!! Teacher's day!! wahhh we went through sooo much remember? don't think we'll ever forget the letter B and H plus together. leting is very very funny. she screams like ANYTHING. but she's very very very nice, has a perfect voice! great thinker, great friend!
28) Heng Yeng -- WOW. laughs like crazy too! main trait-- her laughter!
29) Alicia -- hheeehee alicia! very very nice person. SUper kind at heart. very nice! she's really funny and enthu too!
30) Jing Ying -- oooooohhh she's adorable! lloool though i don't find her REALLY REALLY cute, but she's cute anyway! her plaits last time and everything!

WOW! after all this i realise how many funny pple we have in one three. okay, spent an hour or so already! TATA!

103 RULES

Together. 9:20 PM

I FEEL EVILLLL~~~~~

now everyone is so frustrated over OM. gosh. and we're the only grp that is happy. and frankly, if our grp splits, most of the grps would be happier. BUT HAIZ! cannot also lahhhhh........ it's so sad that when all this grping thing comes in, we start to hear all the flaws of pple. why some just refuse to grp with the other, blah blah. HAIYO!!!! i feel so frustrated for them. my FPS grp also was very fan before deciding FINALLY today, cos there were also many pple who asked to join our grp. we had a HARD time deciding. HARD HARD HARD. and we all had to be so EVVVIIILLLL. i think sally was kinda evil today. she made it so obvious. and sometimes, it's really REALLY just the acceptance. we can't get everything for ourselves good and make others suffer. I WAS THE POLITICIAN! LOOOL and Leting was my 'mu4 hou4 ren2' advising me. so now, my OM grp consists of FPS grp ( Sally Pauline Hui Han Yan Ni ) + alicia and heng yeng. i'm quite pleased :D at least we don't have to fan like the other grps :/ BUTBUT. this is being mean!!!!!!! :'( everyone is hurting each other... this is so, so, SO politically WRONG. Dx

GAHGAHGAH and worse still, IS IT JUST FATED FOR ME JUST NOT BEING ABLE TO ENJOY WHAT I WANT TO DO??????????????????? the PSL camp HAS and MUST PURPOSELY be from the third to fifth DEC! and WTH. i'm OVERSEAS. O-V-E-R-S-E-A-S. this is just HORRID. HORRID HORRID HORRID. it's gonna be fun lah, and i'm going to MISS A LOT, we have to go through MANY MANY courses. HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess as josephine says, it's just tian yi. IT'S all FATED.

i hate dilemmas. i think everyone is facing one right now :(

Together. 4:53 PM

AWWW. i'm so touched by dear Xintong--> aka pig. (: SOOOOO SWEET! UH HUH. and yes i love 103 lots and lots and buckets of love more than anything after the exams. i think EVERYONE has REALLY opened up. at least to me (: HEH Yijia, SIQI!, Yumin and jing yi. i mean okay, jing yi is starting to get accepted by most of us. i mean maybe most don't realise it but it's true. i realise, JUST realised that Siqi is very very very very very very nice (: YAY! (: AHAHAHA. and yumin and yijia are REALLY really really really FUNNY (: WOOTS! we ARE really all opening up to each other now (: yay! yay! alicia too! HOHOHOHO. i'm so happy. we've still got another year (: then we'll have to part :( ahahaa and FINALLY dear XINTONG is opening up to the class(: LALALALALA. i'm so happy. FINALLY. YAY(: problem solved! i think we can work much better as a class now. <3333333

well, i guess it's really the choral night that pulled us together. really. it's been REALLY stressful, after today, it's EVEN MORE stressful, but i guess there are benefits ya. though we put in so muh DAMN effort, the TEACHER just refuses to accept our BEAUTIFUL house. HEY LIKE HELLO? knock knock. we go home everyday at 6.30pm, skip out two recessess and spent like over $60 on the materials! WTH. and not like it's so ugly. EVERYONE even from other classes think it's nice. only SHE doesn't think so. whats her FREAKIN problem LAH. and she gave us such a BORING BORING script known as mai huo chai de xiao nv hai. HOW INTERESTING... -.- GAH. we put in SOOOOO much and there she tells us right SMACK in the face that it's UGLY. hello? does she even have eyes? well i was staring at her with a pissed look and i could tell she didn't dare look at me in the eye. whatever lah. and she made poor siqi cry! @#$##%@#@! siqi spent so much time and effort on this whole project and there the teacher tells all of us that she doesn't want the house to be included. i don't care lah, what's her problem. we put in so freaking much must use lah. >:( IRRITATING. BH no.2. HAIZ. nvm. i get SUPER vulgar when i'm angry so i was swearing in the class. HAIz... shiyan ahh what happen to you?

我们的错都是大人的错 --> jimmy rocks lah! (:

Anyway sad and gloomy things aside, JIAJIA IS COMING TO STAY OVER NIGHT AT MY HOUSE! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! this is SOOOOOOOOOO exciting! LALALAA. staying over leh!! WAHWAHWAH. we were planning to go ice skating, bowling, window shopping, take neoprints, etc etc. and so happen that my bro's friends are staying over at that same night. AWWWW. wasted. but at least we've got BBQ to steal! LALAA. i love BBQs. they're FUNNNNN! OHOH and we'll stay up all night and do lame stuff. AHAHAAHA. jiajia always get me so high when i'm low. LOL. "A happy person radiates happiness to others around them"

how true =)

Together. 9:14 PM

I'm troubled.
I hate being troubled.
Why am i troubled?
What do i do when i'm troubled?
I talk.
But who?
Don't know.
Someone encouraging i guess.
As the saying always goes " a happy person radiates happiness to the people around them" ( Just like Jacob Black to Bella in New Moon. Haven't reached the part when i'm 'supposed' to resent him. he seems nice now, at least filling up the deep hole created by Edward)
Now?
What do i do when i'm troubled?
I call someone.
And talk.
Yea.
I get comfort through encouragement.
Or maybe i just binge.
No.
Binging only comes when i'm depressed.
Now i'm troubled.
That's different.
Anw i'm not even supposed to be troubled.
It's such a small thing to make someone troubled.
But i get troubled easily.
Yuh.
Especially when it comes down to this kind if situation.
LOL.
I'm weird.



Haven't blogged or even touch the computer in ages AGES. Why? Choral and Drama Night. i've been reaching home at 7, 7.30, or 8pm for the past few days. i'm so tired. but i can't complain. Siqi's even more tired lah but i can't understand why everything has to be so perfect. haha, guess it just isn't me. I feel so guilty that Jesslene and Siqi are redoing the stuff together at Siqi's house. HAIYO. they would be redoing it, which = to : Most of our effort would be gone to waste yesterday. i mean yes, it didn't turn out too well but it isn't half as bad as i see it. Guess i'm just not a pefectionist (Well, i can be at times (= ). But i feel bad not doing anything. while they're doing something. But Bishan's too far away and Siqi said that i needn't come. Lol probably because i may be more of a nuisance than any help. not as artistic as them you see (: But i guess i tried my best lah hor. i spent every single time i have free ( very little) thinking about how to do the things properly. and i did try my best but maybe what i see as nice may not be what they see it as. And i am under tremendous stress by the teacher. She is always so negative. everything positive she says, she has to give a negative statement. yea, and knowing me, i like to stress over the statements she says. i keep worrying that after all the effort that we put in, they wouldn't even accept our prop. well if she doesn't or any other teachers don't, i think we'll all just break down and cry.

Yesterday i came to school at 8.11am (left at 6.20pm) and brought stuff to the class. ( yes we stole the key home) i had cca from 9 to 11.15 and when i went back up Josephine Jesslene Siqi Jingyi we already there. hope i didn't miss out anyone =X the rest came soon after. not all lah, but at least most turned up (: UH HUH. and guess the worst thing to happen. we were supposed to finish up the house by yesterday but we got chased out of the class. by who? Uncle Jack. i mean he's doing his job lah, but GAH. this is what i'm troubled about. i'm scared that he tells Dai lao shi and then she'll tell miss foo. then we''ll get scolded or probably given demerit points. See? it's illegal to bring the key home. and we're not supposed to be in the class on Sat. BUT DO YOU THINK WE HAD A CHOICE? our props are 2m x 1.8m do you think it's so easy to do it somewhere else? but i'm really worried that he'll be a tattletale. GOSH and then we're dead. we'll get poor Wang Qing into trouble when it isn't even her fault :( AND WORST OF ALL. I HELD ON TO THE KEY cos i'll be able to reach school earliest(sheena came earlier though). josephine stole it on thursday cos we had to do up the house also and we reached school at like what? 6.30. see the amount of effort we are putting in? IT"S CRAZY. and i think we're crazy. it's not like we are planning in the class of ways to tear down the school. and obviously we weren't stealing anything. IT"S OUR CLASS -.-" and steal what? we had no choice at all okay. and we weren't even doing something NOT related to school stuff. We were doing PROPS for CHORAL AND DRAMA NIGHT. i don't even think anyone else in the level is putting in as much effort as us. and me and siqi have been worrying ourselves like crazy over these few days. we don't even eat the whole day and we get home so super late. and last last night i called her to discuss about what we needed for yesterday. yes i sent over two hundred messages altogether to remind index 1-15 about what they had to bring the next day. MAN. i think i overshot the 500 free. anyway that's not the point, i don't mind that, it's just that the teacher said that if the house doesn't turn out too well, if it doesn't stand well, if it doesn't LOOK nice, she would not take it. and our effort? i spent thursday night sleepless and poor siqi spent last last night sleepless. poor siqi lah i think she is under A LOT A LOT more stress than me. main character! haiyo. all her lines and everything. really pity her :( siqi! you can't fall sick!

bottom line: i'm worried about the illegal stealing of key home. i know this is unnecessary but i think it's just me to be scared of getting scolded. i'm just always super super scared of getting scolded by teachers. i dunno why. HAIX. we are putting in so much effort and if we will still be berated for our effort cos we stole the key, i have NOTHING to say. we shouldn't have done that i know. but WHAT TO DO. we didn't have any choice! 我们是逼不得已才这么做的！

Whatever. i shall talk to someone soon. i can't keep to myself. don't like to. i have to talk when i'm troubled/depressed/sad. yea. this time cos i'm troubled. i'm not being emo. just how a normal person would feel when he/she faces with something he/she is scared of. yea. that's about it. jiayou(:

Together. 9:38 AM

OH NO! it seems like i always meet with dilemmas. damn irritating. you see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there's choral night practice from THREE TO FIVE this THURSDAY again! and shitty it must be on the same day as my cca, SAME TIME! why am i so unlucky? this sucks i tell totally. and i won't be able to catch up. NEVER, and Mr Raj will just like probably not include me in that dance or something. cos i'm like the only one who missed so many lessons. and i definitely cannot catch up de lah. i'm so DEAD! DEAD!!!!! help me solve this unsolvable problem! i'll be so gloomy tomorrow just thinking of a solution! D: D: D: D: D: NVM chuck that away, there's really no solution so i just shan't think about it :( CHORAL NIGHT GETS PRIORITY HOW SHITTY CAN THAT BE?

NVM. NVM! kick that memory away!

i shall plan the itinerary for my family perth's trip. was supposed to find the hotel but i ended up complaining so my sis would do that! i love itineraries i get to choose where to go and what to do. LALA. of course, the final decision still lies with my parents xD

haha don't feel like blogging have been blogging so often i'm getting xian. shall go do my business now. the toilet's waiting for me. (OOPS sorry to be so disgusting) xD xD

Together. 11:16 AM

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. i just cut and rebonded my fringe. i didn't cut much just thinned it a little. HAHA. but now my fringe's all short again XD so like hahaha i may look so super funny on tues. just packed up and cleaned and scrubbed my whole room. guess it marks my new beginning of next year. i shall start it well. i promised. i will work hard next year! no one can stop me LALALLAA~! TRY ME. oh no don't runaway i'm not crazy. just a little too enthusiastic about studying next year. LOOOOOOOOOOOL. ahahhahaah do i sound REALLY crazy? i think i learnt that from Edward. he's kinda scary. when he breathes and kisses her ALL OVER her upper body. sometimes it's SOOOOO SWEETTTT. sometimes it's SOOOOO PERVERTIC to me. hehee. but it's a nice book, kept me going for like 3 hours at the hair dresser. VAMPIRE... VAMPIRE.... VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay i'm officially MAD. yay(: i think i'm really crazy. cos no one's talking to me now. giving me too much free time. GAH. my sister's friends are over. they're playing TABOO. lool soo noisy tsktsk. haven't told my parents about any of my marks, though i know that once i tell someone in my family my marks, i'll feel so much better. but i can't make myself do that. already this morning my mum asked me if i wanted EL tuition at TLL again. i can't deny it's SUPER good but it's too expensive. and i totally hate it when pple ask me to take up tuition. i hate it when i feel that pple doubt my abilities. but really, maybe i really don't have the abilities :O tuition. i can't imagine. why tuition? am i really that lousy? AM I. AM I? did i really do well only because i had tuition last year? Probably, as it can be seen by my dropping results this year. yea, maybe it's the tuition after all :'(

i'm going to study hard! yes i will. AHAHAHAHHAAHHAA. but i won't mug the entire year. i shall not slack too much. yea not too much. woke up with my family this morning to go to the wet market. it was such an experience! REALLY it was my second time but first for my sis and bro. was picking yong tau foo with my sis. hahaha. the simple pleasures of life XD but i differ a lot from my siblings. quite a lot. both my sister and bro are quite similar, in a way i can't really explain. i'm just different lah. quite about it. (:

going to treasure the days before tues. so i shall play hard this weekend! (: OHOH. was trying out the si shou lian tan of secret. LOLLLL. funny it's SO SUPER DIFFICULT. but i think xintong and marilyn go way too fast le. don't need so fast. semiquavers not so fast also. IS IT SEMIquAVER? anw forgot all my theory. hhaaa. well i'm looking forward to school except for obvious reasons cos hahahaha i like the company of the pple around me(: xintong's funnnnnn (: Leting's humorous when she laughs and provides great comfort(: alicia's funnnnnni (: huihan feels monkey (: that day at the swing we were REALLY crazy. and then me and leting held hands and started running in circles. then me xintong alicia and letings held hands and ran in circles. then alicia me and leting only. it was sooooo funnnn. we were just spinning and spinning. practically screaming our heads off but we didn't care. then me alicia and leting ran on the track. HAH. we were SOOOO crazy. but yes i felt so happy then(:

IT FEELS GOOD TO BE HAPPY(:

Together. 6:13 PM

OH BOOO BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! shit. i should have NEVER come on the computer. never never never never never never never never. NEVER. and now i'm reminded of bad memories. this sucks totally. OH GOSH i'm so vulgar. was never like that in pri school. i get vulgar when i'm angry or pissed. and this practically sucks. OH NO. again............................

shit shit shit. stop getting all depressed again shi yan. STOP. STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh no. it's all coming back nononononononno. it shan't. lets talk about something else. OH. i've read twilight until page 244 already. AHA! and it's starting to get really sweet. oh man, i'm not TOTALLY in love with Edward Cullen but hohoho. i'm not totally not in love with him. he seems so super real like he really REALLY exists. hah! when he was all so sweet to Bella, wow i was like smiling and there were actually also butterflies in my stomach. FLUTTERING. LOOOL this is so LOOOOOOOOL. but gah indulging myself in the book makes me forget about all my worries, like they don't even exist anymore. i guess really, our real competitors should be ourselves and how i damn super wished that i hadn't really done well in my life to have such high expectations of myself now. but GAH. 一山还比一山高。i can't always be doing well and better than those who scored worse than me before. YUH. DUH. how can that be possible. but it'll be great disappointment when that actually happens. you see. EXPECTATIONS. does this word actually HAVE to exist? how inhumane is it for those third lang pple to do so super well in their studies despite the work load they have? GAH but they chiong so super hard. nvm i shall take things slowly so i won't burn out by sec four. yea, if we all work too hard NOW, by sec four, we'll definitely burn out. so yes i shall enjoy studying, enjoy MY studying process. studying shouldn't be a burden so i shan't be so affected by STUPID marks. yes.yes. but i guess the real disappointment sets in when you don't do well after you've slogged so hard. YAh. but whatever. WHATEVER. --> shut up will you shiyan? SHUT UP. stop your brain from thinking. COMPETE WITH YOURSELF. period.

Together. 6:22 PM

yay(: i've officially got over my depressed mood. man i hope i didn't offend or irritated pauline (especially) sally (especially), huihan and xintong. i've been a horrid horrid person. SORRY! GAH aren't I an idiot? always disturb pple and make them feel so freaking irritated by me. i think sally's angry. cos i always take it out on her when i'm sad/angry/emotional. LOL. sorry sally. please forgive this no-brainer super irritating person. haha.

To Joanne: YEA. if you watched smile pasta the girl always goes "只要笑一笑什么事情过不了" thanks anw(:

To Huihan: HAHA. you needn't apologise. lol i'm irritating and hopefully stimulating too. though i think i'm not much of a physics monkey like you. XD and i've observed it long long ago. what you observed about pple asking you your marks and if they got higher they'd just go oh, and if they got lower they start praising you to the skys. HAHA. i know. i HOPE i've stop asking pple their marks like how i did last year. i don't right? do i? gah. i realised i was such an IDIOTIC person last year. can't stand myself. hope i'm not repeating the same mistakes. :P thanks for attempting to give me advice anw(:

To Sally: Guess i've apologised in the first paragraph eh? and i think you need consolation too! ahahhaaa. you're just keeping it ALL to yourself again. but i can't, that's why i start irritating pple like you.. and yes maybe i should try to be less irritating and keep my sorrow to myself lest i make pple all irritated and depressed by me. yes not emo, emo isn't the right word, shan't misuse it. (: SORRY SALLY (:

To Pauline: Hah, pauline, you hardly even visit my blog or maybe you do, just not tagging. but gah, i'm must have been this horrible pok so sorry to have added on to your irritation! :'( and ty and sorry lala. (:

To Xintong: HAHAHAHHAA you pig! i think i ought to thank you the most cos you always making me laugh to myself over msn when i'm in a horrible mood. LOL! though i always dig at you but aahhahaha given your natural intellect or discerning self or whatever, i'm sure you know when i'm saying the real or fake things. hahahaha so what do you think the part where i said thank you was? real? or fake? ahahahaha. i know you must be very clever right? the answerr iss.....





fake.lol

LOL. got it wrong rite? LALALLALALAA. i'm such a mosquito don't you think? buzzzzz.. haha stop piaking me, you should be going oink not 'i piak you' (: i just love digging at xintong. HAHA


yes we should all practise what we preach cos i'm always preaching to emotional pple. you know not religiously preach but yea. hahaa. so i shall also practise what i preach. in comparison with myself for math, now as i look back, i think i did myself proud for both the papers, more of the 2nd one cos i made very little careless mistake. first one, cos i could get the difficult ones right (but loss all my marks to carelessness for the easy ones). hahaa i could get the arrangement of 'x' ones correct leh.. (: and the prime factors one. hehe. this is called self consolation. so since i can figure out the difficult ones, i should be able to do the easy ones, i just have to cut down on my many MANY careless mistakes =) yay(: i feel self-consoled. AHAHA xintong is waiting for me to play reversi with her on msn. BYEBYE(:

Together. 9:18 AM

哭了就要站起来。okay. but i'm not sure if i'm done weeping but yes. i'll get over this by tomorrow. i knew i'll break down at home. sure. phew at least it's at home when i'll all alone. lala. yes i knew i'll screw my math. YESYESYES. when it's the only time i've worked hard enough for this subject. and i did worse. worse than when i don't even try. HAIZ. the sad truth of life. and pple out there score like ten times better when they don't even bother to revise or practice. well, it ain't that fault at all. it's just IN them. can't blame them, they just get things the easier way. LIFE'S UNFAIR ISN"T IT? i'm happy for those who did well cos they put in so much more. yes, i'm happy that they've done themselves proud, aka jesslene (: they ought to cos i can tell they REALLY did try. GAH. i'll work harder. i promise. for next year. when you're not naturally smart you have to put in SO much to do well. yea it's like that. i can tell you if i don't even study for any of the subjects, i'll just flop it. REALLY. believe me, it's not natural for me to do well without putting in any effort. really. most pple don't have that natural intellect. so if i don't do well, it's just an indication that i didn't try hard enough so yep, I SHALL SET ANOTHER GOAL! i'll practice hard for my math. i will i will TRY MY BEST to make this promise.

my parents won't scold me, they'd just ask me if i want tuition. but i don't want to forever rely on tuition, and tuition does not necessarily mean that you would do better in that subject. i don't want pple to think that i did well only cos i had tuition. i want to prove myself right. i have the abilities! yes i have. (especially when i ALWAYS lose 10m due to carelessness). i will practice and try to reduce unnecessary errors!

Yes, i can say that i did try my best, so even if i don't do well, at least i knw i've tried. I"VE TRIED. at least i've tried. and i can answer for my setback. if i didn't try i'll regret this even more. SO YEP! WAY TO GO SHIYAN!!!


i'm sure i'll get over this by tomorrow, right?



yup! (:

Together. 6:16 PM

NOW it's sinking in. i'd been numb probably the entire day. THE ENTIRE DAY. and now it's finally sinking in. i feel shittily crappy now. down right lousy about this WHOLE THING. i screwed my chinese, at least i think so. well i can't say i got very very bad cos there are definitely pple who got lower BUT, GAH. it's such a disappointment. i feel shitty. shitty. NO I"M NOT SUPPOSED TO CARE ABOUT MARKS. but i realise now i can't really do it. nope, i can't. at least not NOW. in 2 days time probably. no, by then i'll be devastated by my other subjects. OH GOSH. i feel shitty shitty shitty shitty. sorry. i know i'm not supposed to be so vulgar. but i CAN"T HELP IT. SAVE ME PPLE! SAVE ME! slap me awake. just kick me awake someone. i hate going to school now, cos we'll have to receive ALL our shitty exam papers. i hate staying at home now, cos i'll give my brain time to wonder around into the world deemed as 'emo'. i want to keep myself busy. so i'll forget everything. like how at the swing just now, me leting huihan alicia xintong heng yeng and jaslyn were so super gay, so happy, so free. yes, then i'll forget the total crap i'm in. yes, i need distraction. i can't have too much time for myself. NOPE, i can't. yes and i can't stand pple who before the exam keep praising pple about how good they are at the subject. and in the end, they SCORE WAY HIGHER. yes, and the people who they praised to the sky would feel so crappy. especially when they don't do well. i can't stand it SERIOUSLY. i mean. GAH. sorry if i've done that before, but i don't want to be like that anymore. or i don't want to be like this at all. it feels crappish. SUPER. yes. i've decided to write yi lun wen for next year's exam. cos all of them score 60+. WOW. at what about me? SHAN"T SAY. gahgahgah those who worked hard SERIOUSLY OUGHT to get higher than those who don't. i didn't work that hard for chinese this time. yes so i probably deserved this. but for pple who doesn't even touch chinese until the day before, yea, i should not say anything but just say that they're born with the gift in that language.

Language, it's a hard thing to perfect overnight, definitely. so during this dec school holidays, i promise or HOPE to promise that i'll read a lot. a lot a lot. i hope to carry this out. i'll speak more chinese, i'll look at more chinese. yes, now i feel a WHOLE LOT BETTER! (: so to pple out there who are feeling crap like me, just set yourself a goal, a goal that will pull you to think that you won't be that bad after all when you start trying to improve now :D yay! i feel a WHOLE LOT BETTER!

As for tomorrow's returning of math and science, good luck to me, that's all i can say.


JIAYOU SHIYAN! JIA YOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! you can do it! you can you can! life ain't just about marks, RIGHT?







yea, i hope so (=

Together. 5:56 PM

balls of fury

LOL IT WAS SO DAMN FUNNY LAH! hahahah! BALLS OF FURY, LOL!!!! me xintong keyu sally and pauline watched it together today. HAHAHA. i PURPOSELY requested to sit next to Xintong. HAHHAAHHAHAHHA. we were practically laughing THROUGHOUT the show. then xintong would occasionally ask me stuff then we'd laugh hysterically. it was sooooo funny. never seen or heard xintong keep laughing NON-STOP! even after the movie ended we set there and all of us started laughing for no good reason! in the MRT xintong couldn't even stop laughing. hmmm... it was VERY UNUSUAL in fact don't you think so? but xintong's laughter is contagious. she must have been SUPER high today... i reach there she already started laughing she saw me. crazy. but AHAHHAAA we ALL had a wonderful time! yay(: nice nice! i was so happy. yep, practically laughed my heart out. hohohohoho. hope all of you had a wonderful wednesday at home! :D

Together. 9:35 PM

HOHO. i so totally love this carefree feeling! yay!!!!!! i'm so free. i just woke up at my own time and didn't need that stupid alarm clock to shock me awake. yay so later going to watch balls of fury with xintong keyu sally and hopefully pauline! don't want to stay at home if not will think about the results tomorrow! D: can't take the blow man. HAIX. yayness to xintong and keyu's highness!

Together. 10:37 AM

I suddenly realised how super lucky i am, how fortunate i am to have so many pple behind me all the way. i'm suddenly overwhelmed with emotions, just feeling that i should treasure the luxury and freedom i get unconditionally. i have friends at school, and pple behind me at home. i mean i've never really felt so lucky in my life. :)
yes i read your post, those posted way way before. i can only tell you how much i admire your fighting spirit, how much you just try to look at the bright side of things. yes, you do have troubles, many in fact, but you continue fighting. and wow, it hit me at that point, how much i should learn from you and treasure what i have. you appear so cheerful, so happy but deep inside, you aren't at all. Really, all i can say to you is JIAYOU, jiayou and jiayou! you can always confide in me, yep, i'll always be willing to listen to your problems:) though most of your close friends are in another school, you can always try talking to us, US, if you know i'm referring to you. us, who would always be behind you! <333> hope i'm not being insensitive or hurting you in any other way, just want to tell you how much i admire you that's all (:

Together. 8:03 PM

LIBERTY!

LIBERTY. LIBERTY. LIBERTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how many times must i say this word but liberty liberty liberty liberty!!!!!

manmanman! though the math didn't go too well but WELL, it's over in ANY CASE. lalalalallalaaa. i'm so high. i want to do SO MANY THINGS. SO MANY, just TOO MANY! oh man man man... ahahahahah let me tell you what i did after the math exam today.

FPS OUTING! hohohoho it was damn fun. we took 174 to cineleisure and actually we didn't know where to stop then GANG1 QIAO3 we just randomly stopped at this bus stop and it was the right one. ahahhaa. okay so we went to buy the tickets. hehe we watch NANNY DIARIES. it was quite nice i guess, had a very outstanding moral of the story. it was touching. i had tears in my eyes at some parts. but i guess the show was quite a mess. kinda. don't know how come suddenly she can fall in love with the guy. but anw it was very very very funny at some parts, and i must say, VULGAR. lallaa. F word lah, A_ _ _ _ _ _ lah. lol. funny. Sally was laughing damn loud lah, SUPER embarrassing, as usual, her witch laugh. (imagine what others thought lol XD ) hehehehhee. and guess what? we saw this grp of sec three seniors comprising of two councillors. hope we didn't do anything wrong =X Anw OH and how can i forget? before the movie we ate lunch at this Jap restaurant. lol. ican't remember the name but aahhaa, me and huihan ate terriyaki chicken and Yan Ni and sally and pauline ate salmon something. then we were talking about SUPER random stuff, i must say, REALLY RANDOM. but we spent most of the time just teasing sally. ahahhahahaa. she's such a poor thing. awww, sally.. XD a lot of times we kept laughing and laughing then pauline said something DAMN funny. hohoho. then i think we were laughing REALLY LOUDLY. i was like banging on the chair. then huihan had food in her mouth (luckily none fell out), (: and yan ni was laughing damn hard too. pauline, as usual did laugh her normal way as she laughs EVERYDAY. teeheeee. (: so after the movie we went to heeren to take neoprints! hahha, we were REALLY swaku, or however you spell it, we were screaming and screaming like crazy cos we didn't know which camera to look at, there were like three? LOL. when we came out the pple were like "haiyo so swaku" like what's their problem lah, having fun cannot meh? -.-" then then we were waiting to decorate our taken pictures but didn't realise that there was ANOTHER SIDE to decorate. so we just stood and waited for the fist grp of pple to decorate almost finish and when i walked over to the other side, found out that all our decorating time was almost used up. so we were like chionging and chionging and it didn't , as expected, go too well.. but LALALA, it WAS FUN! then we just walked around aimlessly until we dispersed XD

i must and MUST emphasize how much i <333 my FPS grp, i think we are the most bonded FPS grp in the whole level lah. i love my FPS grp cos they are all super responsible and funny at the same time. everyone always complain that she never do enough. and we are always laughing at the slightest lamest thing. teeheee. FPS grp all the way!

and i bought twilight! hahaa. was quite random but since so many pple liked the book so i decided i shall just risk and buy and read. hoho. <333

Upcoming impt events:
1) Choral night (stressed >.<)
2) Captain's Ball tournament
3) CCA practice for next year's performance (stress >.<)

Things i wish to do(:
1) Shop
2) Disturb my cousin at his new house XD
3) Read Twilight
4) Watch more Korean Dramas
5) Go ice skating (even though i'm super horrible at it XD )
6) Cut hair
7) Keep my blog alive
8) watch TV!

lala there's much more that i can't remember right now, but YES, i can't wait to do all these things. and i shall start, with effect of TODAY! WOOHOO! yay(:

Together. 6:59 PM

i'm so sad.. i'm so sad... I"M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAD. i can't get over snow queen.. i can't i can't i can't. WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DIE? WHY WHY WHY? she's such a dear! :'( and poor deuk gu. oh gosh. it was so sad yest. the last episode was SOO SOOO sad. cried buckets. okay exaggerated but yes. cried a lot. it was so sad. why did she have to die. and all deuk gu's love ones had to go. bora's father too! son and daughter had to leave before him... lonely man.. it's so sad... so sad.. so sad that i cried this morning too. dreamt of it the whole of last night. sweet and cute and poor bora, and heart-broken Deuk Gu. OMG. this is show is so DAMN sad. i can't take it. i can't get over it so i'm not EXACTLY concentrating on my math revision. but of course not TOTALLY. i still do my revision. man man man man. i'm going to rewatch the happy parts after the exams. boooo.... -sniffs- i can cry anytime if i think about it. oh no. oh no...................................

okay. it's one more day down to LIBERTY. tata~

Mood: Sad/Devastated

Together. 1:33 PM

OH GOSH. i am feeling weirdly LOW. like i don't know. like i just fell from this really high land. OH MY >.< i hate being low. lowing isn't good. but but GAH. it's horrible to know that you are the only one feeling this stupid way. GAHGAH. i probably have too high expectations of myself. ANYWAY. I SHAN"T CARE!!! yay (:

FPS lunch? pauline huihan sally yan ni? lunch lunch? hope you all agreed to pauline's sms if she did sms you guys (: HEHEHEHEE. HAHAHAHA. i love my FPS group. and i love our mini outings. maybe this time after MATH on tues we can go take neoprints. AHH... exciting! so cool i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait. but why must the school release the results so early? don't let us enjoy first???????? GRAH GRAH GRAH. AND SOMEMORE they have to release it altogether with the whole cohort of sec ones. GAH. sickening. spoils the mood. but whatever it is, i believe i tried my bery bery bery bery best. Alliteration. LOL. writer's technique. i admire my brain sometimes you see. it just rocks. HOHOHO. hope i don't screw at LEAST one of my subjects.

FPS FPS FPS! hoho. now i hope we can do the OM together. it'd be so cool! i love my FPS grp (: We Swing,
We Laugh,
We shi tou.

LOL.that's kinda lame. but yes. i somehow think i'm growing attached to the school. don't know why. but yay (: i talk to many more pple in class now. like alicia, siqi yi jia, marilyn etc. yay (: oh and sheena. ahahahaha. alicia especially. she seems to be talking MUCH more nowadays. i so happy yay (: <--- mood swings >.-

IT"S THE LAST EPISODE OF SNOW QUEEN TODAY. oh man oh man oh man. i feel so sorry for bora. i will weep for her. totally. she's such a dear seriously.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY OF LIBERTY FOR ALL OF US AND MY FAMILY as my bro ends his PSLE on tues too. HAHA. my father said we'd prob go eat chilli crabs that night for dinner. YAY! i love crabs. we are kinda a glutton family. we love eating! ahhh~~ the smell of food as you roll it all over your taste buds..

i'm mad. lol.

Together. 3:07 PM

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Supportive

You are almost like a life coach for your best friends. You give them help when they need it... but you also know when to give them a push. People tend to rely on you for moral support and advice. You've probably always been mature for your age, so this is a role that's you're comfortable with. A friend like you is one of the rarest kinds. You are both a good mentor and companion. Your friends need you most when: They are confused or worried You really can't be friends with: Someone who only wants to complain Your friendship quote: "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

Together. 11:12 AM

HI BLOG! HI TO THE REAL NON-MUGGER WORLD AGAIN!

5 papers down, 2 more to go! WOOHOOO!!!!

but snow queen's ending tomorrow. i'm feel so sad. :'( when all turns so nice and SWEET TERRIBLY SWEET. she has to die. die die. what fate LAH! WTH. so sad! AHHH!!! then i'm not sure what would happen to the weak deuk gu. or however you spell it. he'd be so devastated. everyone he loves dies. dies dies. maybe he'll also jump down the cliff of Lapland in Finland. DON"T TELL ME --> pple who have finished watching. OH GOD. this is so sad. when i've grown to love bora like HELL, she was so DAMN sweet last week! OMG. she was like "come dearie" in Korean. OH MY GOODNESS. she was so sweet to the stone deuk gu. and they kissed. THEY KISSED! GOOSHHHH. why must she die when she has only been in love for such a short while???!!!! why must life treat her so badly?

ANYWAY. let's talk about the EOYS. oh man. i don't think i'll do well for any subjects lah. it's all too difficult. not VERY VERY difficult but still difficult. none of the papers has been easy lah. is it? or am i the only one feeling this way? oh man. i must be really dumb then. OH MAN. it doesn't seem to have gone very well. 5 papers, none of them i have ba3 wo4. crap lah. study so hard then like totally just die for every subject. OH MAN >.< please tell me i am NOT the only person feeling this way :'(

Enough of the stupid EOYs. no it isn't stupid. it's my friend. LOL. okay okay i shall slack for most of the day today!!! yay!! so happy. i feel very proud of my left hand and brain. both have done me proud! :) we had to write like somewhat somewhat 8 essays in one and a half hours lah! CRAZY RIGHT. for history. out to kill all of us. i finished like what 3min earlier only. then my hand hurt like crap. it was so painful when i tried to let go of the pen lah. URGH. but it was a cool experience I GUESS. hoh. yes. i didn't know i could write so fast. i think i wrote about 7-9 pages of words. LOL. maybe my estimation is crap but yea. something like that. (: (:

I SHALL AZA AZA FIGHTING ALL THE WAY!
GO GO GO! TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE HAVING THEIR EOYS AND THEIR PSLE!
GAMABATE. JIAYOU!

i want to do SO MANY things after the EOYS. you wouldn't know how many post eoy things i want to do :D

Together. 10:41 AM

CLOCK! ;