It's teachers' day!

I'm SOOOOOOOO tired. On the way home from Lido, i totally fell asleep in the bus. D: i'm really tired. then my head kept knocking against the lady beside me, so pai seh. then i hit my head real hard against the window too. argh! see that's how exhausted i am from all the teachers' day, FPS, CCA farewell, Unseen Prose etc. grah but i feel so empty now. no more nothing to worry. i'm kinda sad, we were on the stage for *snap* less than a minute. short and sweet u can say, but compared to all the effort we have put in to make this possible, we should deserve more time. ahahha :D but i really think 1/3 tried our very bery very bery best! (: YAY! thank you everyone. we all deserve a really good break during the holidays, though we'd probably just be spending time burying our heads in our books. =X And the teachers' day performances was GREAT. i mean i have NEVER EVER seen such an entertaining performance put up by a school, at least not in pri school. all the performances usually sucked. OOPS. but this time it was really good. me sally and leting cheered real loudly for all the teachers when they were either performing or shown on the powerpoint slides. Though we haven't really known many teachers, we still cheered and clapped and gave standing ovasions (is that how u spell it?) my palm turned all red after that. but nope, i never regretted it. (: :) yes, so probably i'll lost my voice really soon. ahahah. u think so? sally could cheer real loudly man, some sec threes turned around and stared. STARED. XD

and i dunno why some pple in our class just dislike out form teacher so much. she is nice lah seriously, though she is just strict about some of her principles. so yea, we cheered for her (: yep, and i felt really attached to nanyang during that performance, like we were really a big NY family. i don't think most of the sec ones felt it, but really, really, if we just learnt to accept.. (:

so after that me and jesslene and jiajia and simone and grace and bethany and saiying went back to NYPS. crap lah u see. all the teachers already were starting to leave. so crap. i tell u i don't even want to come back next year anymore. maybe i should go write a letter to the school. they are really discouraging pupils from coming back. met dear mrs sng! <333 though she retired last year, she still came back. i think her niece is studying here. (: wow, but she did age quite a bit, looked so super tired. haiz. we went to say hi, but there wasn't much to talk about. tsktsk. so sad. :'( shan't talk about sad things lah. i shall be happy.

ok then we left at 12. stayed in pri school for only half hour. so me and jesslene and jiajia headed for Lido! we were going to watch Ratatouille. lalallaallala. so we took 174 and lala we reached. then we bought 4 tickets we were going to meet shiyuan there after we had lunch. so we bought urgh MACDONALDS. yuck. i ate mc spicy( SUPER SPICY! I ALMOST DIED. I THINK I TURNED ALL PINK) with jiajia. and jiajia didin't even react though she admitted that it was indeed very spicy. lol! jesslene hor aiyo diet ah, only ate fries and milo. lol! we didn't have much to talk about, so sad.. :'( no topic. bleah. they were both VERY LAME. and yea, sometimes all three of us just STONED. yea. then shiyuan did not arrive only until like 1.45 lah! haiyo! the movie was going to start at 2! we smsed and called but she did not pick her phone. then we tried calling so many pple to ask for her hse no.! we thought she would play us out cos yep, she didn't even turn on her phone! so it got quite frustrating but in the end she did appear. ahahha once she appeared, she was super comical and we spent most of the time laughing at her stupid expressions and actions. she is really funny. so she softened the mood. and the cinema was HUGE i tell u. really big. i thought i had entered Sentosa. the movie was quite nice (: very very creative and nicely drawn. but the french accent was too strong. didn't understand some parts. but nicenice the rat was so cute. "Everybody can cook" ahaha main point of story. but i think the best movies i've watched so far are Death Note I and II, Harry potter soccerers stone and chamber only, Finding Nemo, Toys story. yea nothing can beat that. none of the movies are REALLY REALLY good nowadays. perhaps i haven't watched enough. :/

then after that cos we were all too tired and had nothing more to do, we just decided to go home. as i said i slept through the journey. reached home at 5. ya then booked the piano exam studio to practice for exam. sigh i hope i dun flunk it, haven't practiced at all. NO TIME!!! how i wish i had time to catch up on my revision and my piano. CCA, teachers' day, blah blah so many things tying me down. three days of cca per week and end so late. wah make my whole week so exhausting. but at least i think i'm growing to like dancing as a grp (: though we are lousy but it's ok. i hope. we'd learn to get better soon, won't we? can't wait to be a nice senior (: XD

Thank you to all who've been my teachers!

NYGH <333
1) Miss Foo
2) Zhong lao shi
3) Ms Chang
4)Ms Chen
5)Mrs Wong
6)Mrs Amy
7) Mdm Chia
8)Mr Mackintosh
9)Mdm Lee

NYPS <333
1) Hong lao shi
2) Mdm Sim
3) Mrs Sng (:
4) Mr Ting!
5)Mdm Oh Seow Wei (pri 2 favourite teacher :) )
6) Mdm Zuraidah! (wonder how u've been) Pri 4
7)Mr Paul Tan
8)Mrs Goh

It's your special day (: thank you for everythiny you've done for me! <333333

Together. 5:59 PM

OH MAN. u can say i'm quite high now. ahahahahahahah!!!! i LOVE Mdm Lee! <333 yay! even xintong jo loves her tons (: yay!!! she is REALLY NICE. for giving us so much respect. i mean, it really wasn't her fault but she apologised to us! 103! she said real touching words but i dare not quote in case i get sued by the government or something haha. but oh my, she has really managed to gain our respect tons and tons and tons! <333 WAY TO GO! Now, i really hope she comes and peep at my blog post or my tagboard, where she would see so many nice messages about loving her.. Awww. seriously, i've never wanted a teacher to even find my blog. lalala (: all adults should be like that. they should also at least give us a little respect as much as we must also give them respect. ahhh. so confucius makes quite a lot of sense in a way XD

Guess why i'm so happy? cos i read xintong's post and she said that she loves 1/3! My goodness, these words hardly ever comes out of my dear bf xintong! she has been complaining that she misses her old class blahblah but THANK YOU xintong for at least showing that yesterday's bond hasn't really disappeared. (: i was afraid that my greatest fears would be proven. i really wish, and sincerely hope, that our class would be bonded after shedding so much tears together.

it's ok to cry, isn't it? or is it just a really childish way of expressing your anger when u turn thirteen? Well, u can say it's all in the eyes of the beholder :/ sometimes, u really don't want to let the tears go, but i can tell u, i just couldn't control myself.

Together. 6:12 PM

emotional

It felt like an emotional dream. a trauma, a shock and it hit us real hard for sec ones who haven't really integrated yet. YET. and did they have to do this to us? Did she have to scream at us once we got on the stage and the stupid music just started playing when it wasn't even us who did it? OMG. i was pissed. freaking pissed. and she had to spoil the mood of our performance. yes. crash. all our hardwork. cutting pasting pinning buying and EVERYTHING. how much did we actually go through to make this possible? 1/3 a class who is only known to freaking mug all day actually got in. yes. we were happy. very. then everything started to crumble upon me and leting again. solutions to problems. etc. freak. i mean it was REALLY hard to get the class going. really hard. i tell u i mean like how does it feel to be screamed at for no apparent reason? did the teachers' day rehearsal have to turn out so badly? did it?

" some of u were just flat." quotes the male teacher
" YOU ARE ALL CRAMMED UP IN FRONT OF THE CURTAINS AND NOT LOUD ENOUGH!" quotes the female teacher.

and please. we WERE told to stand in front of the curtains. we went to mdm lee and told her that we didin't want to stand in front of the curtains and poof! we are condemned for standing all squashed up. LIKE PLEASE. but mdm lee didn't shout at us. she looked apologetic. yep, so after we got out of the hall. i was freakin angry. why? because when the teacher was screaming for an answer to her question, i was the only one who spoke up. i told her that we were told to stand in front of the curtains. glad i did that. tao3 hui2 yi4 dian3 class gong1 dao4. so we left the hall and stood outside. huihan said that she was damn angry and i bet i was 100 times more. ya, so that was when i started the crying relay. well leting well wanted to cry out in anger before she saw me so when she did, she burst out uncontrollably. yea then we were just loss. yep lost. we were blank. OH YES. and the female teacher said that we either have this, or we are kicked out. that hit me and the class REAL HARD, the words were like BANG. smacked right into my face. KICKED OUT? after we've been through this HELL? right so weeping we went. then i really couldn't take it cos i didn't want pple to see me in this PATHETIC state, so i practically BEGGED letingto go to the toilet to dry our tears.

i came back smiling, AT LEAST. but after much comforting and sudden realisation of the situation, i started crying AGAIN. yea leting too. we were just AT COMPLETE LOSS. thanks jo and gong yuan for like comforting me. XD then jing ying started crying. from the always cheerful face to the crying face. DRAMATIC. then sally was shocked and she started crying too. OH MY. i've seen sally cry before but well, she didnt look as bad. XD so the relay started. after a VERY LONG TIME, we were asked to go back in. CRAP huh. teary eyed. yep so sat down. i think all my CCA seniors saw me lah! CRYING. at my weakest. and they had to CATCH IT. i got really emotional again when we started to talk about her pissifying the female teacher can get. well everyone around me. leting, marilyn etc. then Mdm Lee seemed to have sensed the teary eyed ness.she walked over. marilyn suddenly got REALLY emotional so mdm lee asked if she was badly affected. she turned and looked at me behind her and i smiled in a pissed manner. then the tears welled up again. she then squatted down beside me and started comforting me. :'( awwww.. she put her hands on my back. but that isnt' the point. i got even more emotional cos i got really angry AGAIN!!!!!!! yea so i didin't dare look at her only to see that leting also got all emo again. the sally spoke up and said that 'we got shouted at even before we could start' and then she stared crying ... awww sally. that's sweet <333 spoke up for 1/3 rights. so i was crying so hard then steph leting marilyn sally josephine and ALICIA cried too. WOW. i mean to get the class get emotional TOGETHER isn't easy. so mdm lee walked away and i saw the huihan's and yumin's eyes were a little red too. that was the first time i felt just so close to 103. that 'we are all in this together'.

super touched by marilyn' i love 103 like that' awww mann. it's like wow. it seems that the class got so much closer. then it was our turn to perform AGAIN. so we dried up out tears and walked up proudly. yep, we held out heads high. before that we told everyone in the class to be enthu and most importantly, PROVE ADULT TEACHERS WRONG. how unreasonable can adults get, u tell me? they are just frustrated about something so it's the best to vent their anger on poor sec ones. wo3 men2 bu4 hao3 qi1 fu4 k. so we did WONDERFULLY. perfect. sweet. i know 103 spirit hasn't deterred. it's still there. waiting for us to grasp it. (: we DID prove the teachers wrong. or else they felt so bad about what happened that they just kept praising us. yes but i still didin't forgive them. when we were walking down leting was telling us, " just don't look at them, i can't be bothered." and then nice and enthu rachel lead us through hip hip hurrays. yay!!! and i cheered so loud, i could hear my voice among the loudness of the cheer. i let go. just let it go. everyone does crumble, won't we?

All i hope is that this new bond that we have just created would not disappear tomorrow. i hope 1/3 would not forget this memorable day. please. that's really what i hope for

my eyes are damn dry now, they can't seem to see properly. very hot, painful, no moisture must be. and guess what? fellow 103s? Mdm Lee called me during dinner. awwww, at least she cares. that's so sweet of her man. XDDDD<3333 sounded so apologetic. :)but it really isn't her fault. so she called leting afer that, and then we decided to tell u guys tomorrow. :D ok. my eyes are dying on me. i'm aching all over. OH YES! wait i forgot one more memorable thing! today has been a really memorable day. during lunch, me and xintong held each other's hands and ran through the HEAVY RAIN. so fun! splash splash. oh no, i'm going to get sick. soaking wet then crying my eyes out. i'm aching now, oh no i better not get a fever. okok so as leting says,

" At least we have something to remember 103'07 for"

Together. 8:15 PM

i feel like puking. mixture of cold warm hot sweet sour salty bitter food churning in my stomach. Jo and eva and jing yi came over to trial make the home econs dish. WAHAHA so fun. jing yi had to leave earlier becos of this Jap summer festival thing. so we continued/ we started at 12.30 and jo and eva only left my hse at six. wahahhaa. so cool. so fun we were cooking! and we did everything ourselves, including the washing of all the equipment we used. scrub scrub scrub. we mixed and matched to get the best flavours and we tried inventing yoghurt jellies! ahha. but you obviously know the outcome. lalalala fun. the only word to describe. :D we cooked practically everything ourselves and it tasted quite ok. fish too salty gravy too sweet. but it was great for beginners k. :P ha! my mother was conversing in cantonese with eva and she was so impressed. so cool lah. then in the car when my father fetched them to opp KAP to go home she was talking to her parents on the phone and both my parents said that she conversed so 'beautifully' LOL. funny. but my parents liked them both. they said that JO and Eva very outspoken and friendly and warm and blah blah. yay! i have nice nice friends. then she gave them both kaya to bring home. LoL. so funny. must have found both of them too good friends of mine to be true. lOl.

p.s hit eva anywhere on her body when she says the word 'lol' or touches her fringe. she allows it.

and josephine is so homely. can be a REALLY GOOD mother the next time. so... had cca this morning. TIRING. never ask me how i feel after CCA again cos my answer would always be the same. TIRING. yay!

i'm gonna memorise the FPS stuff already. so xian. i think this weekend will have no time to do much homework. so busy. aha anw byebye. jiayou for the performance 1/3! not only do we have to prove our class wrong but also to thank the teachers. though not many have integrated, teachers do play a part.

is it THAT hard to be enthusiastic? As a leader, would you be angry when your grp members do not contribute anything? it's the same as being enthusiastic. think about ur actions before you comment.

Together. 7:16 PM

Oh man if i don't blog i'll probably just burst out in tears or something again. I'm so troubled and i really don't know why. it's kinda stupid if you think about it but if you are in my situation, you would know how i feel. It's the feeling or unsureness. if there's such a word. something ireally can't describe. i can't get VERY happy anymore, until this problem is solved. is it so difficult to make a decision for myself? or should i just live my life out of other's decision for me? i don't know. you can say i'm stupid and paranoid for worrying so much but i think i'm troubled so much partly because i'm angry. i'm angry that there are such irresponsible teachers on Earth (if it's her fault) , i'm angry that i have to go for something THAT I NEVER WANTED TO GO. i'm angry that i'm being sabo-ed(but i don't exactly blame the pple too, they were just having fun?), i'm angry that i'm so indecisive of my own things, i'm angry that i actually crumble so easily at such things. WHY? it isn't good to be angry, of course, but i'm not even sure of my feelings now! i'm angry that they did it, but i don't exactly blame them either.

i just know that i would never want to miss my cca for something that i never chose to go. why should i miss the chance of a performance just for this stupid thing that i did not even want to participate in? yes, and i can't believe i _ _ _ _ _ in front of some of my friends today. well seriously, for one thing, i _ _ _ when i am REALLY ANGRY and really disappointed, or when i receive horrible marks or something. But nothing would drive me to _ _ _ in front of so many pple except when i am TERRIBLY angry at something, someone or about something. yes. i'm angry. really angry. someone just get the anger out of me. i'm so helpless. i crumble ever so easily. i never intended too. i just couldn't help it. i really was angry. i believe strongly that i have human rights so i always ending up doing so when i feel that i haven't gotten the right treatment from pple. hah thanks leting. and everyone else who was there. (: cheese muffin, nice huh? but i prefer my hello pandas :D:D

why do we have to go through all these?
we don't always have to put on a brave front do we?

Anyway, i would have died today if some good things didn't happen. well, for one thing, i know some pple would think i'm crazy, but i LOVE FPS. why? cos i love working with my group. <3333 i forgot about all my troubles while working on FPS today. and i was gravely serious when thinking and amending problems. at least i felt that i was of use. :D i was so focus on the task at hand that i couldn't believe it. i can't fail my group :) me love them sooo much :) nice people and great responsible working partners who always feel bad when they THINK they are of no use. ( but they always are) ahahhaa. i love them seriously! Sally, Huihan, Pauline, Yan Ni!! <33333 we shall do well for the time trial k? after FPS, i realised that i had totally forgotten about my troubles and then i had to remember them. but but... GUESS WHAT?

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WE GOT INTO THE TEACHERS' DAY PERFORMANCE! omg. we were the only sec ones, BELIEVE IT? leting! our hardwork paid off! :D we got through it! and we managed to get the class to enjoy the item! :) you wouldn't be able to guess how happy i was when i heard marilyn and the rest shouting so ecstatically at the news! people who used to grumble about being hungry are now loving and WANTING to perform the item! OMG. at lunch i was practically looking for leting everywhere i could in the canteen. then i spotted her. ahahahha. we hugged. TOO HAPPY. just too happy. a sense of accomplishment aye leting? <333 oh man. the first person i wanted to tell was leting when i found out. aw. how much blood and sweat did we put in? that sounds like the literal translation from chinese. :) 我们的心血

so after school me eva and josephine stayed backed to do home econs. yay! we are going to cook cook COOK! yipee. sounds good, SOUNDS i repeat. may not TURN OUT good. ahahhaha but anyway they were nice encouraging me about the stupid author thingy. damn that thingy. why must it spoil my mood? why must it restrict me from being extra happy about the teacher's day thing?

but then again, it's all for me to control.
letting go...

Together. 6:23 PM

Anw, saw grace at the killiney NTUC. haha i saw her there twice already. GRACE! <333

BBQ at my house! 19 pple turned up :D so sweet! my first encounter with handling so many pple :)

hehee. smile ur ugliest! i look spastic =X


So much happier XD we miss ur smiles!

HOW CAN I FORGET?! JOEY! <333

oh man, it's school tomorrow. D:

It's piano exam on the 11th Sept. i'm so gonna fail it. help! :'(

Together. 3:30 PM

Awww... those sweet memories of Talent Time and lifeskills camp '07. --- A sense of accomplishment after weeks of organising--- Josephine <333

Okie XDD that's it for now! bye bye! -relishing the sweet memories-

Together. 6:03 PM

URGH. just when i created a new blog the old one wants back attention. it seems fine now.. -.-" guess i'll just have two blogs! lalala~ lalalala~ elmo's world...

Together. 10:54 PM

hello :D this is my new blog. must relink me! there's something wrong with my previous one! XD

Together. 10:49 PM

I'm tired. giddy. queasy. yea. after effects of over stressed-ness. Anw yay! teacher's day audition turned out well and VERY well. thank you everyone in 1/3! for being so co-operative that recess! u see? if we are co-operative, we can get things done REALLY fast. we actually let everyone off like 15 min earlier! hahahahaha. yay! thank you and thank you pple! Argh the PSL interview! the more i think about it, the more i feel that i have said MANY wrong things. so i shan't think! yep, dun think. just throw the memory away! after all, it was my first interview so i can count that as an experience :D:D so byebye to that horrible memory. today was boring. crapped compo personal recount, the math quiz i didn't know what they meant by AB was produced to form E so i will be losing two mark. i dun feel so bad cos i didn't even know in the first place and i dunno how the others know but ANWAY, i know what it is now and i dun think i'll ever forget. so it's gd to make mistakes sometimes.

It's so sad to hear pple calling us the mugger class. SO SAD. T_T it's SUPER insulting for one thing. and sad :'( it's so sad lah. urgh. they'd probably think that if we are going to perform on teachers day that our performance is study-related cos of alphabets. URGH what's their problem huh? so hurting.

i seriously dun think i'll be able to excel in my cca D:

Together. 10:48 PM

CLOCK! ;