Can i ask, for one thing, is it THAT hard to lower one's expectations of him or herself?
and another thing, must everything we do be counted and recorded like we'll never be let off?

i'm not sure if i have a life. study tests exams failures. guess i have to get used to it. but it isn't easy, no it isn't. i suck at lang arts for one thing. that four letter word only comes when i mean it seriously. i hardly use it. can you believe it? i speak english at home but my chinese is actually better than english. OMG lah. and like wth must NSW be counted? FOR GOD SAKE, if they count for other subjects then good. but FOR LANG ARTS... can they just shut up. and stop treating us like prisoners?!

i have realised from 'experience' that the person who screams and freaks out the most when it's time to get back results is the one who does better, compared to those who just keep quiet and remain calm. they have to make a BIG DEAL, and when the result comes out, they have nothing to say. they don't even know WHAT to say when you tell them you scored ten times worse. wth. maybe i should just freak out like how i did last year. and it adds salt to the wounds. horrible it hurts badly. it's sore.

and yes then sally is a horrible person i tell you. everytime i want to eat lunch or recess i'll tell or ask her. then when she does she just runs off. wahh i want to eat with someone else also tell her lah. so sad. :'( nvm she's not obliged to anw. she doesn't have that responsibility.

It's a horrid day, and i had to get back lousy geog marks as well. i mean me and xintong expected it but in out hearts we just wished that this miracle would happen. but it didn't. should i just go get tuition or something? pple get tuition for the subj that they are lousy in. maybe i should. going to learning lab last year pulled me up A LOT. but it costs a bomb for good tuition.

my sister is good at lang arts and i'm horrid at it. freaking irritating and miss foo must teach me after teaching her last year. must be real disappointing aye? not a replica, not at all.

well, but we won the lantern making thing. it was amazing really. we were chioning like hell. sheena is funny i've never seen her so enthu before lah! we were frantically trying to scotchtape everything hoho! AND WE WON! WE WON! WE WON WON WON! woots. hohoho. cool and that person had to mistake me for dunno what and was repeating my name to the WHOLE LEVEL for dunno what reason. it was freakin embarrassing.

i'm horrid at it.
will that change?
will everything change?
would a miracle happen like what happened for my chinese? miracles are hard to come. it isn't so easy to improve on languages you know. i rather be strong in languages like sally. this is horrid. stupid. irrritating. crappy.

TERRIBLE.

i'll get out of my depression tomorrow. dun wry. at least i get over it now.

I SHALL TRY MY BEST AND DO SUPER WELL FOR THE EOYs! YOU CAN DO IT!!!! (:

Together. 6:47 PM

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